Discussion Does anyone else have this dilemma?

[DeathMarch66]

I don't know about anyone else, but I find that my biggest reason for not CTB yet, is my responsibilities. I have people who rely on me for support, physically, mentally, and financially. And I love them, that being said I have my reasons for wanting to CTB...does anyone else have this issue? Does anyone else feel selfish and guilty for wanting to CTB knowing that you will 100% affect the lives of many people who rely on you for the worse? Thank you for reading, I'd love some insight from y'all, also feel free to ask questions.

 

[AnxietyHangover]

Exactly in the same boat. I have to help my family regarding some things and it keeps delaying my ctb. And I know it will devastate them, but the sight of me suffering and being constantly miserable is equally devastating, I believe...

 

[Elle]

Yes, yes yes! I relate to this

 

[h4yate]

youre 100% not alone in this dilemma. life is just so unfair to everbody.

 

[funeralcat]

Yes I made a post about having elder parents and how nobody will take care of them or giving them money.

 

[Pipsqueak!]

Yes I have this issue too. It will definitely destroy my family if I ever were to commit suicide, which is one of the reasons why I haven't tried anything yet.

 

[Elle]

I have my sister and niece

 

[SeaBreeze]

I've had epilepsy for so long, I'm still assuming I'll die during a seizure and not have to hurt or embarrass people as much as if I were to CTB. I'm the co-owner of a family business, but my assumption is fading and I'm reconsidering my cause of death

 

[FrostedHoax]

Yes, I can relate to this. I know full well that my death will cause a tremendous amount of grief and suffering for my parents and sister.

 

[MrDarkness]

I feel it currently, I feel like I'm betraying my love ones by leaving but it needs to be done

 

[saddestbunny]

I feel it currently, I feel like I'm betraying my love ones by leaving but it needs to be done

Yeah, that's the only thing holding me back at this point is how my mom would react hearing that :/

 

[Rowan13]

I don't know about anyone else, but I find that my biggest reason for not CTB yet, is my responsibilities. I have people who rely on me for support, physically, mentally, and financially. And I love them, that being said I have my reasons for wanting to CTB...does anyone else have this issue? Does anyone else feel selfish and guilty for wanting to CTB knowing that you will 100% affect the lives of many people who rely on you for the worse? Thank you for reading, I'd love some insight from y'all, also feel free to ask questions.

Not people, but animals. I spent years taking in strays to give me a reason to live when I was depressed and suicidal. Now they feel like a burden. I love them so much, and I know that I need to get their situation in order before I CTB, but that's the hardest part for me. I would love to just get it over with and leave my family to find them a place to go, but I know my family wouldn't respect my wishes regarding my animals, so I don't feel that doing that would be fair to them.

 

[ord3045]

Its had hurting my girlfriend and my mom. But i cant anymore

 

[HoleintheDark]

The place that I work at is really understaffed. It feels kinda weird that I care so much about not burdening them with more work after I'm gone that I'm postponing it until the new people come in.

 

[kelo]

Yes. I also feel exhausted from the list of things I need to take care of before I die bc I don't want to leave a mess behind.