Do you think you deserve to feel how you do?

[anyoneshorizon]

I think i deserve it or else why would I always feel so bad.

 

[Life_and_Death]

im slowly coming to terms with it. before i use to feel that the emotional anguish im feeling was an overreaction to what ive been through, slowly realizing that maybe its not

 

[Cowgirl2000]

If I asked my parents, they would probably say yes. I'm lesbian and since they know about it, I'm some sort of alien for them

 

[Final-push123]

In terms of general feeling of doom, no the climate was destroyed before I was even born. It natural for me to feel like crap because of the possibility of human extinction in my life time

Brief acute suicidal ideation, yes because I made a stupid mistake that could have ruined my life. Of course it probably not healthy to feel that way about mishaps but what can ya do?

 

[Rational man]

I dont think anyone deserves to suffer . Its often the result of circumstances that have created hardship.

 

[Cinno]

No I don't think so

 

[iiiinfinityyyy]

I'd say maybe? I'm extremely lazy and have no motivation to do anything. I don't find anything worth working for anymore.

Maybe 'deserving' is the wrong word…but I'm definitely getting what's been coming. I am lazy, reclusive, and extremely socially awkward, and I refuse to improve my lifestyle.

 

[FuneralCry]

No of course not. I deserve better than this life, I deserve peaceful non existence and freedom from all suffering. I never should have been brought into this world in the first place, I have never belonged here. To ctb would be the best possible thing for me as it would prevent a future filled with dread and despair.

 

[rainwillneverstop]

Yes I do, and I punish myself for my mistakes.
Circumstances may have contributed to who I am, but I am responsible for every single mistake I have made.
I deserve the pain from the consequences of my actions.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I think I have made many mistakes and made bad decisions throughout my life and I regret everything, however I think I have a good heart and despite everything I don't think I deserve to be suffering in this way, or I don't know, maybe I do. deserves, this confuses me, I don't feel any hope that something can improve for me and even though I think I'm a good person, everyone always leaves me when I need it most and that hurts me even more.

 

[whatstheporpoise15]

Probably. I've always thought I've kind of sucked and honestly, I hope my loved ones feel some peace without the burden of me.

 

[chronicallybroken]

No, I didn't stand a chance with the genetics and environment I had

 

[KonfusedKyle]

I think it makes sense, but I was unlucky. I think I've done well given the hand I was dealt, but it won't be enough.

 

[hopelessbeing]

I think I deserve this yes. I think it is all my fault. I deserve the suffering and I don't deserve to be alive.

 

[Klophy]

I'd like to say no.

Though at the end of the day, my life is my own, and I was too weak to overcome my shortcomings/situation. Maybe I do deserve it.

 

[lionetta12]

Yeah, it's nobody elses fault but mine that I've helped others and looked out for them more than I have helped and taken care of myself. It's also my own fault that i have the trauma that I have and the chronical physical pain that I am dealing with.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Absolutely not. I don't think any suffering whatsoever is ever deserved, except perhaps in my wrathful moments of passion, which I don't believe reflect my truest beliefs.

 

[Tmbass]

I think I do deserve some pain based on how my life has generally gone, but fuck me are they starting to take the piss with how much pain they can shove into every progressing day.

 

[AloneInCollege]

Yeah probably. At least some of it. Like 80%

 

[outatime_85]

Absolutely.

From me allowing certain things to happen to myself instead of standing up for myself, to me making choices down the line that further harmed myself.

Yes, I am getting what I deserved.

Because of my choices, I get to experience and live with shame, trauma, and pain, etc.

I am only allowed to see happiness from afar by watching others. I do not get to experience it.

That seems to be the price I must pay.

 

[akana]

Fuck no

 

[bmw8]

I think i do deserve how i feel as i made some bad choices in life and lacked direction and motivation

 

[incision]

not at all, i was an innocent kid, shy from birth. went through shit a baby/toddler shouldn't have to go through. like drinking beer/dip spit from bottles on the floor, drunk joyrides with my father, 3 surgeries, accidents, scary family ordeals, all before i turned 4.
i was coddled after that pretty heavily, but shit just continued to happen. my step dad was a hard ass and technically abused me so trauma followed into later childhood. to this day i feel i'm just an innocent kid with no idea what's going on wondering why life is throwing me so many damn curveballs. a recent, prime example is my psychiatrist suddenly quit the day before our appointment, where i was going to explain i'm still a fucking mess and need more guidance. i have a whole list of diagnosed issues and from what i remember my life was good. my siblings are mentally, psychologically stable, popular social butterflies completely unlike me. i just have shit luck or reality is a complete joke and nothing is real

 

[Celerity]

I used to think so when I was a kid. Looking back, I think it was a combination of abusive parents, the "just world" fallacy, and mainstream religious thinking.

Nowadays, I am a hardcore determinist and don't think too hard about what I ultimately "deserve". I was born the way I am in the circumstances that led to me being born and leading the life I lead. Having no sight into the future or choice to choose another life, what real choice have I had but to live the life that I was given?

 

[p-funk]

I don't deserve the brain damage and worsened depression caused by SSRIs. But I've made some terrible decisions such as recently quitting a good paying, relatively easy job which I now constantly ruminate about. I could blame the psych meds for clouding my judgement, but ultimately it was my dumb choice. So I think I deserve this pit of despair I now find myself in. Self-sabotage strikes again.

 

[Darkover]

no not at all it's all down to just random chance wherever you get to live a good life or not

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Not at all but the concept of "deserve" in this context is meaningless...

 

[Forever Sleep]

On the one hand- I know I could make more effort to improve my life- so- maybe.

On the other, I think it's utterly cruel if there is a God and it made us sentient and then put a whole load of awful shit in our lives to get through to kind of see how we'd do. It's not my fault I'm sentient and while I might be able to improve some things, there are others that are bound to make me upset- bereavement, illness, seeing other people suffer etc.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I have gotten what was coming to me… Going back decades to high school and college I had a flawed perception of Reality and was not strategic In my planning… This is what happens when you're lost and you make decisions on short term advantages…you end up in a ditch Unable to support yourself properly… I've always had a fearful and depressive outlook on life so maybe I didn't deserve that part… But I take responsibility for my failure…

 

[old red eyes]

Totally....self inflicted....had it all , screwed it up.....