Does anybody else here genuinely not have any friends?

[katara]

I was just curious if anybody here can relate. I have been to multiple depression forums and suicide chat rooms before, and I noticed that most of these people are quite normal. People would always mention that the reason they'd never commit suicide is because of friends and family, and seeing that over and over would make me feel really terrible inside. I wonder if anyone here understands what it's like to have nobody.

 

[artificial_ineptness]

I get this feeling sometimes. I mean, if people who have more in life than me in many ways are still depressed / suicidal, then, clearly, it's totally over for me. My whole social life is nothing more than making a couple of comments here lmao

Although, I think having no-one is not that unusual on SaSu.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

I have one friend on discord that lives in another state that I have met before.
Outside of that everyone else I just know from work, but I don't feel that they are my friends, more just forced into the situation, and I always feel like the least liked person at work - maybe I'm paranoid, or maybe it's because they are just better friends with everyone else idk.
When I'm not at work I'm very alone.

 

[waitingforrest]

I relate as well. I know it's not those people's intentions, I am glad that they have friends. Yet, I can't help but be reminded of my own situation and how wanted and failed to make friends.

Reminds me of the things I don't have in a sense. Sometimes I wonder if I should just say I am lonely because no matter how many people talk to me, I would still feel alone.

I hope that nobody has to experience having no one, but it's just a hope. Sadly, some things that we want can't be obtainable.

I do hope that more people can relate to you, it feels horrible to have no one there or understand.

 

[UnravelingWinter]

I live with my sister, but other than her I don't have any friends.

 

[Why Me?]

I truly have no friends. I moved in with a "friend" a few years ago, but he completely ignores me. He tried to kick me out, but I don't have anywhere to go. On average, I go 24 hours without seeing or speaking to anyone, usually for days, unless I see this "friend" outside of my room, and exchange 2 or 3 words with him, which is rare. I could die, and he wouldn't know I was dead for days, because he doesn't even check on me (I only stay in my bedroom), and it's his house. I have not left this house in months, because I haven't had an outside errand to run. The most I do is pickup groceries from the front door if I need to. The reason why I don't have any friends is because my life has been so strange, it didn't make sense for me to have any, and it would be very uncomfortable meeting with anyone in person. However, I would like to have someone to speak on the phone with. I'm a phone person, and if I click with a person, I can talk for hours, but at this point they would have to be strange like me, you know in a really bad situation but in need of someone to talk to. Thru out my life, I've only had 1 or 2 friends at a time. I realize now that I've never had a REAL friend who really cared about me. Now I'm 41 with nobody. My life is so twisted and limited, I don't know who would still want to be friends with me. Desperation has made my life worse in significant ways, but it's hard for me not to be, because of the situation. I know I can be a cool friend to someone that I can click with though. I've had people use me for motivation in the past, but they didn't really care about me so I ended up cutting them off.

 

[Graytaichi]

I have only one friend and he wants to ctb with me but i said no.SN

 

[ClownMe]

I have online friends, but not no friends in real life.

 

[goofy]

Yup, no online or real life friends.

Haven't had any real life friends (real friends) since junior year of high school.

Probably tooo messed up at this point

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I have a lot of friends but I've mostly pushed them away. Now I go for days without talking to anybody.

 

[OuijaBored]

Don't have any friends. I tend to be peoples therapist in life, they only call me to be about them. When it's briefly about me, they ignore and move on. I haven't seen someone my age (mid 20s+) since October. I haven't gone out with an aquantaince or person since October. I spend my time in my house, all the time. The furthest place I've gone was a hospital. I've spent a total of 5 months outside of the house combined in the past 25 months.

I have no one. And no one cares that I live like a caged animal.

 

[nunchuckz]

I don't have any friends anymore, not a single person I could call in my contacts if I really needed someone to talk to. Growing up I did have some friends here and there but even the close friends I managed to have wouldn't know much about me.. Idk maybe I was too shy to open up and really foster a great friendship but I did had two people I considered best friends until we just grew apart.

 

[sharky]

I have no friends either. I have one person that talks to me sometimes, but she only messages me when she's sad about men or stuff like that. Doesn't feel like a real friend. Other than that all friends from the past are gone, because they moved or we just didn't get along anymore. I envy people that have a few good friends, rather than many not so good friends. I don't know what that's like, but tbh I don't ever see myself around many people. That's just not me.

 

[S like suicide]

I wonder if anyone here understands what it's like to have nobody.

I have noobody.

My whole social life is nothing more than making a couple of comments here

Mine too.

 

[ArcherFiles44]

I live with my sister, but other than her I don't have any friends.

No friends except one in the last 20 years
This attributed to mental illness. Living in a world of strangers is lonely and makes it not hard to leave.

 

[Marktheghost]

I've got no friends.

