Do you watch videos of suicide?

[epic]

I frequently watch videos of suicide and murder. I don't get some sick pleasure out of it, part of me even feels a bit uncomfortable watching...but the morbid curiosity just gets to me. I want to see what happens moments after death using different methods. I watch these videos and fill with jealously. Most people commit without flinching... then after a few videos I realize I could of died (x) many times during them.

I don't know...i feel like a virgin who watches porn because they can't get laid

Please don't watch them.
I myself have watched a few for research. Now i regret watching it. These families are traumatized forever, knowing that the death of their loved ones are being viewed by millions.These videos are filled with the most vile and disgusting comments.
PS: I was edgy as a teenager. Although I never enjoyed watching gore, I have made really offensive comments in private conversations on topics like these. I am deeply regretful about them now.

 

[Im2high4this]

Thankyou. You've made my case for me

and what exactly is your case? Nobody has said this isn't a fucked up subject, so why are you presenting a case. What are you trying to prove man?

Yes I do.
I watch them obsessively, both videos and photos. I watch so many I have trouble falling asleep at night, could easily go over 50 pages a day.
I know what Im going to say is disturbing but I like most to view decaying corpses of suicides that havent been found for some time after death and also photos of them stripped down on an autopsy table. Sometimes it turns me on. Im sick I know.

That's pretty intense I won't lie..but im not going to judge. We should allowed to be open and honest about our secrets here. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Mr2005]

and what exactly is your case? Nobody has said this isn't a fucked up subject, so why are you presenting a case. What are you trying to prove man?


That's pretty intense I won't lie..but im not going to judge. We should allowed to be open and honest about our secrets here. Thanks for sharing.

Why Timetogo is wrong.

 

[Im2high4this]

Please don't watch them.
I myself have watched a few for research. Now i regret watching it. These families are traumatized forever, knowing that the death of their loved ones are being viewed by millions.These videos are filled with the most vile and disgusting comments.
PS: I was edgy as a teenager. Although I never enjoyed watching gore, I have made really offensive comments in private conversations on topics like these. I am deeply regretful about them now.

I'm sorry it affected you so traumatically. I never participate in their toxic communities. I believe I have a justified reason for watching, even though i know it will be healthy mentally to stop. I'm sick right now man...don't ask me to be rational because I'm struggling enough as it is lol.

As for their families, I feel for them, truly I do. however, I don't have room for the pain of the people involved in these videos. Call it a disconnection of emotion or whatever, but I'm just being honest. I recognize it's a bad situation, for literally everyone involved, but I still watch. I think watching a few suicide videos a week is the least of my problems.

I didn't come here to be challenged on my actions, although I kind of was and already have spoken my peace on the subject. Thank you for your concern, and I do get it if you think I'm an asshole, but it is what it is. Won't be around for long anyway.

Why Timetogo is wrong.

They not wrong, he's in a troubled state of mind, clearly ashamed of his actions and feelings. They reached out in the appropriate thread to either talk about it and work through it, or get it off their chest. I bet everyone's here has some fucked up secrets they dont have to guts to own up to. If somebody is admitting something like this, you don't just tell them "you're wrong" unless you don't care about them or attempting to make an actual change regarding this subject. You can think they are wrong but I think it's a little rude to attack them like that.

 

[Stan]

There is a difference for someone to share a thought, opinion or like and get some feedback to suddenly being piled upon in response to it. If you don't agree with the opinion, you just have to say it once and the message has been delivered. I never understand why it needs to become hostile.

 

[Mr2005]

I'm sorry it affected you so traumatically. I never participate in their toxic communities. I believe I have a justified reason for watching, even though i know it will be healthy mentally to stop. I'm sick right now man...don't ask me to be rational because I'm struggling enough as it is lol.

As for their families, I feel for them, truly I do. however, I don't have room for the pain of the people involved in these videos. Call it a disconnection of emotion or whatever, but I'm just being honest. I recognize it's a bad situation, for literally everyone involved, but I still watch. I think watching a few suicide videos a week is the least of my problems.

I didn't come here to be challenged on my actions, although I kind of was and already have spoken my peace on the subject. Thank you for your concern, and I do get it if you think I'm an asshole, but it is what it is. Won't be around for long anyway.


They not wrong, he's in a troubled state of mind, clearly ashamed of his actions and feelings. They reached out in the appropriate thread to either talk about it and work through it, or get it off their chest. I bet everyone's here has some fucked up secrets they dont have to guts to own up to.

I don't doubt that. I also know there's lots of vulnerable people easy to exploit. I don't think his advice was very good. I don't think it would do much good in the recovery section. What if they don't commit suicide? What then? I also didn't like all these allegations he was making about me. It was way more judgemental than I've been about you. It's you who's giving yourself a hard time. I think that means you're a good person just don't blame me

 

[Im2high4this]

I don't doubt that. I also know there's lots of vulnerable people easy to exploit. I don't think his advice was very good. I don't think it would do much good in the recovery section. What if they don't commit suicide? What then? I also didn't like all these allegations he was making about me. It was way more judgemental than I've been about you. It's you who's giving yourself a hard time. I think that means you're a good person just don't blame me

What allegations? What advice did they give? Are you reffering to another interaction you've had with this user that you think I'm aware of? Thank you for the compliment. I'm sure you're a good person too. I just think you've been a little too much in this thread. You came here to argue.

