do you think it is evil to ctb when things like your sister is pregnant?

[hiitsme]

i just ordered the things i need to ctb but she's having birth in a month. i feel obviously horrible, but the last time i waited until her wedding and nothing changed just started doing benzos lol. idk we're not super close, but i am close with my nephew, but idk if they want me to be around them a lot anyways bc im trans. idk just feels really evil but i need to do it

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's more a very difficult decision than being outright evil I feel. Obviously, most of us want to do what we can not to hurt our loved ones but then, we're hurting too. It's a horrible situation where no one really wins and, someone hurts- one way or another.

Sometimes my whole anti-natilist viewpoint makes me think it's evil to put people in these circumstances to begin with. Or, at least waltz straight into the risk of these dilemas becoming a reality. But then, 'evil' also feels too extreme when I doubt our parents did it with bad intentions.

So no, not really 'evil'. More very tragic and difficult.

 

[outrider567]

i just ordered the things i need to ctb but she's having birth in a month. i feel obviously horrible, but the last time i waited until her wedding and nothing changed just started doing benzos lol. idk we're not super close, but i am close with my nephew, but idk if they want me to be around them a lot anyways bc im trans. idk just feels really evil but i need to do it

I would wait til after she gives birth

 

[alwaysalone]

No it's not evil. It's not like you're killing her you're killing yourself.

 

[Dot]

Slf undrstnd tht hangng on mght b dffclt bt slf knw sme1 irl whse brothr ctb whle thy wre pregnnt - th/ mothr suffrd pst-partm psychoss & ws hearng hs voic tellng hr 2 join hm

Evry1 = dffrnt bt if u r cnsidrng ur sistr welfre thn trma + all of thse hormonl chnges cld b damgng fr hr - ofc ctb cn alwys b damgng bt thnk atm = cld b rskier

 

[RandomFellowIdc]

It's a fucked up situation. Often is when it comes to CTB.
But "evil" implies some malicious intent, which is not the case here

 

[hiitsme]

bump, it's also bc if i don't do it soon then i have to move into a new apartment and try to figure out jobs through doordash/onlyfans. and then ive also been taking a lot of benzos. ugh it sucks so bad, but i feel like i need to do it

 

[bankai]

No, it's not evil. You're suffering, obviously. I'm sure it feels wrong, but that's understandable. Suicide always feels wrong. To be honest, I think. I think there will be something blocking our path at all times.sister's marriage, Sister's child, anniversaries,weddings,birthdays so on.If you really want,then you can go ahead.