Does anyone else feel that this site is bad for them, and their mental health?

[wait.what]

Well, suicide will literally kill you, so of course it's not healthy to hang around talking about it. However, I am not a healthy person, and that is entirely my problem. I think I'd have a good case for VAD as they practice it in Switzerland. Sometimes you just need a place where no one is going to blow sunshine up your ass, and that's here.

 

[Al Cappella]

Bad for me personally, no. Not great either, probably. It's not the topic or the site, it's just like all internet-based social crap it's, well, crap. Example: real life is like the sun—it can get really stinking hot, but for the most part it's ok. The internet is like the kid with a magnifying glass using the sun to burn a hole in the arse of a frog. Everything is an endless echo chamber of intensifying rubbish. Now if you take people that already have emotional disturbances and a distorted view of the world—well that won't get better here, sadly…

 

[outrider567]

Nope, just the opposite--I find this site quite helpful and comforting, able to freely express my feelings and anguish, and get nicely empathetic responses from many people here--Couldn't do without it

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

It depends on the person. For me, usually it helps me feel heard and seen, but sometimes it aggravates my depression a bit more - in the same way a negative song might, or alcohol.

If you feel like it's eliciting more stress than release, there's nothing wrong with taking a break, or closing your account should you feel it necessary.

 

[JamieJambo]

Idk

I went on the hanging megathread and saw an array of photos of people having been hung

Which is found really disturbing

I don't think people need to be exposed to such stuff tbh

I don't think it's good for you

 

[liallama]

I feel like this site brings me comfort but also definitely isn't helping me. Yet I keep coming back.

Well, suicide will literally kill you, so of course it's not healthy to hang around talking about it. However, I am not a healthy person, and that is entirely my problem. I think I'd have a good case for VAD as they practice it in Switzerland. Sometimes you just need a place where no one is going to blow sunshine up your ass, and that's here.

I am curious, how do they determine you're of sound mind for VAD? Do you think you'd 'pass'? That isn't meant to sound rude, but I'm hoping you know what I mean :)

 

[CTBgenuine]

I'm a big believer in what you consume has an effect on our minds

Like if we watch too much porn, or watch too much violence is will effect us poorly,

I think a lot of the time when I come away from researching ways to die, I come away even worse, and more off in my mood

I know that in some ways this site is useful, but would anyone else have noticed that it might not be healthy, hearing people talking about killing themselves and also finding different methods of how to etc?

This site isn't good for anybody! There's alot of toxicity, manipulation and attention seeking in this forum which can be cringy, irritating and unhelpful.
Of course there is comfort for some people but the negative outweighs the positive, in my OPINION


(awaiting outraged Karen replies)

 

[JamieJambo]

This site isn't good for anybody! There's alot of toxicity, manipulation and attention seeking in this forum which can be cringy, irritating and unhelpful.
Of course there is comfort for some people but the negative outweighs the positive, in my OPINION


(awaiting outraged Karen replies)

I feel the same, but also I think talking about making ourselves die is actually pretty bad for the head

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I feel the same, but also I think talking about making ourselves die is actually pretty bad for the head

If you think this place is bad for you, then why not leave? Why are you even here? No one is forcing you to be here

 

[Nolan96]

I find this place to be a real nightmare but it's a distraction I can handle when I'm feeling extra low and everything else seems even worse.

 

[CTBgenuine]

If you think this place is bad for you, then why not leave? Why are you even here? No one is forcing you to be here

WTF? They have just as much right to be here as you or I

 

[ineverlived]

Not really. I was lurking for a while and decided to be a member. Only those who have hit the bottom will understand when you hit the bottom. not family, friends or therapist.
What I love most about this site is that truth is spoken. not fake compliments. redd1t be like: omg you're so strongg!! hang in there! you are so amazing!! like dude, u don't even know me

 

[Lullaby]

I feel the same, but also I think talking about making ourselves die is actually pretty bad for the head

I think it's healthy in the sense that you're able to talk about it, without judgment. Talk about ideation in other spaces and you've got someone dropping the suicide hotline in response.

I agree that SS is and can be pretty toxic, more than it used to be, surprisingly but it is definitely a safe space to talk about your problems.