 

[Freedomindeath4me]

I've never had a true friend.

 

[Foresight]

I just have my husband. I have a brother and my mother. That's my entire circle. Just having a spouse is a surprising twist in my life story but I definitely miss having friends. I lived in complete isolation for years though.

 

[Red Scare]

My whole group of friends became fragmented as we all grew older. Some of us got married, started careers, ended up in jail, or prison, are addicted to drugs, or working shitty jobs and just barely getting by.

We went from partying together every night and being tight, having a real sense of community, to only seeing each other every now and again whenever someone got married, or on holidays, and then calling each other maybe a few times a month, to now just texting each other every few weeks, or maybe saying hi to each other when we run into one another, and maybe meeting someone for lunch once every few months.

Currently I haven't got a call or a text for weeks, haven't seen anyone for weeks, and when I do it's just like hi, how you been, ok gotta run.

I don't feel like I don't have any close friends, or really friends at all. It's just people I used to know, and while we used to be close the interactions these days feel awkward and forced, as if we really don't have much to say to one another except to gossip about the other people we knew or reminisce.

I guess that's adulthood. My parents didn't have many friends either, just their church and the people they saw once a week on Sunday or ran into at the store. Sometimes church barbecues or other events but beyond that, no. Makes me wish I could go back to my early 20s.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I was just curious if anybody here can relate. I have been to multiple depression forums and suicide chat rooms before, and I noticed that most of these people are quite normal. People would always mention that the reason they'd never commit suicide is because of friends and family, and seeing that over and over would make me feel really terrible inside. I wonder if anyone here understands what it's like to have nobody.

right now, having no one to feel guilty about effecting sounds like heaven

 

[downndone2]

I do have several friends. Other than my roommate I very rarely see any of them. I lost my marriage and I could care less about anyone else. My dogs are the only constant I have

 

[FuneralCry]

I have no interest in having friends, I would much rather be alone. I see it as being for the best. People can be very disappointing and tiring.

 

[Zeus35]

I was just curious if anybody here can relate. I have been to multiple depression forums and suicide chat rooms before, and I noticed that most of these people are quite normal. People would always mention that the reason they'd never commit suicide is because of friends and family, and seeing that over and over would make me feel really terrible inside. I wonder if anyone here understands what it's like to have nobody.

I understand. I have no family at all and I don't really have friends either. My only form of social interaction is this group.

 

[Sadboyspecimen]

I have no one in life. No friends. No significant other. I do have my parents, but only in an obligatory kind of way on their end. I lost everyone a few years back when I fell into a drug and alcohol fueled depression. Before that things weren't so great either though bc I've always had a tendency to push people away. I spazzed out hardcore. Got mad and blamed everyone for the way my life turned out which pissed them all off. They all came at me. I got scared and angry about the way they reacted bc the way I saw it I was just trying to reach out for help. I know I went about it wrong, but I've just always had trouble with expressing my feelings, so it was all of the bottled up rage exploding out of me. One friend in particular became an enemy after all of that and I threatened to shoot him. Just talking, not with an actual gun. Everything got real bad after that. All of my outbursts that occurred have dramatically changed the way everyone I know sees me. It's changed the way I see myself too. I don't like what I've become, but I can't change what happened now. I try to change for the future, but live my life in fear that I will explode again and end up actually hurting someone or getting my ass kicked for running my mouth. I feel like I need to take myself out before that happens. It's the only way to erase all of these bad memories too.

 

[that_guy2611]

Yup, i'm there with ya. No friends whatsoever

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I had opportunities however I ruined them or assumed the worse just self sabotage

 

[DeprivedofLife666]

Me. I'm pretty sure nobody gives a flying F about me.

 

[Doombox]

I'm mostly a burden to the few people who know I exist. No family.

 

[Lost Magic]

Very little in the way of friends and some of my family members died some years back. I know how people can feel lonely in a crowd, but I feel lonely as a sparrow in the rain.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't have any friends, or family for that matter, to speak of. My family has all died. I had a lot of friends back in high school. But, back then I was a pothead. When I quit smoking and drinking, those friends sort of just faded away. And over the years in work situations, I never made any friends there. Most of them always wanted to go to the bars, and since I didn't drink anymore, I wouldn't go, so no friendships bloomed that way. The couple friendships in high school that didn't fade away right away, did so over time. Those friends got married, had kids, and now even grand kids, and since I didn't, it was normal evolution, I guess, that those friendships would fade away, too. It's difficult to be a third wheel in situations like that. Most married couples have other married couples as friends with whom they do things. I think that's just natural. I think in my case, at least, my lack of friendships is just a circumstance of life decisions I did make for myself in one regard, and in another regard, that of being single, circumstances that I feel were not in my control. Almost like the "perfect storm" of circumstances. I certainly didn't want it to be this way.