Discussion does anyone else spend the entire day waiting for bed time?

[HenryTownshend]

sometimes and then I remember going to sleep just means waking back up

 

[Anônimo suicida]

[QUOTE = "sadbadpsychogirl, post: 933279, membro: 18503"]
é assim que vale para mim ... acordar, tomar remédio da manhã, assistir tv ou outra coisa inútil, tomar remédio da tarde, fazer o mesmo, tomar remédio noturno, assistir tv por algumas horas e adormecer.
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Você também pode escolher dormir pra sempre se quiser, por que do jeito que vc fala acorda , toma remédio, assisti tv, toma remédio ,etc... Então por que envés de passar os dias tomando remédio nós períodos separados do dia, porque não toma uma quantia absurda de remédio pelo menos a chance absurda de misturar comprimidos e tomar pode ocorrer que você durma pra sempre, dando só um conselho : tomar pelo menos 50 comprimidos misturados , tomar todos de uma só vez, com certeza você vai dormir pra sempre

 

[ITryHard]

Yep. Add me to the list. Going to bed is bliss; waking up is terrible.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

Basically. I get up, get dressed then pretty much lay back on the bed for the rest of the day and watch YouTube or something. My existence has become totally pointless lately. I'm completely stuck in a rut and I don't know how to break this cycle.

its a good day if i end up getting dressed or showered...

That is exactly my life now. The worst part of my day is waking up, always a bitter disappointment. The best part of my day is falling asleep (always on prescription medications) hoping I will not wake up.

yeah i have to take a bunch of meds to sleep too.

Most days are ok. Today just won't end. Well, weed will kick in soon.

weed is always good

 

[Pho3nix]

You've just described my life. It's an endless cycle of meds, food, sleep, TV, computer and sleep again. I can't believe that I used to lead a productive life when I was able to work. Now life is just a dull locked down existence.

 

[BlackCatTalk]

I have to work but my best moment is when I take the benzos and fall asleep, but reality always reaches my ears with the sound of the alarm in the morning, I deeply hate Sundays because on Monday I have to put my face on. .. "wooow it's wonderful to have this garbage of life", the boss just doesn't care if you're doing well or not, it's just a matter of meeting your damn class hours and that's it. I wonder what my students will think when I'm gone?

 

[Disappointered]

Yes to pretty much what everyone else has said except I do not have a job let alone a career. I hate life and have gradually shrunken my "daytime" to about 6 hours of eating, playing video games, reading, watching tv, shitting/pissing & taking pills before slinking back off to the bedroom to listen to podcasts while playing video games with the lights out until I can fall asleep.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

God, yes. Me. Absolute mood.

 

[ocd is bad]

If I'm not doing schoolwork I spend the rest of my time in bed. A lot of days I don't even shower or brush my teeth. I know I'm gross but I just don't care anymore.

 

[MrTime86]

Best part of the day is going to bed. Worst part of the day is waking up. Winse, rash, repeat. I really wish I could just sleep and not wake up...

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

You've just described my life. It's an endless cycle of meds, food, sleep, TV, computer and sleep again. I can't believe that I used to lead a productive life when I was able to work. Now life is just a dull locked down existence.
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yeah :/ do you think an afterlife exists?

 

[Pho3nix]

@Onelittleb It depends on my mood really. I feel so exhausted today I just hope that it's eternal rest. I don't have the energy for an afterlfe. It had better be better than this crap if it exists.

 

[Dead beat dad]

this is how it goes for me... wake up, take morning pills, watch tv or something else useless, take afternoon meds, do the same, take night meds, watch tv for a few hours and fall asleep.

In a word. Yes

 

[TattiQueen]

I run through the same motions, roughly. It's not really like bed time that I look forward to, it's the wee small early morning hours, I love these the most, or the dusky - late night hours. The previous two days I have slept, literally... I had to get up throughout for random tasks, but other than that.... sleep. I go through these phases from time to time. But yes, I absolutely look forward to the nighttime or basically just any dark hours. My favorite days are the misty, fog engulfed, rainy grey days. Some find them depressing, while I find them refreshing and perfect. It's, what I find to be, the most perfect excuse to snuggle up with the kiddos and binge movies, or YouTube. I don't think this means anything specific for any of us, like nothing wrong with us specifically, it's just a personal preference thing ? Or maybe a reminder of something that makes us feel most comfortable?

