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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
My husband knows I'm suicidal but he doesn't know I'm on this forum.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,360
No. Nobody in real life knows that I want to die. It is nothing to do with anyone else, it is my life, my choice. They would not accept and understand my decision. I have been suicidal for many years. I will make sure that nobody will ever know. I am the type of person who keeps everything to myself anyway.
 
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Matcha vs Matcha

Matcha vs Matcha

New Member
Nov 5, 2021
2
Nope. But there wouldnt be any issue if so, theyre very open minded and know where my issues come from so they'd definitely understand.
 
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yive

yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
695
i have no friends, family doesn't need to know about this. although, i think they might guess that im suicidal, but that won't change anything. ctb is inevitable for me. my advice is never tell anyone about it, life is a prison, and suicide is a prison break
 
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Neowise

Neowise

We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
Oct 7, 2020
508
Nobody knows except for one online friend who is also depressed and survived two attempts. I wouldn't mind telling a real life friend because she is also depressed, but other than that... I don't want anyone to know. My mother would use it to insult me, my boyfriend would worry too much. People don't need to know everything.
 
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_elliott

_elliott

sweet adeline.
Apr 24, 2021
148
lol, i talk about the forum a lot but none of my friends seem to care, i think they're tired of my constant suicidal stuff and it is embarrassing for them.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,595
No, because I do not have many people in my life to know about it.
 
odradek

odradek

Mage
Sep 16, 2021
557
No one in my life is aware of my membership on this forum... that I'm aware of. I'm often paranoid that they do know and are keeping it from me for some reason but I'm sure that's a delusion.

The few people in my life either aren't internet savvy enough to find a place like this or would not come across this particular corner of the web based on who they are.
 
ascetic_

ascetic_

Metaphysically Homeless
Aug 28, 2021
83
No. They wouldn't care, either, except for my older sister.
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
They don't even know this place exists. I think that's better for me
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
No but I told my therapist and now I regret it.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,358
Hell no. Wait, my ex does. She wasn't happy about it when I told her, but, she doesn't yell at me about it. Just worried a lot. No idea if she does anymore. Doubt it.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,297
Yeah.
They don't like it much... but fuck 'em.
They know I'm not easily influenced, but am possibly a bad influence...
They bitched about my online obsessiveness, but what shut them up is
When I told them I'm learning to perfect my methods.
They understood, I leave them no choice, arguments are mute.
Already the drugs leave me with an occasional tick /shudder
No way am I gonna be at their mercy when I get dementia / Parkinsons
(Have markers) im never gonna be that burden.
I got strangled by a client and got my windpipe crushed.
In icu they informed the staff not to give me pain meds.
My own fkg family told them to withhold treatment
I think they were freaked it was a sexgame gone bad.
then they make me surrender my rights, commit me to an asylum,
today they want me back on lithium.
that numbness, might as well be dead.

They have no idea who I am, what I need, or what to do with me
they understand but they dont like it...
They've left me to it, so I can get it right.
 
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Death is your gift

Death is your gift

Member
Oct 7, 2021
44
They do not know about this place.

What would be the point ? They would not understand it.

Telling family, friends or therapists will only make them even more concerned about my situation. I am not sure if they can do it legally, but I do not want to be locked up in a psych ward for good.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
668
No. I want to limit the exposure of this forum to the general public. A lot of people are trying to take SS down, and I feel like I need to do my part to keep SS safe and that requires being quiet, which is a piece of cake because I hate most people.
 
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Yiyo123

Member
Apr 24, 2020
94
My doctors know that I visit a website, but don't know the name. I told them because I trust them.
 
VKVK

VKVK

.
Oct 18, 2021
112
I barely have loved ones. And no, they either wouldn't care or wouldn't be surprised.
 
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plough22

plough22

Living but not really, just surviving
May 1, 2020
226
No one knows, my job is built around helping people, managing alpha behaviour. They'd see weakness, a helpful place but you can show you need help. Go figure.
It's great having SS, no one else's business
 
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Grav

Grav

Elementalist
Jul 26, 2020
817
My wife knows. She sounds wary but also relieved that there's somewhere that I can fit in with my thoughts.
 