I guess the good thing is that everyone outgrows this place at some point. I only recognize a few people from when I was here last. The others have CTB, left to focus on recovery or just stopped posting.

I feel like the same will be for me eventually, this place played a big part in my recovery last time and that was due to the great people I met here.

Everyone leaves here having gained something, so I'm glad that it exists.

 

[whatevs]

If you are trying to recover sure, kind of unhealthy. If you're trying to kill yourself, enjoy your short stay, you are in good company.

Idk

I went on the hanging megathread and saw an array of photos of people having been hung

Which is found really disturbing

I don't think people need to be exposed to such stuff tbh

I don't think it's good for you

So you think we should stick out heads in the sand and act like corpses and suicide don't exist? It's good to be exposed to gore and such now and then, it's a reality check.

 

[CTBgenuine]

If you are trying to recover sure, kind of unhealthy. If you're trying to kill yourself, enjoy your short stay, you are in good company.

So you think we should stick out heads in the sand and act like corpses and suicide don't exist? It's good to be exposed to gore and such now and then, it's a reality check.

If you're fragile or disturbed in any way, then watching a human being disemboweled and decapitated on a gore site isn't going to help them LOL

 

[whatevs]

If you're fragile or disturbed in any way, then watching a human being disemboweled and decapitated on a gore site isn't going to help them LOL

I disagree, it does help. FREQUENT exposure would be damaging, but seeing it at least once in your life will put things into perspective.

 

[CTBgenuine]

I disagree, it does help. FREQUENT exposure would be damaging, but seeing it at least once in your life will put things into perspective.

Or it would inspire them to do the same?...

I disagree, it does help. FREQUENT exposure would be damaging, but seeing it at least once in your life will put things into perspective.

But atleast I know what to expect from your browsing history

 

[whatevs]

Or it would inspire them to do the same?...

But atleast I know what to expect from your browsing history

I haven't looked up gore in many months. My browsing history is programming tips, pornography and conspiracy theories, in that order. I stopped watching pornography a while ago, I hope I can stick to it.

As I said, gore did help me with putting things into a larger perspective. It teaches you a lot about life in a compressed format.

 

[CTBgenuine]

I haven't looked up gore in many months. My browsing history is programming tips, pornography and conspiracy theories, in that order. I stopped watching pornography a while ago, I hope I can stick to it.

As I said, gore did help me with putting things into a larger perspective. It teaches you a lot about life in a compressed format.

By reality check, do you mean it teaches us how short life is?

I haven't looked up gore in many months. My browsing history is programming tips, pornography and conspiracy theories, in that order. I stopped watching pornography a while ago, I hope I can stick to it.

As I said, gore did help me with putting things into a larger perspective. It teaches you a lot about life in a compressed format.

But nobody is the same! You find gore therapeutic but the other person finds it disturbing. We don't all think and feel the same way reg the same subject!

 

[user_name_here]

Sometimes I guess. I do get comfort reading some topics when I relate or agree with other users. In some ways it kept me alive, but I did also make an attempt using stuff I read up on here. And it was very close I want to try and take more breaks from here. I don't want to crush my mother's heart because of irreversible decision, but it's hard sometimes.

 

[JamieJambo]

Sometimes I guess. I do get comfort reading some topics when I relate or agree with other users. In some ways it kept me alive, but I did also make an attempt using stuff I read up on here. And it was very close I want to try and take more breaks from here. I don't want to crush my mother's heart because of irreversible decision, but it's hard sometimes.

Man I admire your consideration for your mother... That's beautiful

 

[Danjor88]

I'm a big believer in what you consume has an effect on our minds

Like if we watch too much porn, or watch too much violence is will effect us poorly,

I think a lot of the time when I come away from researching ways to die, I come away even worse, and more off in my mood

I know that in some ways this site is useful, but would anyone else have noticed that it might not be healthy, hearing people talking about killing themselves and also finding different methods of how to etc?

When I was going through a particularly bad time I spent all day nearly on here, at first I thought it was a comfort, because I knew I wasn't the only person who felt this way, made me feel "normal" for want of a better way of putting it.

