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gorexzxz

gorexzxz

Member
Apr 13, 2024
50
I don't get most people here that say no. Life is presumably terrible because of how you feel. So life isn't worth living even if you feel good again?
Getting better would mean everything to me. I'd spend my life savings just to be rid of this depression.
People have different situations. Depression comes in many forms and can be cause by many different things. For me personally getting better only means so much. I can only improve my situation but there will always be pain, humiliation and hatred.
 
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Cute_&_Loving

I like trinkets:)
May 10, 2023
424
I used to. But I'm unable to. And it's gotten so much worse at this point…. So it's just about picking the least anxious method for me and the means to it…..
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
335
People have different situations. Depression comes in many forms and can be cause by many different things. For me personally getting better only means so much. I can only improve my situation but there will always be pain, humiliation and hatred.
You feel like you're beyond full recovery? How do you know for sure that's the case
 
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gorexzxz

gorexzxz

Member
Apr 13, 2024
50
You feel like you're beyond full recovery? How do you know for sure that's the case
I've lost thing things I can't get back. Up until recently I was on the road to recovery. I then I received the truth from a doctor and realised I gonna have a lesser version of my life that I don't want (My life has been pretty bad up since childhood).
 
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Red Moon

Red Moon

Warlock
Sep 21, 2022
743
No, me being autistic and other health condition is the root of my problems and they're incurable and it's not like I can go back in time to my youth either to change and fix things.

I also don't pass or fit into society and my depression is still there.
 
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thepiecessatup

thepiecessatup

Student
Jan 9, 2024
100
I don't want to get better because I found comfort in my suicidal thoughts
My suicidal thoughts don't leave me like the people in my life do
I completely agree. I only get solace from my suicidal thoughts. I get through the night (and day now I'm stuck in hospital) just praying that I have the courage to ctb. But even just the thoughts are so comforting. I guess we are the odd ones out in the world on here but thank goodness for this website. It's the least alone I've felt in a long time having people who understand around to talk to.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,803
If getting "better" means to die to avoid pointless and harsh decades of suffering for no purpose whatsoever, then yes. However, if getting "better" means to adapt to life and to be a cog in the system until I reach old age, then no.
 
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mainlanders_son

mainlanders_son

Member
Apr 4, 2024
88
Yeah, but AFAICT it's impossible at this point, without fucking up my brain even further.
 
cocoseal

cocoseal

Member
Apr 10, 2024
11
I don't get most people here that say no. Life is presumably terrible because of how you feel. So life isn't worth living even if you feel good again?
Getting better would mean everything to me. I'd spend my life savings just to be rid of this depression.
Well to help you understand better as someone who does not want to get better, I feel so much comfort to being this way, the way I am yes I have no motivation to do shit and its very stressful but i don't want it to go away. I guess I feel I do not deserve to feel better ever. I feel like this is my destiny, my destiny is to suffer and keep feeling this emptyness I feel which is corny but its how I feel.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,024
If getting "better" means to die to avoid pointless and harsh decades of suffering for no purpose whatsoever, then yes. However, if getting "better" means to adapt to life and to be a cog in the system until I reach old age, then no.
Same
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

You're gonna carry that weight.
Apr 22, 2024
489
It just isn't in the cards for me. I am too mentally unstable and suicidal of a person to love. I can't be in a relationship or a close friendship because of how I am. Might as well face reality instead of continue to embrace delusion
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
829
Suicidality is more rational than non-suicidality; hence there is nothing to "get better" from.

Even if things become better it won't matter bc you won't be around to feel regret at missing them.
I agree with the essence of this, though I would say that "getting better" to me means treating any issues that are causing the suicidality, so in that sense, you are getting better. However, if your problem is simply "life," then yes, I suppose you are resolving it directly by CTBing.

My only reason for deliberating about recovery, apart from being unable to attempt atm, is not wanting to hurt those around me.
Though, I'm frankly not sure that recovery is possible in my case, so there's a risk that it will all be for naught in the end.
 
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Lifeaffirmingchoice

deserved so much better
Mar 22, 2024
333
I agree with the essence of this, though I would say that "getting better" to me means treating any issues that are causing the suicidality, so in that sense, you are getting better. However, if your problem is simply "life," then yes, I suppose you are resolving it directly by CTBing.

