Does all the suffering here ever make you cry?

[DeathSleep]

This community has meant so much to me. In general the community is supportive and caring. I like knowing that this place is here for me to go to. I just wish you didn't suffer. I've always been very empathic to the point where it's a little embarrassing sometimes. As a result sometimes posts here make me cry. There is so much pain, loneliness, fear, depression... etc here. I do not feel that death is a bad thing. I just wish the world wasn't full of so much suffering. I'm happy that we have a place to gather. But sad that our lives have brought us here. I don't know... it's a little hard at the moment to find the right words to express what I mean. I kind of wish I could just hug you all (and I'm not that type of person). Sorry I got all sappy with this. I guess I'm just having the feels. Maybe I'll delete this once my feelings move on and I get embarrassed.

I hope you all find the peace you seek. Whatever that may be.

 

[iloveloving]

Yes, I hate seeing you guys hurt. I wish I could help everyone here. I am always open to lend my shoulder to cry on or a hand to help. I'm sorry others have failed you.

I also love this community

 

[CatLvr]

Oh please don't delete your thread. I know EXACTLY how you feel because I am the same. Very empathic. I can feel someone else's pain more than my own sometimes.

It killed me when I realized that a lot of the men and women who post here are so young. I'd give anything if I could do something to change that.

 

[-Link-]

I stepped away from the site yesterday after I followed two back-to-back "goodbye" threads. Those can make me feel very sad to observe, especially when I'm familiar with the person.

As to the heaviness of the site in general, I seem to have a pretty high threshold as far as "being able to withstand it," even if I take on other people's feelings from time to time.

Part of this is because I usually look at people's stories with hope... that as long as they're still alive, there is still hope... It's only very rarely that I see a thread or post here where I feel the absence of any hope.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It definitely makes me sad. I think I'm pretty much cried out, though. Well, for the most part anyway.

 

[pain6batch9]

Sometimes, by some of these stories, I'm frozen into a profound stillness because I just don't know what to say. Other times it actually makes me angry to see people suffer. There are times that I feel frustration about not being able to help. The crying comes later.

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

I don't cry when reading threads, as I haven't cried In quite a while, but I do read just about every post, made here in the suicide discussion board, and as such, I have read many terribly saddening, depressing, and frankly horrifying, stories here. I tent to doom scroll this website, wake up and read all the new threads I have missed, and refresh any new post made when reading prior, then I get on about my day. In doing this I have found a new level of understanding on how human life isn't all that it's chalked up to being, that we suffer more than we even realise, or even want to realise, and that many people need an outside observer to see that suffering for what it is, in a way that the person who is experiencing it can't as a result of the brain trying to rationalize the event in question.

So In doing so I have most likely lower the quality of my life by even more, by subjecting myself to this, But what does it matter, I'll Be dead soon!

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nope. I simply just don't care that much. Of course it sucks that people here are suffering but, at the end of the day, I'm focused on my life and my perspective. I'm focused on myself

 

[peaceandlove]

I cry everyday lol there's suffering within me and without me all the time. I feel it all, too, like you do. At least here, the suffering is met with compassion and understanding, instead of dismissal, annoyance, etc. At least here, the suffering isn't repressed. At least it's possible to get through suffering where we can discuss it in the open, instead of being forced to deny it for the sake of those too privileged and naive to accept the ugly truth of being human. I guess I'd rather cry about the truth, than be happy in lies.

 

[GuessWhosBack]

After revisiting this forum for the first time in a few years, yes, initially. Now I have become somewhat emotionally numb to the random similar posts, but I guess that's par for the course.

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

Yes. I've read some absolutely awful stories from others here and it just breaks my heart. One story from 2020, from a user called LetztenAusfahrt (I believe? I don't speak German so not sure about spelling), recently brought me to tears after hearing his background. I'm not sure if it's appropriate or respectful to share anything about it, but it was tragic to say the least. I'm always happy for anyone who manages to CTB, but individuals' whose stories are particularly harrowing bring me the most joy for them when they manage a breakout.

 

[Gangrel]

Sometimes i feel connected in a weird way to some people here and that touches me profoundly and i don't like it because wtf am i having feelings for some random ass person i never even talked to.

 

[sisyphean-nightmare]

I sometimes find myself wishing I had the capacity of loving everyone in here.

 

[Redleaf1992]

A lot of the threads do make me feel upset. In terms of crying and most impact it's more thinking of the friends I have lost on here.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i've read so many threads here and talked to people in PM suffering extreme torture just on this site.

I worked in a nursing home and people would beg "someone please kill me" . people begged me to help them suicide . the extreme torture of old age in that nursing home was unimaginable . 25 million people anuually worldwide attempt suicide life is so bad.

life and this world has tortured trillions of sentient beings most animals died by being eaten alive. most humans even now with all the technology etc end up very old in torture in nursing homes.

but they have 99% of people believing life is wonderful sacred beautiful a gift.

i think life and this world are the worst things in the universe.