Does anyone else feel that this site is bad for them, and their mental health?

[Lost in a Dream]

No, I don't think this site is bad for my mental health. It's the things happening on the outside that keep bringing me back here that bring me down.

It's addictive and I waste a lot of time on here. But even saying that, when I really look at it, everybody else is wasting time doing something like watching TV, facebook, yadda yadda. So choosing this forum as my current time waster really isn't any worse.

I'd say that coming here is better than going to those other places. As far as social media goes, SS is like weed, but facebook might as well be meth.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

no, it has helped me at times when I have had panic attacks and/or anxiety.

 

[y0dha]

Well I like this forum cause it has allowed me to find a method for ctb.
But I think there is quite a lot of suicide ideation here, whereas on some others forums/websites it tends to be opposite side of spectrum with toxic positivity.
That's why I basically mostly check posts about methods to try gather info and/or help with the knowledge i got.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

This place has made me feel much, much better about how I feel actually. I can be raw and real about how I've felt throughout nearly my entire life without sugarcoating. This is a place of true catharsis for me. I can say even the worst on my mind - that I, like many, don't find any of this shit worth it any more so much so that I wish I could no longer be a part of the equation - and I'm understood! I am heard! I'm not just institutionalized at the mere mention of ideations and losing the will to entertain this flaming bag of dogshit world, and I am not gaslit. I am not talked down to. I am allowed to feel everything I want to feel without apology. I have been on and off in this community since the reddit days and this is the place where I feel the safest on the internet.

It's helped me to get better as a person, too. It has helped me accept the thoughts society deemed unacceptable and I've begun to work on it and push myself to a recovery path. But knowing in the darkest moments when I've fallen back, I know there is an entire community waiting who truly and deeply understands my struggles.


I love this place.

 

[19andOverdue]

Honestly I just recently started participating, and it's incredible how therapeutic writing my problems and talking to like minded people has been. It's like I'm journaling, or posting my feelings on social media, but without the repercussions

This place has made me feel much, much better about how I feel actually. I can be raw and real about how I've felt throughout nearly my entire life without sugarcoating. This is a place of true catharsis for me. I can say even the worst on my mind - that I, like many, don't find any of this shit worth it any more so much so that I wish I could no longer be a part of the equation - and I'm understood! I am heard! I'm not just institutionalized at the mere mention of ideations and losing the will to entertain this flaming bag of dogshit world, and I am not gaslit. I am not talked down to. I am allowed to feel everything I want to feel without apology. I have been on and off in this community since the reddit days and this is the place where I feel the safest on the internet.

It's helped me to get better as a person, too. It has helped me accept the thoughts society deemed unacceptable and I've begun to work on it and push myself to a recovery path. But knowing in the darkest moments when I've fallen back, I know there is an entire community waiting who truly and deeply understands my struggles.


I love this place.

Ive gotten some good therapy from essentially "journaling" on this site. In a way it feels like saying a big "fuck you" to a society that throws you in a hospital room when you become vulnerable. Brings back that teenage angst.

 

[19andOverdue]

Well I like this forum cause it has allowed me to find a method for ctb.
But I think there is quite a lot of suicide ideation here, whereas on some others forums/websites it tends to be opposite side of spectrum with toxic positivity.
That's why I basically mostly check posts about methods to try gather info and/or help with the knowledge i got.

Try exploring the other parts of the forum that make you feel validated/relatable. I think there's a lot more to find than just methods. I know I've found some genuine compassion

 

[outrider567]

No, quite the opposite--This site is quite comforting and educational, quite a lot of nice fellow sufferers here

 

[freedompass]

This place is pretty much my comfort zone. I have other mental health resources for all the 'recovery' shit. When I need to vent the dark thoughts it's been here for me when nothing and no one else is.

 

[blacktrain98]

I think this site serves a specific niche, and for that reason I wouldn't, like, recommend it to others who are depressed right off the bat. There are hundreds of reasons why someone would come onto a site like this, and I don't think it's the answer for every single one.

That being said, I'm extremely confident in saying that this forum does not push me to become more depressed. It's worth so much to me to witnessed people who are going through what I'm experiencing.

I had to really look hard for this site because every other platform would ban people talking realistically about the state they are in. I can understand and sympathize with people who might have found this site accidentally and it did numbers on them.

