Discussion does anyone else spend the entire day waiting for bed time?

[arainydancer]

Ah, I do wish sleep comes easily for me. Too many thoughts run inside my mind these days that just makes me end up a crying mess in my bed. But I'd love to be able to do nothing but sleep, just to get through the days quickly and hope things get better one day. It won't.

 

[depressedsoul]

this is how it goes for me... wake up, take morning pills, watch tv or something else useless, take afternoon meds, do the same, take night meds, watch tv for a few hours and fall asleep.

i do

 

[insomuchpain316]

Yes going to bed is only good part of my day...when I wake up and it's like 1 am I am excited I get to sleep more instead of dealing with the shitty days

 

[Blowba]

I get excited for bedtime lmao because it makes me think the time will go super fast which is super unproductive of me

 

[irememberinnocence]

Not exactly though admittedly my days are pretty dull right now (lockdown and partially housebound due to illness anyway). At the moment I'm addicted to chocolate (like probably seriously addicted) so I kind of look forward to mornings because that's when I eat the most chocolate.

 

[hdahsa]

This have been literally my motto for the past few month. Just get through the day somehow and I am so thankful when it is at last time to lie down with no disturbance for the next 5-7 hours at least.

I am into severe depression and so do not enjoy or look forward to any moment I have to spend interacting with people. I make full effort to be cheerful with my daughter because me being depressed is no fault of hers. But otherwise, yes I am really looking forward to sleeping at night.

 

[ClownMe]

Me. I'm not actually "living" im just here to survive for another day.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Yes, night time, early morning, and work is the only time I can function without my dad breathing down my neck. Thankfully, my SN is arriving soon and on a day my dad is away so I'll probably CTB immediately when I get it.

 

[Hurt]

I try to enjoy my day but when bed time comes I feel better because I will forget this reality for a while.

 

[mackav31i]

That's the only thing I look forward to is going to sleep,vand I'm disappointed every morning when I wake up and I'm still alive.

 

[pipa]

wishing an eternal dream....

 

[Broadland]

Sleep is the best time for me too. When I'm awake and I realize the situation I'm stuck in I pretty much lose the tiny amount of hope I had left for the day.
I try my best to try to forget about it by doing other things to take my mind off it, even temporarily but it's not enough.
At least when I'm asleep I forget I exist for a couple of hours, and even if I have a bad dream, it's way too fragmented and random to make me feel worse than I do when I'm awake.

 

[TheHatedOne]

Yes, going through awful bs chores just so I can go to bed and finally start drinking, the only okayish part of my day.

 

[siff]

Wishing an eternal dream...

 

[deflationary]

Entire day waiting for bed time, entire life waiting for death time.

 

[bed]

Yup, that's why my name here is Bed.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Isisnefert]

That is exactly my life now. The worst part of my day is waking up, always a bitter disappointment. The best part of my day is falling asleep (always on prescription medications) hoping I will not wake up.

Same

 

[MeltedJello]

Yeah, sleep is the only time where it's peaceful for me, since it feels like I'm dead. Bedtime is the best time.