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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
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just thinking about it right now and certain users... wondering...
 
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Nothing.

Student
Feb 27, 2026
102
Yeah. It's easy to forget, but every username and profile picture represents a real person with families, pets, memories, and entire lives. And now all that's gone. And some people have made friends and communities on this platform.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,206
I choose to honour Sakiseli by occasionally posting ventis and that one apple gif of an apple eating an apple.

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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,633
Sure, sometimes.
 
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hexfinaldays?

hexfinaldays?

Member
Oct 10, 2025
10
think bout me
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
Nov 26, 2025
1,190
Yeah,I think about them often.Honestly, I'll never forget them as long as I'm around.
 
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mutsu

mutsu

wanna get zappy?
May 17, 2026
96
i had a few people i was very close to on this forum who have passed on, i will probably never forget them as long as i continue living

i suppose you shouldnt make friends on a suicide forum but also i will continue to ignore this piece of advice

i hope youre resting well flandre and 2ndme
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
351
May they be at eternal rest. Some of them are amazing and very helpful. I hope i can rest soon.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,057
I do sometimes sure, but even moreso I think about members who vanished suddenly without an explanation or a goodbye thread. I always wonder if they're still alive or not. I wonder if their lives got better or if they ended them without telling us. Some of my closest friends from here are people I will always care about, but they are unfortunately among those who disappeared suddenly.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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A user I considered a friend. We talked fsh a lot. How we lacked the courage. I won't reveal exactly what he said but I think he finally went through with it. Can't confirm.
He's at peace. I'm sad for his life but happy he no longer suffers.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
688
Yes, I think about the 3 friends I made on here that passed. I hope they were able to find peace from their pains
 
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kurgan

kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
370
I often wonder what happen to locked*n*loaded
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

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Apr 10, 2025
2,394
@Namelesa (aka @Anonymousa) and @2ndme come to mind.

@2ndme's last words of "I feel regretful" have stuck with me for years, every now and then I remember her, eg when visiting threads about sn. At first I was thinking that she was getting the freedom she wished, but reading her say she feels regretful (how much idk), was hard to read.

@Namelesa because I talked with her as well, she's a nice moderator. She CTB'd (according to a friend here), with long dog toys or smth, and I'm disappointed that her CTB was due to a certain member here (the member was one of the few bad actors here, and took advantage of her)
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Member
Apr 15, 2026
74
@Namelesa (aka @Anonymousa) and @2ndme come to mind.

@2ndme's last words of "I feel regretful" have stuck with me for years, every now and then I remember her, eg when visiting threads about sn. At first I was thinking that she was getting the freedom she wished, but reading her say she feels regretful (how much idk), was hard to read.

@Namelesa because I talked with her as well, she's a nice moderator. She CTB'd (according to a friend here), with long dog toys or smth, and I'm disappointed that her CTB was due to a certain member here (the member was one of the few bad actors here, and took advantage of her)
im new here and i just read @2ndme's last thread it was a hard read not gonna lie and her plan is very similiar to mine... i still have a deadline and i could turn it around for me but i know i wont so im trying to prepare beforehand for the inevitable. that last message actually hurts so bad...
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
1,219
Yes, I think about few people with very sad lives whom i befriended here and they ctb few months ago. I hope they found the peace that they were looking for
 
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DignifiedGrave

DignifiedGrave

GrinderofSouls
Jul 5, 2026
67
I happened on a older forum of someone who drink SN to pass away. That forum warmed my heart in a way and I think that person's peace must have rubbed on me because I think about their goodbye thread where people were very kind to them and with them. I didnt know the person and didnt join till after this happened but I do think of it. I may start my own crossover thread when I choose my day. Tonight Im picking up my where and taking a shower after a week or so of neglect. So maybe that'll be sooner than later. Say this weekendd maybe. My inner negotiations has changed from "do we die?" To "when do we die?". My brain keeps telling me sooner is better than later.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,973
yes, I often think about users who were close to me
and sometimes I read through our private chats
 
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dandayooo

dandayooo

And then I'll be nothing forever
Jun 8, 2026
19
i think a lot about the person who said they were going to ctb in masculine clothes. i wish they had more chances in life to explore their gender...
 
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wisdom

Member
Jul 16, 2026
44
Yes, I kinda feel bad I Hope they are resting in peace now
 
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DriftingStars

Member
May 28, 2026
5
im new here and i just read @2ndme's last thread it was a hard read not gonna lie and her plan is very similiar to mine... i still have a deadline and i could turn it around for me but i know i wont so im trying to prepare beforehand for the inevitable. that last message actually hurts so bad...
I'm also new here. Do u mind if I ask how u checked an old thread? The page says no permission to view page
 
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sadlittlekitten

Existentially Exhausted
Feb 9, 2026
15
i think a lot about the person who said they were going to ctb in masculine clothes. i wish they had more chances in life to explore their gender...
As a queer person, these posts hit me the hardest and I think about them the most. I can't blame them and I do understand, but how I wish they had people around them that supported their identities and who they were when they were here. The individual I think about the most on here was in a similar situation.

They're in my heart and I hope they're finally at peace.
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Member
Apr 15, 2026
74
I'm also new here. Do u mind if I ask how u checked an old thread? The page says no permission to view page
when you make enough posts you can start using the search function. i dont remember at how many but i noticed it when i started seeing it ^^
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,633
Yes, I think about few people with very sad lives whom i befriended here and they ctb few months ago. I hope they found the peace that they were looking for

I think one of them did not.
 
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Braindead Girl

Alice (she/her)
Jul 16, 2026
49
I'm still super new here but some of these goodbye threads have had me genuinely tearing up especially @2ndme just her final words made me think alot. And hearing about those who have passed from friends i've made here just has affected me quite alot seeing how i have alot in common and could of genuinely been friends with them if we met and just knowing they're gone feels quite surreal.
 
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hughmun9

hughmun9

Member
Feb 22, 2023
88
I think about 'youremy' sometimes, I don't know if it's the princess diana picture that made them stick in my brain a bit or something else.
I also think about 'windingdown', she really had a special way with words. Her reason for suicide resonates with me too. Because, like her, I think I'm not necessarily thinking of CTB-ing out of escaping current immense pain but more so deep boredom, and for the lack of potential to experience truly beautiful things in life. Though I'm starting to think that might not be the case for me, maybe I still have a shot.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
855
Yes. In fact, I very often think of those who have passed away. I will always remember them 💔
 
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disabledlife

disabledlife

Arcanist
Jun 5, 2020
475
You are the best community I have ever known (I have hardly ever experienced any tension on this forum); I never want to forget the people who chose to leave, those trying to leave, and those seeking support as they continue to live. May those who have ultimately passed away rest in peace, and may they not have suffered because of that bus (CTB).
 
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NoPoint2Life

NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
900
Totally. One user I even think of like yesterday - if I look at the clock and it's a certain time.
I just hope they really are no longer suffering. Because I am a pessimist and my brain likes to catastrophize and I can never help wondering…. What if it didn't work? How many times have I heard a user say they've only got one chance to do it right? If they failed, What if they are in an even more awful situation now?
 
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