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Mint Floss

Mint Floss

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Dec 11, 2025
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Life feels like it gets worse every year. There's no reason to leave your house anymore. Interactions with people just feel performative. Everything feel performative. Everything has died, and people are just trying to pantomime life from what they remember from movies, hoping it'll spark some joy. But I don't think anything is ever going to be good again. And it's only going to continue downward until we're nothing but mapped out husks.

IDK maybe it's just the USA.
 
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leaving_early

It's so hard in this cruel world
Jan 21, 2026
6
None for me. The only thing I ever cared about and enjoyed doing was programming but now that AI has trivialized it there is literally no reason for me to stay alive.
 
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Mint Floss

Mint Floss

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Dec 11, 2025
33
None for me. The only thing I ever cared about and enjoyed doing was programming but now that AI has trivialized it there is literally no reason for me to stay alive.

Yeah... I feel like AI has ruined a lot of things. Hollowing out the joy of creation. Everything joyous is recreational now.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Things are not the same, I agree. Covid? Can't just be that. But this is not the world I grew up in. Not even close. It's not the depression talking its part of why the depression exists
 
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lpdsvm

Member
Jan 11, 2026
69
Covid screwed me up badly. I think it made me think of CTB. Around that time I started to look for real methods. Great job (whoever made this pandemic up or used it as an opportunity). I feel like they want people to CTB.

People get worse not better (health and energy). So I sometimes think why not now. I will not live forever anyway and it is already a cr#p situation.
 
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reticulator

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Jan 24, 2026
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I was never naturally good at anything, except maybe golf but I didn't stick with it long enough to go pro or anything. I was a good looking guy, but suffering from a mental condition such as depression, and constant anxiety causes one to age prematurely, so I'm losing even that. I was always slow at learning new things, never had any natural artistic talent, and even video games, which I loved I never got really good at even with many hours of practice.

So I'm just a painfully mediocre or even below average person who doesn't really have any special talents or skills that can be useful to society. I coasted on my looks in my 20s, which worked surprisingly well but obviously that will not last forever.

Basically because of my worsening mental state , all of my skills that I did have seemed to have degenerated, and I don't see much hope for a future or a light at the end of the tunnel.
Covid screwed me up badly. I think it made me think of CTB. Around that time I started to look for real methods. Great job (whoever made this pandemic up or used it as an opportunity). I feel like they want people to CTB.

People get worse not better (health and energy). So I sometimes think why not now. I will not live forever anyway and it is already a cr#p situation.
It did the same with me too! I have had depression and anxiety since I was a teenager, but I couldn't cope with the Covid situation. I was working as a front line employee as well, with a boss that had no mercy or pity, and I had a mental and physical breakdown during that period. I lost my job over snapping and cussing out a bully manager, and never really recovered since then mentally. I did gig work to get by, but it's unsustainable, and my resume is cooked in this current job market. I work with my dad in his "business" but it's not going anywhere.

Every day I wake up, I feel a sense of dread, but it's partly the bed I've made for myself. My mind doesn't let me cope with the way the world is, and I can't see any hope or anything in a positive light. I'm not taking care of myself anymore, or eating right and some days I just spend hours in bed. This is no way to live life at all, and it's just endless suffering and misery day after day.
 
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shatteredcrystal

Preferably me, partially not, probably in between.
Apr 8, 2024
23
I have a close friend that knows who I am (who we are, actually) and willing to listen to me. She knows my view on CTB and accepts this side of me. That's basically it.
 
violetforever

violetforever

Experienced
Dec 24, 2025
270
Life feels like it gets worse every year. There's no reason to leave your house anymore. Interactions with people just feel performative. Everything feel performative. Everything has died, and people are just trying to pantomime life from what they remember from movies, hoping it'll spark some joy. But I don't think anything is ever going to be good again. And it's only going to continue downward until we're nothing but mapped out husks.
perfectly written. i personally have no reason to live anymore. even my thoughts aren't an escape from my life, but now something i also wish to escape from. i can't get away from the people around me and i can't get away from the person who is constantly on my mind. it's wearing me down. i'm tired of it all.
 
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ForeverSubhuman

Member
Nov 12, 2025
52
Nope. Not for me personally I've made my decision.
 
kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
233
It's not just USA. I guess it's entire world now.

It's true that things are not the same and everything keeps declining since 2020. The world I was taught about no longer exists.
 
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HansaNull

HansaNull

the last color turning gray
Dec 4, 2025
27
Life feels performative for me as well, the only time i feel «real» is when I'm with my nephew. I want him to live the life i never could.
I've not made my decision yet, and it's all because of him…
 
lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
351
It's not just the USA. I live in Europe, basically everyone is fucked mentally. There is no point at all. If you look at the big picture, nothing matters and everything we do is completely useless.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,896
I never did in the first place, to me existence is just the most terrible cruel mistake and I wish I never suffered in this torturous, dreadful existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering more than anything, I'll always see the existence of life as the most dreadful, devastating tragedy that has only ever tortured existing beings and the suffering of existing is endless.

No matter what I'll always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, no I could never see a reason to be tortured in this dreadful existence and what is horrific to me is how the suffering and torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to end up in even more unbearable agony.

To suffer until the extreme hellish torture of old age would be the most terrible undeserved punishment, existence is always an abomination to me and all I want is to erase this existence, there's just so much evil in existing, the only peace for me could lie in never suffering again and I just always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific world where humans do all they can to force others to be tortured for as long as possible, denying painless death is unacceptable extreme cruelty.
 
Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,470
I don't. I'm always alone, and the world seems to be falling apart, especially here in the US. Performative is a good way of describing it. I observe most people only barely interested in the most surface-level connections or communications. I've witnessed conversations where two people appear to be talking and conversing but when you pay attention you realize each person is really having their own conversation and what the other person says is irrelevant. It's crazy to see how people can "interact" that way and either not notice or not care. I mean, if you aren't interested in connecting and caring about someone else, what's the point?

And, yes, it does seem performative because any effort people do put into interactions seems less about the interaction and more about appearing to be interacting. IT's like... when you watch a movie and they are in a group scene and the two main characters are interacting meaningfully to advance the plot, but all the other people in the background of the scene are just saying nonsense and mimicking interactions to sell the illusion. That is what real life is... all the people mimicking what they think human behavior is supposed to look like and not really caring about the interaction.

It's so lonely to be in this world and want real connection and never find it and observe over and over how most people you encounter really aren't interested in interacting not just with you but with anyone at all.
 

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