Wow, my life is almost EXACTLY the way this OP described lol (well at least the "born in rich family and having good education, but falling off the cliff" part).
Born in a rich family. Studied abroad in numerous places. Got a degree from a pretty prestigious university.
But here I am, no jobs (which I wanted in the first place because I feel a great discomfort and anxiety living in a "community"), no income, my dad is arrested due to BS reason, my mom divorced, my sister is unknown in whereabouts, our family now being pit bottom of society, …etc.
But the weird thing is that I had this ominous feeling even when I was in elementary school that my life was destined to fail. I was bullied in every stage of childhood, and nobody came to my defense.
I never truly got along with any human relationships, and by high school, I came to the realization that nobody (which includes parents) could understand me.
I'm at a point where even ctb is tiring. Sure, I have SI and I'm also scared to die (even though I want to), but I just want to completely disappear from this world without even realizing it. I'm just that "done" with life.