Story My failed plot to frame my mom for indirect murder (and how it failed)

[Cyagangy]

Hey it's Cya again. Back after a long break of not immolating myself cuz I couldn't get my hands on the tools I needed (Strong opioids and flame retardant). So as I draft up my next possible plot or just rellunctactly live I wanna talk about the plan I had put in place last year during my suicide attempt. This is a mix of a regular post and a story but I'll shorten it cuz I get excited when writing this down. For context my mom is really controlling and finds any reason to tell or ground me or just straight up take all of my money hostage. At a point I realized that when I get out of highschool she would own me. Almost all my things were bought by her and she could take them away and I to some degree owe her money and would have to pay her back for getting me stuff. I decided to say "screw that" and plan to murder myself and then blame her. My online friend was in the military at this point so I made a Google drive and sent it to him on discord with the instructions to not open it up until a certain day. I then put in all my bye bye messages for my online and real friends inside of the drive. I even save a bye bye messages to send to my mom's email a month after the day I was supposed to die so I can mock her even beyond my own demise. The week before hand I had gotten baptized, I wasn't fully Christian at the time and wanted to atleast absolve myself in preparation to meet my maker. I think recorded my last message for the police to find. I detailed what my mom had done and even had instructions for my friend to post a video of me explaining what my mom had been doing to me for years on end. Sure it was pretty but I just didn't care. I wanted her job to fire her I wanted her to suffer plus she told when when I was 7 that if I killed myself the she would do the same. A part of me hoped that my video would make my family check on her and stop her from doing it so she can suffer longer and know that my blood was on her hand. I chose to do night night x exit bag. Drugged myself out on my earbuds and listened to miracle musical as I drifted into oblivion. Unfortunately it didn't work but dying feels great. It hurts like your dying (No crap) but hearing the soft music as I took what should have been my final breaths was stunning. I wouldn't recommend dying myself cuz that shit kills you. But if you do then you understand what I'm talking about. Anyway I survive all 14 attempts and each time I did it I had set up a plushie with a paper for the police to use which had the drive links to my notes and why I did it. Everything to put my mom under the bus. I wanna think of a universe in which I made the most successful play ever and came out on top in it. However that's just not the world I live in. Oh and as for self immolation I might hold off on that all together cuz God didn't specifically tell me I had to do it but it was a backup just in case. After all he only promised me tribulations comes after I die without saying how soon after.

 

[ElTopo]

Please seek help

 

[Cyagangy]

Please seek help

No dw I'm fine now

 

[dialogos]

self immolation will be very very painful... most of the people here are searching for the least painful way to die. because they want to escape pain and suffering. why are you looking for pain? you seem to hate your mother. asides from the material stuff, was she ever abusive to you?

 

[AuraByte]

I say this as respectfully as possible, but the help you need can not be provided by this forum.

All the best.

 

[Cyagangy]

self immolation will be very very painful... most of the people here are searching for the least painful way to die. because they want to escape pain and suffering. why are you looking for pain? you seem to hate your mother. asides from the material stuff, was she ever abusive to you?

Well I'm seeking it to make a point if my salvation guide won't be taken serious by those who practice theocracy for Christians. Since God specifically told me to have Christians lock in (which was strange cuz I wasn't exactly the best person to ask for that) so I drafted something and I want it to be taken to heart but if everyone just denies it then I might as well show how serious I am about it. My mom wasn't really abusive but she did use to hit me a bunch when I was younger for really small things or things I had no control over. Plus a couple years ago I admitted to being assaulted by my female cousin and instead of comforting me or anything she forced me to buy milk with my money and then gave me advice to not have it happen again.

I say this as respectfully as possible, but the help you need can not be provided by this forum.

All the best.

I don't really want help, I just wanted to talk about my plan cuz I thought my plan was great and I had no where else to share either with.

 

[BadChanges]

This was very sad and troubling to read. Why do you want your mom to suffer after you are dead? You will be dead.

 

[Cyagangy]

This was very sad and troubling to read. Why do you want your mom to suffer after you are dead? You will be dead.

Revenge, it would be pointless to die for nothing. If I'm going to end it I need to make some sort of impact good or bad.