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

You've just described my life. It's an endless cycle of meds, food, sleep, TV, computer and sleep again. I can't believe that I used to lead a productive life when I was able to work. Now life is just a dull locked down existence.

i used to be a somewhat functional person too, many years ago...

 

[Sherri]

8pm usually I'm in bed.

 

[ITryHard]

i used to be a somewhat functional person too, many years ago...

I was pretty functional too, up until about three years ago. It just goes to show the toll mental illness takes on a person.

 

[Gnip]

Well now, here's a wild swerve. Lurking at Sanctioned Suicide then joining as a member has shifted my attention from the idea of using nitrogen hypoxia to CTB onto my awareness of SN. That in turn has now made me aware of clinical studies which show potential for the use of SN for increasing suppressed levels of circulating nitric oxide in cases of obstructive sleep apnea. I'll be exploring this therapeutic possibility for SN (or maybe PN as I tend to have low potassium) further.

Critics of Sanctioned Suicide can go fuck themselves. (I'd tell also tell them to blow me, but I wouldn't give them the privilege or pleasure...)

 

[calino2212]

I'm in bed 24 hours non stop, it's the only place i feel safe and in a comfortable place but unfortunately that won't stop anything.

 

[allym101]

I don't wait. I just go straight to it. Any chance I have to nap, I take it.

 

[k75]

Why wait? I cope by sleeping and do it as much as I'm able. I figure it keeps me safe. If I'm asleep, I can't be awake killing myself.

On the flip side, I also have times when I avoid sleep at all costs. I have PTSD and my dreams are flashbacks. Nightmares. So I can't always escape.

 

[glitxo]

I feel like sleep is my only escape sometimes. But i always mess up my sleep schedule and i end up staying up the entire day or sometimes i just can't sleep for no reason.

 

[SodaBaconWeed]

Sleep is my only time away from a miserable existence. Sometimes I hope that I only get drowsy but during the day it's too difficult and I have to fill the void with random TV or reddit.

 

[Disappointered]

I feel like sleep is my only escape sometimes. But i always mess up my sleep schedule and i end up staying up the entire day or sometimes i just can't sleep for no reason.

Can't sleep right now. Sometimes i go for days on end hardly sleeping, getting 4 or 5 hours here and there, letting myself go now that my partner isn't living with me, playing fucking video games and stuffing my face with garbage, not even bothering to shower or change the sheets. i could easily see myself in an opium den just wasting away...at least i'd get to nod off a bit more. when there are no more podcasts to listen to it's really frustrating...don't want to take a sleeping pill every night but i guess sometimes there's no choice. bad sleep hygiene is part of it (only part) but i can't bother forcing myself to exercise or somehow use up more energy during the day...with who? for what purpose? got no real friends and no career, nothing to contribute to this planet...even volunteering is practically impossible to get...whatever. eventually i always fall asleep, dreamland i miss you.

 

[Bauhaus]

The problem is not I mind watching film & TV or playing games all day long.
The problem is I don't enjoy them as much anymore and have a hard time keeping my attention .
So instead I just visit the same sites over & over again everyday, like you have an internet OCD. It's driving me nuts.
And sleep... well I have to be really luck having a good day (not evening/night) of sleep.
And it's the lack of sleep that is the cause of not enjoying anything.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Yes, I can't wait for the day to be over.

 

[Chockles]

What is sleep?
Nothing aids my sleep anymore
Been 8 nights now wife awake even with benzos
Nothing touches my debilitating pain
N to sleep & ctb my only hope

 

[affinity]

I just really enjoy the night time for some reason. I feel like I have nothing to fear - no one will be calling or showing up at my door.

The biggest problem: I start to build hope at night as well and my present circumstances feel like they'll be resolved, no problem. A miracle is going to happen, don't you see. Then I do my guided mediations and go to sleep listening to positive mantras. Then I wake up at 5 and still feel protected by the darkness, but then the light starts to lift and reality returns and then my heart starts to race because my good friend anxiety just took the night off.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, the only thing I look forward to is sleep, even know I get nightmares and I often struggle to sleep. It is such a disappointing feeling, waking up. Every day I hope to die in my sleep. I hate being awake. I just spend the whole day overthinking everything. I try to distract myself to pass the time but I do not enjoy anything. Nothing will ever make me want to live.

 

[stygal]

As much as I hate falling asleep as much do I love sleeping.

So yeah - definitely one of the highlights of my day - and also because my bed is fucking comfy. The mattress is made for people with back problems and so nice to sink into. I would never leave this place if capitalism didn't make me.
Love you bed <3