does anyone else here mentally harm themselves?

[smirks00ts]

self explanatory. Basically like looking at upsetting content or things on purpose to upset yourself and what not. im not talking about like physical sh like cutting and what nof as im nof able to do it. so I js look at things thst upset me like old messages or random callout posts. idk.

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Sometimes

 

[Awesomefoid67]

yeah sometimes i like watch/read stuff thqt i know will like trigger me specifically for that purpose

 

[ssfox]

daily :3

 

[lastappleonearth]

self explanatory. Basically like looking at upsetting content or things on purpose to upset yourself and what not. im not talking about like physical sh like cutting and what nof as im nof able to do it. so I js look at things thst upset me like old messages or random callout posts. idk.

Yes I do unfortunately, especially looking at old messages or listening to voice messages. It's torture, idk why I do it, I can't move on

 

[vanillacakeyyy]

always

 

[smirks00ts]

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Yes I do unfortunately, especially looking at old messages or listening to voice messages. It's torture, idk why I do it, I can't move on

get how you feel. I dont look at them often anymore but they appears in my head often

 

[coolcow1289]

I ruminate. I'm not sure I'd call it intentional but it's definitely psychological self harm. Especially when the stuff I ruminate over sends me into panic spirals.

 

[lastappleonearth]

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get how you feel. I dont look at them often anymore but they appears in my head often

That's the thing, even if u don't look at it, it still stays in your mind to a certain extent

 

[smirks00ts]

I ruminate. I'm not sure I'd call it intentional but it's definitely psychological self harm. Especially when the stuff I ruminate over sends me into panic spirals.

I do that too yeah. dw

 

[segfault]

I do sometimes look at old messages that have done much harm to me. Losing friends, getting told I'm not loved, checking the archives for that time I was getting doxxed, etcetera. Like SH, it's tormentous, but I have no idea why I keep doing this to myself, reminding me of my failures.

 

[Rev346]

Basically looking at the news everyday. I try not to but it's tough

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Yes. My mind is constantly bringing up old things from the past (even just recent past) that I regret doing or even seeing and it pushes me further down into the vortex of despair, regardless of how much I could've influenced the situation, if I even had a shot of influencing it at all.

Also, I moderate this forum, I think mental harm is a given /jk :P

 

[smirks00ts]

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I do sometimes look at old messages that have done much harm to me. Losing friends, getting told I'm not loved, checking the archives for that time I was getting doxxed, etcetera. Like SH, it's tormentous, but I have no idea why I keep doing this to myself, reminding me of my failures.

I get how it feels yeah. its getting less for me but its always on my mind.

Yes. My mind is constantly bringing up old things from the past (even just recent past) that I regret doing or even seeing and it pushes me further down into the vortex of despair, regardless of how much I could've influenced the situation, if I even had a shot of influencing it at all.

Also, I moderate this forum, I think mental harm is a given /jk :P

same here esp at the end. I hooe you are alrihht tho moderating this site

Basically looking at the news everyday. I try not to but it's tough

I dont look at the news often because not much happens where I live but i get it.

 

[Spite]

Oh yeah, I do that a lot. For some reason I hadn't really thought of it that way, as "mental self-harm". I think that's a very apt way of putting it.

For me I spend most of my time being sad or fantasizing about alternate realities and otherworldly realms (think of Isekai animes) where I can be truly happy.

I am guilty of brooding and ruminating a lot. I tend to obsess over past injustices and people who have wronged me. I'd say that's a form of mental self-harm.

Another thing I've done before is go on social media and look up the profiles of people who bullied me in school. Seeing how much further ahead in life they are compared to me, seeing their robust social lives, massive friend groups, seeing them having the time of their lives at wild college parties and living life to the fullest, is potent ragefuel and makes me want to put a bullet through my skull.

 

[smirks00ts]

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Oh yeah, I do that a lot. For some reason I hadn't really thought of it that way, as "mental self-harm". I think that's a very apt way of putting it.

For me I spend most of my time being sad or fantasizing about alternate realities and otherworldly realms (think of Isekai animes) where I can be truly happy.

I am guilty of brooding and ruminating a lot. I tend to obsess over past injustices and people who have wronged me. I'd say that's a form of mental self-harm.

Another thing I've done before is go on social media and look up the profiles of people who bullied me in school. Seeing how much further ahead in life they are compared to me, seeing their robust social lives, massive friend groups, seeing them having the time of their lives at wild college parties and living life to the fullest, is potent ragefuel and makes me want to put a bullet through my skull.

you stole the words right out of my brain. I hope it gets better for you buddy.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I ruminate and catastrophize all day, exacerbating my MDD. I am always obsessively doom scrolling the latest horrors going on in the world. I can't stop. It is like an addiction. I need to die to shut my brain off!

 

[Strangerdanger7]

I am not totally sure of this concept?
I have a question: is this kind of like the equivalent of dreaming you died in a car crash or something?.