 

[Cyagangy]

Hey it's Cya again. Back after a long break of not immolating myself cuz I couldn't get my hands on the tools I needed (Strong opioids and flame retardant). So as I draft up my next possible plot or just rellunctactly live I wanna talk about the plan I had put in place last year during my suicide attempt. This is a mix of a regular post and a story but I'll shorten it cuz I get excited when writing this down. For context my mom is really controlling and finds any reason to tell or ground me or just straight up take all of my money hostage. At a point I realized that when I get out of highschool she would own me. Almost all my things were bought by her and she could take them away and I to some degree owe her money and would have to pay her back for getting me stuff. I decided to say "screw that" and plan to murder myself and then blame her. My online friend was in the military at this point so I made a Google drive and sent it to him on discord with the instructions to not open it up until a certain day. I then put in all my bye bye messages for my online and real friends inside of the drive. I even save a bye bye messages to send to my mom's email a month after the day I was supposed to die so I can mock her even beyond my own demise. The week before hand I had gotten baptized, I wasn't fully Christian at the time and wanted to atleast absolve myself in preparation to meet my maker. I think recorded my last message for the police to find. I detailed what my mom had done and even had instructions for my friend to post a video of me explaining what my mom had been doing to me for years on end. Sure it was pretty but I just didn't care. I wanted her job to fire her I wanted her to suffer plus she told when when I was 7 that if I killed myself the she would do the same. A part of me hoped that my video would make my family check on her and stop her from doing it so she can suffer longer and know that my blood was on her hand. I chose to do night night x exit bag. Drugged myself out on my earbuds and listened to miracle musical as I drifted into oblivion. Unfortunately it didn't work but dying feels great. It hurts like your dying (No crap) but hearing the soft music as I took what should have been my final breaths was stunning. I wouldn't recommend dying myself cuz that shit kills you. But if you do then you understand what I'm talking about. Anyway I survive all 14 attempts and each time I did it I had set up a plushie with a paper for the police to use which had the drive links to my notes and why I did it. Everything to put my mom under the bus. I wanna think of a universe in which I made the most successful play ever and came out on top in it. However that's just not the world I live in. Oh and as for self immolation I might hold off on that all together cuz God didn't specifically tell me I had to do it but it was a backup just in case. After all he only promised me tribulations comes after I die without saying how soon after.

Honestly to this day I wondered if my plan hadn't failed, what would have been the consequence? I would ask my friends and stuff but I don't wanna worry them. I think the worse that could have come from this, is my mom being able to move on and have a steady job.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Honestly to this day I wondered if my plan hadn't failed, what would have been the consequence? I would ask my friends and stuff but I don't wanna worry them. I think the worse that could have come from this, is my mom being able to move on and have a steady job.

Would potentially have traumatised not only her, but friends too. @2ndme's "I feel regretful" post (and that was just reading a post from a user I never interacted with) is probably something I won't forget. Knowing @jvnko's music outlives him on my SSD makes me feel a little uneasy.

 

[Cyagangy]

Would potentially have traumatised not only her, but friends too. @2ndme's "I feel regretful" post (and that was just reading a post from a user I never interacted with) is probably something I won't forget. Knowing @jvnko's music outlives him on my SSD makes me feel a little uneasy.

Huh I see, interesting and kinda morbid.

 

[struggles_inc]

You seem to be a minor. I'm not sure this website is for you.

What you talk about in this thread makes me think you want to express your dissatisfaction in relationship with your mom more than you want to ctb. This could be done by moving out at some point in the future. Please reconsider.

Also, by sharing your plans online you have practically given all the information to the police, because in case of the gruesome death you described you will 100% be investigated. Therefore, your mom won't be accused of murder anyway.

 

[EmptyBottle]

You seem to be a minor. I'm not sure this website is for you.

What you talk about in this thread makes me think you want to express your dissatisfaction in relationship with your mom more than you want to ctb. This could be done by moving out at some point in the future. Please reconsider.

Also, by sharing your plans online you have practically given all the information to the police, because in case of the gruesome death you described you will 100% be investigated. Therefore, your mom won't be accused of murder anyway.

good spotting "At a point I realized that when I get out of highschool she would own me.". I hope that she is in her final year (and therefore 18) vs 17 or below.

True, sharing the blame plans made them even less likely to succeed, (they weren't too likely to succeed either way), but immolating indoors could put firefighters at risk. Yes, the vengeance will destroy or damage the house, but it is also going to be extremely painful and the smoke alarm may go off, leading to rescue and surviving with burn injuries.