Usually I get uber depressed, log in after a hiatus, and become a little less depressed after reading a bunch of posts. Suicide and depression is so isolating, and a lot of people just need a community to tide them through the bad nights. At least that's the camp I'm in.

Also the memes are good

 

[Euthanza]

The bad thing about suicide is because of prohibition by crab-mentality-preventors, they're trying so hard to block our choices to a peaceful end, thus making life more miserable for all.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

This is the only place I could tell anyone I wanted to die and there has been some relief and even healing from it.

In my life, the people here are the only people I can be truly honest with and that makes this place helpful.

I honestly think I'd be in more of a rush and considering fewer aspects of CTB without this site.

 

[ge0rge]

yes, because it's full of weebs :(

 

[castler]

This site is a source just like assisted suicide organizations. It's helpful if discretion is used. I can clearly see methods which are viable. People with level heads say yay/nay on methods suggested.

Yes. This site has helped me to use it as a resource and when the time has come to CTB, I'll make sure I don't miss that bus.

 

[obafgkm]

This is the only place I could tell anyone I wanted to die and there has been some relief and even healing from it.

In my life, the people here are the only people I can be truly honest with and that makes this place helpful.

I honestly think I'd be in more of a rush and considering fewer aspects of CTB without this site.

Yes, like Twitter has a "report suicide" function, making it simply unusable. There are many nosy people in this world

 

[Hope:-)]

To be honest, the suicide discussion section is not about mental health improvement ideas and tools. A lot of people myself included go there because they are considering death.Maybe check out the recovery section or if it's too tempting to go on the suicide discussion section then find a site dedicated to mental health improvement. x

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

I'm a big believer in what you consume has an effect on our minds

Like if we watch too much porn, or watch too much violence is will effect us poorly,

I think a lot of the time when I come away from researching ways to die, I come away even worse, and more off in my mood

I know that in some ways this site is useful, but would anyone else have noticed that it might not be healthy, hearing people talking about killing themselves and also finding different methods of how to etc?

When I have private discussions with people, it feels like shit just got more real, and I go away feeling more shocked and scared at what I'm planning to do - but if I'm going to do it, I better be sure, so it's necessary. If I can't handle discussing it with people, then maybe it's just a fantasy I'm using for comfort, to console myself.

 

[LittleJem]

I'm on this site because my depression has made me want to die for over twenty years. This site does not cause my depression.

I had a psychologist recently suggest that my suicidal thoughts were negative thoughts, to which I answered they are a response to my constant misery and I will always be pro assisted dying. No matter how long I choose to endure this suffering.

 

[abyss]

I feel paranoid I'll have some negative impact on other people with my comments, I really don't want any of you to die, I want us to get past the pain we are in, even if that probably comes across as naive.

 

[LunaNyx_]

Is it harmful if you're past wanting recovery? Nothing that exists can keep me from killing myself. So....

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

Is it harmful if you're past wanting recovery? Nothing that exists can keep me from killing myself. So....

could some that comes from a genie's lamp keep you from killing yourself? something normally impossible?

 

[eternal_life]

I found this forum a few weeks ago, and it has helped me identify with a lot of what is said here and with some people, and learn things I didn't know. I think this forum is very helpful for those of us who are thinking about CTB, and to be able to communicate with other people in a similar situation. It is a forum where respect also reigns.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

I feel paranoid I'll have some negative impact on other people with my comments, I really don't want any of you to die, I want us to get past the pain we are in, even if that probably comes across as naive.

I'm the same. I'm careful to avoid sounding like I am encouraging or co-signing someone to CTB. I will generally only comment on someone's decision to do it where I'm worried someone might just injure themselves and suffer more in the end, but I won't tell someone to go for it. I wish we could all recover, but I will settle for being there for each other when we hurt or struggle.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

When I have private discussions with people, it feels like shit just got more real, and I go away feeling more shocked and scared at what I'm planning to do - but if I'm going to do it, I better be sure, so it's necessary. If I can't handle discussing it with people, then maybe it's just a fantasy I'm using for comfort, to console myself.

I was gonna say the same thing-been here a few weeks and no one that I know of or have been chatting to has CTB (which is good!) but I think shit will get real if/when any member CTB and I might start viewing the site differently I dunno. As of now I'm very glad to have found this place and it's helping me right now.

It's possible there has been the odd member who has CTB whilst I've been here and I've missed it but it just goes to show no one is being encouraged to CTB and it's not like we are all taking our lives left right and centre like the pro-lifers would have you believe...