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Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,344
No1. Evry1 thnk jst use Youtbe.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,297
No one knows, my job is built around helping people, managing alpha behaviour. They'd see weakness, a helpful place but you can show you need help. Go figure.
It's great having SS, no one else's business

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☆ Sad mourners speaking with t.v reporter interviewer::


"We are shocked and dismayed, struggling to come to terms with what's happened.
We had no idea, he gave us no indication of thelevels of depression that he was enduring. If only he had reached out to us and asked for help, he was online until the very end; learning about his condition, updating his Instagram, but unwillling or in-capable of asking for help.
He was so happy the last few weeks he was with us, we are sure that he was influenced by outside sources towards the end. We think that he may have enlisted technical & emotional assistance from terrible online sources known as suicide forums.
"This is an unbelievable, doubtful thing for us, as we were all around him and would instinctively have known if something was amiss", his grieving mother added.
"Self aware, intelligent and attractive, he must have been coerced into performing such unspeakable actions." investigators presume.
"These online resources provide effective alienation and gruesome guidance to those
that otherwise would not have the aims, abilities, means or methods".
Just awarded a stirling work performance appraisal and was talking about making plans to go away on busride vacation tour with new online acquaintances; he indicated nothing of his plans to take his life....
"He was such a well adjusted adult, with such a fantastic sense of humour and loved by everybody. Nobody knew his true intentions" a spokesperson for the family admits ::
"As close family, we cannot accept nor comprehend the isolation or the level of planning such actions took"
"Again this is a terrible shock".
No note was left or communication entered into.
 
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samras

Member
Aug 25, 2021
21
No one knows and I don't intend to tell anyone. I regard this site as a safe private space.
 
stygal

stygal

meow
Oct 29, 2020
1,731
My mom knows it and she's fine with it.

Other rl friends - since we don't talk about mental health a whole lot or I feel the need to bring every little detail of my life into the conversation - it never came up, would talk about it openly tho.

Not even afraid to open the site in public.

And I recommend this site to an ex as well but his relationship is better now so I don't think he's here.
 
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Sarros

Sarros

Student
Sep 2, 2021
113
I always told myself that I'd never open up because anyone/anything could compromise my plans. Then I got drunk at a wedding afterparty and told the bride's sister about this place and then the bride herself about my plans to CTB while throwing up, hunched over the toilet. Yikes.
 
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Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Paragon
Feb 20, 2020
911
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☆ Sad mourners speaking with t.v reporter interviewer::


"We are shocked and dismayed, struggling to come to terms with what's happened.
We had no idea, he gave us no indication of thelevels of depression that he was enduring. If only he had reached out to us and asked for help, he was online until the very end; learning about his condition, updating his Instagram, but unwillling or in-capable of asking for help.
He was so happy the last few weeks he was with us, we are sure that he was influenced by outside sources towards the end. We think that he may have enlisted technical & emotional assistance from terrible online sources known as suicide forums.
"This is an unbelievable, doubtful thing for us, as we were all around him and would instinctively have known if something was amiss", his grieving mother added.
"Self aware, intelligent and attractive, he must have been coerced into performing such unspeakable actions." investigators presume.
"These online resources provide effective alienation and gruesome guidance to those
that otherwise would not have the aims, abilities, means or methods".
Just awarded a stirling work performance appraisal and was talking about making plans to go away on busride vacation tour with new online acquaintances; he indicated nothing of his plans to take his life....
"He was such a well adjusted adult, with such a fantastic sense of humour and loved by everybody. Nobody knew his true intentions" a spokesperson for the family admits ::
"As close family, we cannot accept nor comprehend the isolation or the level of planning such actions took"
"Again this is a terrible shock".
No note was left or communication entered into.
Poor polar bear! Why didn't he leave a suicide note?
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
is like black market who knows where it knows no one else knows
 
Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
No. No one around me could be considered anywhere near "pro choice" when it comes to suicide. I'm sure if anyone knew I would be in a psych ward by now. My mom knows I have suicidal thoughts and I'm sure some other people that I know do too, but they have no idea about the depth of the thoughts/think it's something from like years ago and I don't think about it now anymore.
 
finalexit

finalexit

Member
Jan 24, 2021
84
My wife knows. I might've told my one friend, can't remember
 

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