 

[Mr2005]

What allegations? What advice did they give? Are you reffering to another interaction you've had with this user that you think I'm aware of? Thank you for the compliment. I'm sure you're a good person too. I just think you've been a little too much in this thread. You came here to argue.

I don't do it for the sake of it but if I've got an opinion I'll stick to it. I was done with it, they got me going again but I don't want this to turn this into a he said/ she said so I will go if people let me

 

[Im2high4this]

I don't do it for the sake of it but if I've got an opinion I'll stick to it. I was done with it, they got me going again but I don't want this to turn this into a he said/ she said so I will go if people let me

That's fine, but if your opinion conflicts with another person, and they did not involve you at all, and you have no interest in trying to change their mind or help, why speak up? That IS for the sake of it. All you did was come here and make the people who watch these video feel even worse. Is that mission accomplished? Also, nobody is keeping you here. I think our conversation has already spoiled the reason I made the thread in the first place. Now user are just eating popcorn and watching people bicker. It's dumb. I'll catch you on another thread bud lol..

 

[Stan]

 

[Im2high4this]

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Called it

 

[Mr2005]

That's fine, but if your opinion conflicts with another person, and they did not involve you at all, and you have no interest in trying to change their mind or help, why speak up? That IS for the sake of it. All you did was come here and make the people who watch these video feel even worse. Is that mission accomplished? Also, nobody is keeping you here. I think our conversation has already spoiled the reason I made the thread in the first place. Now user are just eating popcorn and watching people bicker. It's dumb. I'll catch you on another thread bud lol..

I can't not reply to that. That wasn't my intention that's all I've got to say. Mission aborted

 

[Im2high4this]

I can't not reply to that. That wasn't my intention that's all I've got to say. Mission aborted

Ok I hear you! No bad blood here.

 

[Mr2005]

It's not disturbing at all. You're a on forum dedicated to discussing suicide methods, and you think watching videos of actual commited suicides is disturbing? Lmao. Why are you even on this forum at all? You think everyone should attempt to commit sucide while ignorant of any existing footage? We should be learning from those who were kind enough to leave footage for us to learn from.



Where is your empathy? Are you serious about commiting suicide, or just looking for attention on this forum?

If you are serious, you should be doing as much research as you can to maximize your chances of success. Such research includes watching actual footage of successful and unsuccessful suicides, so you can learn what they did/did not do correct, and what they could have improved upon.

Don't try to dissuade others from learning by telling them it is disturbing that they are doing so. Stop harassing OP for trying to learn from videos.

We should be approaching suicide with an analytical mindset, encouraging analysis of suicide footage, so that we may improve our understanding of the subject as a community. IMO there should be a dedicated thread for video discussion, but I understand that having one may incur liability for the forum, so it's not a 100% safe idea for the forum. But individual users should take it upon themselves to seek out footage to know what they are getting themselves into. Don't go into it blind.

 

[bornsinner]

Yes I do.
I watch them obsessively, both videos and photos. I watch so many I have trouble falling asleep at night, could easily go over 50 pages a day.
I know what Im going to say is disturbing but I like most to view decaying corpses of suicides that havent been found for some time after death and also photos of them stripped down on an autopsy table. Sometimes it turns me on. Im sick I know.

do I watch them on the dark web? what sites?

 

[BridgeJumper]

I actually watch them on the regular internet but since one users mention of the site has been redacted I think its illegal to mention them publicly. Can tell you in pm

 

[Im2high4this]

oh you meant that user? I thought you meant the other guy. I was like wtf are you talking about he didn't say anything to you haha my B

 

[Mr2005]

I'm going before I kill myself.

 

[Im2high4this]

I actually watch them on the regular internet but since one users mention of the site has been redacted I think its illegal to mention them publicly. Can tell you in pm

It's not illegal, but not everyone wants to see it. I removed that myself out of respect for another user who stumbled upon that site from here and they were not happy. I assume they wouldn't be alone in that.

 

[Lethe]

I watched the Bud Dwyer film once out of morbid curiosity (I think it's the most famous suicide tape, since he did it in a courtroom in front of God & everyone). I don't really have any interest in watching any more.

 

[mxe is the best]

you might think nothing of it watching it ie you are consciously fine with it.

but it might give you PTSD without even knowing, it is very likely damaging your sub conscious, watching death videos, and you wont be aware of the damage it does until later on in life when you age.

even watching these videos can cause PTSD, which is no joke

 

[Mr2005]

I'd say if it doesn't bother someone then we should be more worried. Desensitization is going to destroy society. Trading videos with each other like they're fucking trading cards. "Hey you want a bit of this mate" I feel unclean

 

[Im2high4this]

I watched the Bud Dwyer film once out of morbid curiosity (I think it's the most famous suicide tape, since he did it in a courtroom in front of God & everyone). I don't really have any interest in watching any more.

