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Let me go
- Mar 3, 2024
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Why now?
Why later?
If not, what would you want to change in your life?
Why later?
If not, what would you want to change in your life?
Mostly because, at the moment, I lack to courage to do it. Although I don't fear death that much anymore (like, I don't have constant anxiety over it), I still can't bring myself to do it, for some reasons.Why later?
Are you British? I'm American so my internal voice is as well but I'm gonna try reading your posts with a British accent nowActually in my case I really wish I never existed, only never existing is true perfection to me but apart from that I believe the less time spent trapped in this existence the better, the more time spent delaying the inevitable just means more opportunities to suffer and I don't want to suffer in any way, I see all suffering as meaningless, unnecessary and undesirable.
Just the fact that there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they exist is enough to make me always see it as better to not exist. I just have no interest in something so hellish and harmful as existence, I'd always prefer to be permanently relieved from the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human, existence itself is such an abomination. In my case only suicide is rational, I see suicide as suffering prevention and all that comforts me is the thought of permanent non-existence, only non-existence is desirable, I don't get why anyone would wish for existence, existence itself is the true problem.