But then I found that living in that confirmation bubble meant it was on my mind all the time, and it became more and more normalised, and I felt like I was heading more and more in the CTB direction.

So I took a break for a few days, had some work to do, and it changed my feelings.

I keep coming back when I feel low, but keep it to a minimum, I think you can end up becoming convinced of the inevitability of your situation, stop even trying, and go into a downwards and very rapid tailspin that it's hard to pull back from.

Especially when you are low, have MH problems, or are going through tough times.

On the other hand, sometimes there are very few, if any ways to fix the specific issues that people are enduring.

The "do gooders" and pro-lifers think kind words and "rah rah rah" BS cliches will fix things, but if someone is about to become homeless, can't afford food, have a debilitating or painful illness, etc, then those cliched nonsense approaches don't help one jot.

They just serve to make the rah-rah's and do-ggoder pro-lifers feel good about themselves.

Horses for courses I suppose.

 

[hellispink]

This is the only place where I can be myself. I already tried everything else. But the world reality is bigger and it smashes me everytime. I don't wanna pretend I am ok or bother others with my thoughts and views. Reality always hurts and most people lie to themselves about it but I decide it to see it rough and hard as it is. Lying to myself wouldn't make it any better for me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

This site isn't nearly as bad for me as I am for myself. If anything, without this site I'd just be constantly launching suicidal rants at my friends and acquaintances who aren't willing to hear them.

 

[ornitier199]

Well, suicide will literally kill you, so of course it's not healthy to hang around talking about it.

This is the point. I want that, to die, for it to kill me. It is healthy because it is peace and relief from all pain.
Not talking about it is suffering and repression which is not healthy.

 

[stormrOzzy]

Não, é um lugar seguro para compartilhar meus sentimentos com muito pouca iluminação, ao contrário do mundo real. Além disso, este site me ajudou a pesquisar um método adequado para acabar com meu sofrimento, que de outra forma eu não teria encontrado.

Este site também oferece a opção de recuperação para quem quiser. Apoia tanto quem quer sair como quem quer lutar.

Eu sou um homem trans e te entendo

 

[Sleepykitty]

I think it's soothing to commiserate with fellow suicidals. Don't know if it's constructive towards recovery however.

I agree and perhaps its not constructive to recovery. But it sure is more helpful than having someone else just go "it'll pass" "everyone feels that way sometimes" or that fuckin helpline pop up when you google ways to die. Yeah that just made me more angry.

I can say since finding this sight last month, its just nice to pop on.
Since reading about the SN and a couple of the "so long" threads, kind of made me a bit calmer.

Course, part of that could be me leaving a job that made me imagine taking the box knife and slamming it into my neck. My brain went ahead and kicked in movie style over head view with blood pool and crowd too. Haha
But knowing i can now form a real plan and just be ready. Its a bit... I'm not sure how to explain...freeing perhaps?

 

[faunaaaa]

Yes, but it gives me hope :( I know I should keep living but I hope there's a way I don't have to

 

[ReluctantSeeker]

Exactly. By going into your Preferences, you can hide the Suicide Discussion forum and only get updates from the Recovery one. I believe there is a place here for everyone, no matter which path they decide to take.

I had no idea about this. This is only going to deepen my respect for those that run this place. (And frankly, also those who contribute content like this. My compliments, DynamicDepression!)

As soon as I figure out how to anonymously get cryptocurrency in and out of an account I'm going to send this place a donation.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

It helped me tbh. It made me feel safer knowing that there were people like me out there supporting each other who understood me and wanted to help me find an exit.

If I didn't have this group, my approach to CTB would've been more desperate and irrational, and I would've probably ended up surviving with lifelong injuries. Instead I was able to get good info, formulate a good plan, and then try to recover IRL with the assurance that I had an exit if that failed.

Exactly this. This site is the reason I've lasted the last 3 years, the last 1.5 years especially. My time is coming to an end now, but my ending would have been sooner and much worse without this community. Just knowing I had a way out and could keep trying until there was nothing left to try which is the point I'm at now (medical professionals basically just gaslight me and refuse to help me despite abnormal findings and symptoms and diagnoses).