Yea another user mentioned they have seen that one. I think the first one I saw was "the best of me". Won't go into details, but some people are in serious mental anguish..it's hard to watch but it's like a car crash. The man made a hour long video that he wanted people to see. Is it disrespectful to him to watch it? Or to not watch it? I think about that when the person puts care into a lengthy video of their death.

you might think nothing of it watching it ie you are consciously fine with it.

but it might give you PTSD without even knowing, it is very likely damaging your sub conscious, watching death videos, and you wont be aware of the damage it does until later on in life when you age.

even watching these videos can cause PTSD, which is no joke

Meh I doubt it. I'm not proud of how numb I can get. Besides, it will just motivate me to end it sooner. I'm on no path to recovery, what happens to me later on in life is of little to no concern to me.

I'd say if it doesn't bother someone then we should be more worried. Desensitization is going to destroy society. Trading videos with each other like they're fucking trading cards. "Hey you want a bit of this mate" I feel unclean

Want my address so you can come have me arrested or something? You came back again just to argue again? Not for the sake of it right? so what is the mission this time Bro? either make your own thread, or kindly shut the fuck up. I've tried being polite but you can't just drop it.

 

[Lethe]

you might think nothing of it watching it ie you are consciously fine with it.

but it might give you PTSD without even knowing, it is very likely damaging your sub conscious, watching death videos, and you wont be aware of the damage it does until later on in life when you age.

even watching these videos can cause PTSD, which is no joke

Many people on this site are already traumatized, what's a little more : b

 

[Rachel74]

No I don't. I find it disturbing just reading this.

Thank you, I do too! I actually find it rather disturbing anyone would watch anything like this. What's next Snuff???

Well I think it's fair to say I am disturbed. Im on the correct forum right? Reading a paragraph of somebody watching a video of something we all came here for is disturbing you?

Yes it is. Majority of folks on here are here to commit suicide but we don't try and glamorise it.
So yes you are disturbed.

 

[Jon86]

Not regularly but yes, i've viewed that material a decent amount. I think many here don't have suicide on top of mind daily, I do, death was literally the #1 thing on my mind for a decade. It helps being able to see what works, to see what you'll be leaving behind and to see the brutality that exists in the world etc. It's not pleasant, so many dark, sad, brutal ends (murder, torture, suicide etc.) to thousands of people have been posted online. I don't enjoy viewing any of this but in my state i'm drawn to it at times, most people can't handle it, it's too raw, too dark, I understand either way.

I was a vegan for about 6 months after watching 'Earthlings' that film was pretty hardcore as well.

Life is savage, the natural world before modernity was savage, it's literally a kill or be killed world for tons of living creatures on this planet (predators), it was for us once too.

 

[Mr2005]

Thank you, I do too! I actually find it rather disturbing anyone would watch anything like this. What's next Snuff???

Yes it is. Majority of folks on here are here to commit suicide but we don't try and glamorise it.
So yes you are disturbed.

Careful you'll anger the op. What am I supposed to do accept this is normal just to spare his feelings?

 

[Rachel74]

Ok I hear you! No bad blood here.

you might think nothing of it watching it ie you are consciously fine with it.

but it might give you PTSD without even knowing, it is very likely damaging your sub conscious, watching death videos, and you wont be aware of the damage it does until later on in life when you age.

even watching these videos can cause PTSD, which is no joke

That's my point. Least this thread no pictures were shown like last weeks. So I appreciate that OP. I'm on here as I'm fucked up mentally and watching a video would be a constant reminder of what I will eventually do. The thing is I don't want to die. I want a cure for my illness and to feel better.

 

[Mr2005]

Can't let people have a conversation without coming in and shitting on them? That's all I'm trying to do you just keep making it about you. It's bigger than you and it's bigger the me and that's all caring gets you. Told to shut the fuck up.

 

[Im2high4this]

Can't let people have a conversation without coming in and shitting on them? That's all I'm trying to do you just keep making it about you. It's bigger than you and it's bigger the me and that's all caring gets you. Told to shut the fuck up.

You have a really stupid way of showing you care. You barely make sense, are you drunk?

That's my point. Least this thread no pictures were shown like last weeks. So I appreciate that OP. I'm on here as I'm fucked up mentally and watching a video would be a constant reminder of what I will eventually do. The thing is I don't want to die. I want a cure for my illness and to feel better.

That's fair, I'm not going to tell you you are wrong for that haha

Don't stop posting. Remember OP people who are on here like myself are already fragile. Yes I shouldn't have read this thread but the nosy bastard in me couldn't resist.
I'm just concerned someone on here who isn't wanting to CTB really watches those videos and then tries it.

That's why I didn't link it, and removed the mention of the name. I'm pretty fragile myself so I really don't appreciate getting confronted like I did. Like I dont feel comfortable here anymore. I've read pages of pages of support and then I make a thread that turns to shit and makes me feel worse then before. The fuck am I here for then.
I'm done with this thread. Judge me, talk shit, I really don't care. I'm used to it anyway. Guess I'll go back to talking to fucking Jonathan over at suicide prevention so he can tell me I'm worth it and I'm so strong and it's a temporary solution....UGH