(The planet will be harmed a bit, but compared to the many apartments burning during warfare, it's less significant than some might think. But still, if I CTB I'm trying the more eco friendly night night option, at least for a decent while, before considering other options... I skipped steps and failed night night too btw, but kooz seems to have somehow CTB'd from it. And this blurred message is my opinion, not method advice and shouldn't be taken as such advice on its own.)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You know, for somebody who claims to be a Christian this is not a very Christian thing to do. I'm pretty sure that shit, like trying to frame others for murder, isn't something that is commonly promoted within Christian circles. Aren't Christians supposed to promote forgiveness and shit?

It doesn't sound like your mother has done anything particularly bad to you, at least based on your post, so I don't get why you are so hell bent on ruining her life. Who cares. Once you die you won't be around to give a shit anymore. If your goal is to make her suffer, then I'm pretty sure your death will be enough. Revenge is just pointless bullshit.

 

[EmptyBottle]

You know, for somebody who claims to be a Christian this is not a very Christian thing to do. I'm pretty sure that shit, like trying to frame others for murder, isn't something that is commonly promoted within Christian circles. Aren't Christians supposed to promote forgiveness and shit?

It doesn't sound like your mother has done anything particularly bad to you, at least based on your post, so I don't get why you are so hell bent on ruining her life. Who cares. Once you die you won't be around to give a shit anymore. If your goal is to make her suffer, then I'm pretty sure your death will be enough. Revenge is just pointless bullshit.

"I detailed what my mom had done and even had instructions for my friend to post a video of me explaining what my mom had been doing to me for years on end."

Maybe there was abuse... tho I hope the OP doesn't try and frame for "indirect" murder... ruining the OP's post-CTB reputation... but rather say that "X made be want to CTB", which... is a more accurate way of saying the years of suffering has triggered the CTB decision

 

[Cyagangy]

You seem to be a minor. I'm not sure this website is for you.

What you talk about in this thread makes me think you want to express your dissatisfaction in relationship with your mom more than you want to ctb. This could be done by moving out at some point in the future. Please reconsider.

Also, by sharing your plans online you have practically given all the information to the police, because in case of the gruesome death you described you will 100% be investigated. Therefore, your mom won't be accused of murder anyway.

I'm a college student now...

You seem to be a minor. I'm not sure this website is for you.

What you talk about in this thread makes me think you want to express your dissatisfaction in relationship with your mom more than you want to ctb. This could be done by moving out at some point in the future. Please reconsider.

Also, by sharing your plans online you have practically given all the information to the police, because in case of the gruesome death you described you will 100% be investigated. Therefore, your mom won't be accused of murder anyway.

Oh also adding onto this, I already made this attempt so I know it wouldn't be tried as murder now. Especially since it was almost a year ago.

You know, for somebody who claims to be a Christian this is not a very Christian thing to do. I'm pretty sure that shit, like trying to frame others for murder, isn't something that is commonly promoted within Christian circles. Aren't Christians supposed to promote forgiveness and shit?

It doesn't sound like your mother has done anything particularly bad to you, at least based on your post, so I don't get why you are so hell bent on ruining her life. Who cares. Once you die you won't be around to give a shit anymore. If your goal is to make her suffer, then I'm pretty sure your death will be enough. Revenge is just pointless bullshit.

When I made this attempt it was before I converted. I realized in hindsight I may have been a tad bit petty, I forgot what she did exactly to push me to that point but I just knew that highschool was going to end soon and I didn't wanna be kicked out of the house because in the states your parent has to keep you if your 18 and attending highschool. But once your out of highschool they can kick you out.

"I detailed what my mom had done and even had instructions for my friend to post a video of me explaining what my mom had been doing to me for years on end."

Maybe there was abuse... tho I hope the OP doesn't try and frame for "indirect" murder... ruining the OP's post-CTB reputation... but rather say that "X made be want to CTB", which... is a more accurate way of saying the years of suffering has triggered the CTB decision

I'm pretty sure I specifically mentioned my mom in only three notes. One for the cops to find, one for my mom and one for my dad. Then I even had another recording to be sent as an email a month later to taunt my mom further which unfortunately did not get unsent after I survived.