 

[Suspect_Device]

I don't get that effect, it makes me feel less alone. Before I found it the misery and fear was like a boiling pot of water, now its more like a steady simmer

 

[LunaNyx_]

could some that comes from a genie's lamp keep you from killing yourself? something normally impossible?

Lmao yes. If I could use magic to magically transform myself into my OC, insert myself into the OG Ben 10 universe and date Ben 10 I'd be super happy and no longer terminally suicidal. :D

I've loved him and his show since I was a kid. Him and other cartoons I absolutely adore are the only thing that's... Kept me alive this long.

When you're abused by your teachers, tortured by your fellow classmates, have no friends because of that and on top of that a shitty homelife and on top of that ARE autistic which is the reason all this abuse is happening? You keep the habit of imaginary friends for a while...

And he is my friend. At least to me. He brings me the comfort real life never gave me. I love him. Many people don't get why and think I'm weird.

But then again EVERYONE thinks I'm weird. So I don't care. He's kept me alive and sane for this long. He's a genuine source of joy for me.

So... If I could trade this reality, for his? And be by his side? Fighting intergalactic villains and being heroes? I'd take that in a heartbeat. To re-live my life in a happier environment.

Anything is better than my eventual rotting corpse in less than 2 years.

 

[Expiry]

I've only registered today. I feel safe here its been a net positive for me. I wouldn't say I feel more pushed towards cbt from reading posts. It helps me understand all my options better. Wish I had discovered this site sooner.

 

[theboy]

Information should really be sought to help us get out of this depressive loop. The only thing on the forum is "Recovery". However, it helps us to empathize and know that we are not alone in this. I hope we can all find the way out and see the light in life... mental health is important. In fact, I don't usually comment giving help tips for CTB... I think knowing that with a comment you can end a person's life is terrifying.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Not really. I was suicidal when I found SaSu. If I left, I'd still be suicidal. What's bad for my mental health is my fucked-up life and resulting depression. SaSu has nothing whatsoever to do with fucking up my life.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

Lmao yes. If I could use magic to magically transform myself into my OC, insert myself into the OG Ben 10 universe and date Ben 10 I'd be super happy and no longer terminally suicidal. :D

I've loved him and his show since I was a kid. Him and other cartoons I absolutely adore are the only thing that's... Kept me alive this long.

When you're abused by your teachers, tortured by your fellow classmates, have no friends because of that and on top of that a shitty homelife and on top of that ARE autistic which is the reason all this abuse is happening? You keep the habit of imaginary friends for a while...

And he is my friend. At least to me. He brings me the comfort real life never gave me. I love him. Many people don't get why and think I'm weird.

But then again EVERYONE thinks I'm weird. So I don't care. He's kept me alive and sane for this long. He's a genuine source of joy for me.

So... If I could trade this reality, for his? And be by his side? Fighting intergalactic villains and being heroes? I'd take that in a heartbeat. To re-live my life in a happier environment.

Anything is better than my eventual rotting corpse in less than 2 years.

I sometimes see dogs and feel extremely envious of them - they just get to sit around living rooms all day laying on the sofa, go for walks, get driven about, get fed, generally just get taken care of. I'd also trade being a human for being a seagull. They just fly about all day, and they look like they genuinely love flying about and eating dropped food, and just chilling on roofs and stuff, their lives are so easy they even have afternoon naps on my local supermarket roof in the sun - I have terribly childish fantasies too about not being in my own life!

I was gonna say the same thing-been here a few weeks and no one that I know of or have been chatting to has CTB (which is good!) but I think shit will get real if/when any member CTB and I might start viewing the site differently I dunno. As of now I'm very glad to have found this place and it's helping me right now.

It's possible there has been the odd member who has CTB whilst I've been here and I've missed it but it just goes to show no one is being encouraged to CTB and it's not like we are all taking our lives left right and centre like the pro-lifers would have you believe...

When someone offers to meet up with you and do it simultaneously, that's next level shit! But I am extremely tempted and grateful for those kind of offers. I wish I could just say 'OK', and get it over and done with, but stupid SI and dumb, blind hope keeps from going through with it. And guilt that it will destroy my Mum's last 10 years. She's 70. I wish she was 80 so bad!

 

[Burner1234]

Idk man this place is pretty much the only place where I can be honest about my situation, it is all I got. Even my own family doesn't know what to do with me.