Venting Does anybody else feel like they’re a completely damaged person who can’t be helped

[alstroemeria55]

Abuse brings abuse and makes me believe I deserve more abuse that I bring in more abuse. Unable to fathom what "healthy" or "normal" looks like and disillusioned with society. I truly feel like a lost cause. Stranded alone in a rigged game I was never born to win or understand.

 

[cherrypitlover03]

my will to live has been incinerated by trauma. I'm a shell of a person.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i was born worthless and incapable of doing even the smallest things right. i shouldn't exist. nothing can help that.

 

[Nightfoot]

I have recurrent and severe treatment resistant depression, with each episode lasting longer than the previous. I've tried tons of medications to no avail, but spontaneously remitted from my last episode after three years. My current one has gone on for nine months. I hope the fact that I came out of my last episode without medication means I can again. Of course, I don't know if that's the case or how long it would take. I fear that this one may not let up before I'm no longer able to take it and CTB.