Venting Does anyone else feel worse when waking up from a really good dream?

[hwid]

Sometimes I will have a really good dream and waking up from it is like a massive punch in the stomach or extreme whiplash. These good dreams make me question how my own depression works and my own reasons to CTB. It is very frustrating. The better the dream, the harder it hurts when I wake.

For years I have been either miserable or depressed. I have accepted that depression is just a part of how my brain works and that I've lost my capacity to feel happiness. Yet these dreams kind of ruin that because I am reminded that I am actually capable of feeling happy, but not from any realistic scenarios. Like my whole reason to CTB was because my brain chemistry is fundamentally incapable of feeling happy in the environment I live in and my powerlessness to change that.

This is less a question and mainly me just seeking validation that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

At this point I'd rather just have horrible nightmares. I don't really have any PTSD from any major event in my life so they never tend to linger. I get over them much faster.

 

[sheeplit]

I don't get nightmares. Even the "hag phenomenon" does not bother me (which I used to get rather often before). it's largely of psychological interest to me.

Good dreams, however, I consider to be my nightmares. I wake up feeling miserable, and try to "extend" the dream, spending some time fantasizing the dream further as I remain laying in bed. I don't get dreams often, especially these days, but it's not an experience I relish.

 

[StonesAndTwigs]

I have the exact same thing, it isn't just you.

Sometimes I dream that I'm in a loving relationship or have a great group of friends or that I'm a child surrounded by family or that I'm a prince, and so on, before waking up to pure boringness.

There is of course the flip side, with the most macabre nightmares that one could imagine, and most nights it's nothing memorable whatsoever.

Some medications make the dreams and nightmares way more intense and vivid too.

But I'm not exactly why it is that dreams are more emotionally vibrant than reality... it would be nice to figure that out.

 

[Dot]

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[Dinnerwith6]

I get disappointed when I wake up from my dreams, even if they're bad ones. Because in the dreams I have this extra emotion that's almost always present that I don't feel when I'm awake.

 

[Matchaaa]

I can kind of relate to this, I still remember one night I dreamt that I lived in London, UK, casually walking along the Thames. another time, it was California ,US. considering my situation, when I woke up I felt awful and disappointed both times though.

 

[enduringwinter]

Yeah sad as hell man. Those are the worst

 

[hwid]

It feels a little better knowing I'm not crazy, although I don't enjoy seeing other people having a shit time too.

 

[ZwartHartje]

I don't feel bad about mine, I rarely have really happy ones, but happy or not they mostly feel like home somehow, and I believe they emanate from the place I'll be going after this life. I believe it's this way for all of us, so perhaps you can take comfort in this idea.