Do you want to get better?

[Fadeawaaaay]

It's too late. I made mistakes decades ago that put me in this position…

 

[Hurt]

At this point is impossible for me to feel better. All I want is an end. No point in going on if I'm feeling like this.

 

[Tomoko]

Ideally, yes. Sometimes I wonder if my past attempt failed because I'm meant to get better. It is a silly, humiliating thought but every so often motivational. Though when I realise "getting better" means succumbing to the blindness to reality that I once had, I stop caring again.

 

[Klophy]

Yes, i want to be better

 

[WhatPowerIs]

Ideally, yes. Sometimes I wonder if my past attempt failed because I'm meant to get better. It is a silly, humiliating thought but every so often motivational. Though when I realise "getting better" means succumbing to the blindness to reality that I once had, I stop caring again.

I don't think it's as silly and as humiliating as you claim it is, but I understand and relate to your point of just not caring anymore. That's basically the point I'm at right now.

 

[Suspect_Device]

I very much want to get better. I find myself saying out loud when I'm alone, "Please god give me one more chance" like some corny fuck in a Hallmark Channel movie. So lame.