My only reason for deliberating about recovery, apart from being unable to attempt atm, is not wanting to hurt those around me.
Rationally, life is inclusive of all the problems we experience here - of suicidality, recovery, etc.
 
terra.nuvo

terra.nuvo

Student
Feb 15, 2024
178
I do. I'm actively trying everyday to get better and hope that my efforts pay off someday. But who knows really. There is a possibility that I'll be like this forever but I still hold out hope for a better future.
 
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Lifeaffirmingchoice

deserved so much better
Mar 22, 2024
333
Yes, but most people also do not see life solely as a problem, unlike you and me.
They may not see it because it's a bit of an abstract concept to grasp, not because you and I are incorrect. This is why most people aren't interested in philosophy either. It's a subject that requires tough-mindedness and objectivity.
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
829
They may not see it because it's a bit of an abstract concept to grasp, not because you and I are incorrect. This is why most people aren't interested in philosophy either. It's a subject that requires tough-mindedness and objectivity.
I think it's simply due to optimism bias.
 
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Lifeaffirmingchoice

deserved so much better
Mar 22, 2024
333
I think it's simply due to optimism bias.
I don't think bias is the cause of faulty logic. Logically, ending life ends all problems of existence. You could know that and continue to live, however, as I'm doing, which is irrational, but that's another matter.
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
829
I don't think bias is the cause of faulty logic. Logically, ending life ends all problems of existence. You could know that and continue to live, however, as I'm doing, which is irrational, but that's another matter.
No, because the source of that logic is an enduring optimistic belief about the value of life.
So, their logic is sound, assuming the truth of that axiom.
 
DyingToDie123

DyingToDie123

she/her
Oct 25, 2023
385
I want my circumstances to get better. They won't though. So as long as that's the case I don't want to get better. It's probably petty of me, just being miserable to prove a point and not let people get away with hurting me, but that's how I feel.
 
notevenhere

notevenhere

Ghost Angel
Apr 27, 2023
104
I don't want to get better, either. I'm tired of disappointing the people in mh life.
 
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Lifeaffirmingchoice

deserved so much better
Mar 22, 2024
333
No, because the source of that logic is an enduring optimistic belief about the value of life.
So, their logic is sound, assuming the truth of that axiom.
Believing that life has value is a logically different "belief" or understanding that all of life's problems are contained or subsumed within life itself. I don't see how that's difficult to understand. You can believe something is nothing but suffering and still believe it has value. The two aren't mutually exclusive.
 
Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
829
Believing that life has value is a logically different "belief" or understanding that all of life's problems are contained or subsumed within life itself. I don't see how that's difficult to understand. You can believe something is nothing but suffering and still believe it has value. The two aren't mutually exclusive.
I'm just saying that their conclusion is not illogical if one assumes the truth of that axiom (and a few others).
If most people believed life was pure suffering, they would not be so opposed to suicide.
Sure, some would still invoke meaning as a reason to value life in and of itself.

I think we had a misunderstanding.
I did not claim that people are logical if they don't understand that, tautologically, life's problems are contained within life itself.
I am saying that if they believe that life has inherent (positive) value, then it follows that, in some cases, suicide would not necessarily be rational from their perspective. Furthermore, I am claiming that the belief driving this conclusion likely stems from optimism bias.
However, in the case of the axiological asymmetry, it does not entirely stem from that.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
Yes.

I often don't, though.
 
thealteredmind

thealteredmind

Experienced
Apr 2, 2024
231
yeah I always wanted to get better, even now. but better means BETTER. not 1% better. not 5% better. I need like... 30% better. something noticeable.
no more benzo symptoms. no more pssd. back to "normal". AND THEN... no more insomnia. but that still won't be enough... I need relief from depression.
 
Amnesiac_88

Amnesiac_88

I'm not living, I'm just killing time.
Mar 14, 2024
26
No, i feel like at this point there is no way for me to get better it's too late for that, and i don't even want to try to get better i'm too tired of trying and failing at everything i do. I'm worthless and it will always be that way
 
3/4Dead

3/4Dead

Peace, Love, Empathy
Feb 27, 2024
450
It's easy to just get used to losing. to feeling awful all the time and just stop desiring more.

I don't want anything but for everything to be over. Just wanna be done.
 
anxiousmess0471

anxiousmess0471

Member
Feb 4, 2024
47
I sometimes want to get better. And other times I like it when I'm miserable. For some reason there is a sense of comfort when you've lost all hope in yourself. There's no more expectations you have to uphold. But there are moments where I'll get that glimmer of hope that life will be better which is what keeps me moving on.
 
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broth0100

broth0100

i’m not in the tide i be under it, Jaws
Oct 23, 2023
163
I wanna get worse
 

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