Do you wish that you ctb at an earlier date

[Volo vent]

Im not really sure

 

[kiahkitten]

I think that it's best to never be born at all, existing in this world is the worst thing possible. To have died as young as possible would have been the best thing for me. I always envy those who die very young.

I agree.

I was supposed to be aborted. Doctors told my mom to do so. She had the option not to have me, chose to have me, and then my family abused me anyway. Would give anything to have never been born

 

[ElegantlyWasted]

I "tried" to ctb 10 years ago as a teenager with cooking charcoal in a small container in a car I couldn't get the thing to light i think I was supposed to use an actual grill.
In the 10 years since I mostly wished I had got it right. While I have enjoyed things since, I also would have died a lot happier and seeing how things are in the present I really wish I wasn't around to see it.

 

[StolenLife]

I almost drowned when I was 12. I wish I died then, ever since nothing has been enjoyable and I can barely remember anything worthwile in these last ten years. I tried ctb as a teenager with some random pills I found in the kitchen but it didn't do anything.

 

[makethepainstop]

In my case, I always wish that I left this world when I was much younger. I'm 21 and 21 years of existing is more than enough for me and I just feel so tired. It's so horrifying that this life could go on for many more decades. All that lies ahead for me is more misery and it's so dreadful to think about the future. If I ctb at an earlier age it would have prevented so much suffering. In life all that humans do is struggle all for no purpose. I could never see a point to enduring life when instead I could be peacefully not existing.

I think that if suicide is easy I would be long gone, but when I was younger I knew nothing about suicide and I thought that if I tried to attempt then something would go wrong. The difficulty of suicide has kept me here for far longer than I should have been and I still fear failing ctb even know I have access to method information now. I have been thinking of suicide for such a long time now and I have never wanted to be here at all, always felt like I was never meant for life and the thought of dying has brought me a lot of comfort. If only suicide was not so difficult.

I think that it's best to never be born at all, existing in this world is the worst thing possible. To have died as young as possible would have been the best thing for me. I always envy those who die very young. The longer that someone stays alive, the more that they suffer and I see non existence as always being preferable to living, no matter what.

Yes, I wished I had ctb at an earlier time. Like five seconds before birth!

 

[CTB Dream]

Wish long ago now brain fail more body fail more

 

[akirat9]

yes every time i have dream/project reality destory i cant do it