Discussion Do you really want to die?

[ninaevol]

Do you really want to die, or just want the suffering to end, and death seems like the only way out? I often feel this way. Had my circumstances been different, maybe I'd actually want to live.. but that's just wishful thinking. I'm planning to ctb very early Sunday morning. I have everything setup, just can't help but feel sad.

 

[Ashpac]

I think most people on here have had a bad life and want to end their misery.
I also believe a few people on here have the potential to turn their life around its just upto them if they want too or not.
I think everyone on here who has their method chosen also feels sad about it, me included.
Life can be kind to some but very cruel to others.
Unfortunately life was cruel to me so im passed caring about dying.
Good question though.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Nahhhh.

That's why I'm still here! Aren't you guys lucky? I'm here to spread joy and happiness.

 

[Shay]

I was a person who lived a great life until 4 mo ago. I never even thought I would commit suicide ever. Now I do because I need to escape my pain and end suffering but I wish I had my old life back

 

[QueenEtna]

No, I don't.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

i dont but i have to

 

[Ashpac]

For some reason, ive analysed myself and many other people. It seems like some people are destined to die by suicide.
I dont know why. I am convinced we have more than one lifetime.
I know many people on here are athiests and thats cool.
Ill stick with my beliefs and what ive learned from the studies ive researched.
Dont bother asking me what ive learned or try to turn this into a debate.
I wont answer. Its upto you if you wanna learn.

 

[QueenEtna]

For some reason, ive analysed myself and many other people. It seems like some people are destined to die by suicide.
I dont know why. I am convinced we have more than one lifetime.
I know many people on here are athiests and thats cool.
Ill stick with my beliefs and what ive learned from the studies ive learned from.
Dont bother asking me what ive learned or try to turn this into a debate.
I wont answer. Its upto you if you wanna learn.

I believe in reincarnation too. Sometimes I think I can remember my past life.

 

[Ashpac]

I believe in reincarnation too. Sometimes I think I can remember my past life.

I find that very interesting. Maybe you and I can talk sometime.

 

[Ben]

I want the suffering to end, and there is no question that death is the only option. To say I've had my fair share of chances is a understatement. Time and time again it always fails. Your resources get spent, both financially and mentally. The ability to solve your problems dwindle down until you are left truly helpless. To continue further would leave me a parasite of society. There is nothing but burned down bridges with people in my life, they have no more room left to share my pain. They are gone, the ability to sustain myself in society is gone, I'm one straw away from a broken back, and I'm drained from fighting for so long. While I cannot compare my struggles to the extreme end of the spectrum regarding some things...I'm truly a lost cause. I feel it in my heart and soul. I have 5 days left until I'm confronted with a path I've been down before. A path that leads to what? a life of more pain. Only you truly know if you WANT to die, or HAVE to die. It was a want a long time ago, but I do not see a a more logical choice then death.

 

[Ashpac]

I want the suffering to end, and there is no question that death is the only option. To say I've had my fair share of chances is a understatement. Time and time again it always fails. Your resources get spent, both financially and mentally. The ability to solve your problems dwindle down until you are left truly helpless. To continue further would leave me a parasite of society. There is nothing but burned down bridges with people in my life, they have no more room left to share my pain. They are gone, the ability to sustain myself in society is gone, I'm one straw away from a broken back, and I'm drained from fighting for so long. While I cannot compare my struggles to the extreme end of the spectrum regarding some things...I'm truly a lost cause. I feel it in my heart and soul. I have 5 days left until I'm confronted with a path I've been down before. A path that leads to what? a life of more pain. Only you truly know if you WANT to die, or HAVE to die. It was a want a long time ago, but I do not see a a more logical choice then death.

I honestly feel that pain from your reply. Not even joking.
I think you and I should talk sometime.

 

[Shay]

For some reason, ive analysed myself and many other people. It seems like some people are destined to die by suicide.
I dont know why. I am convinced we have more than one lifetime.
I know many people on here are athiests and thats cool.
Ill stick with my beliefs and what ive learned from the studies ive researched.
Dont bother asking me what ive learned or try to turn this into a debate.
I wont answer. Its upto you if you wanna learn.

I agree. It seems like a destiny thing. I do believe in more than one life. I met a spiritual reader once who shared her philosophy of different lifetimes with me. Very interesting

 

[ninaevol]

For some reason, ive analysed myself and many other people. It seems like some people are destined to die by suicide.
I dont know why. I am convinced we have more than one lifetime.
I know many people on here are athiests and thats cool.
Ill stick with my beliefs and what ive learned from the studies ive researched.
Dont bother asking me what ive learned or try to turn this into a debate.
I wont answer. Its upto you if you wanna learn.

I've always been a really sad kid, and after a decade of depression and anxiety I don't think I can handle it anymore. Only suicide will truly end the pain. I guess I'm just sad because I'm only 20 and haven't got to experience that much in life. Most of what I have though is misery. I'm an atheist, but reincarnation doesn't sound too bad.. that is if the next time is any better.

 

[Ben]

I honestly feel that pain from your reply. Not even joking.
I think even you and I should talk sometime.

Thanks, i try to be as open as possible. That said, yea, whenever you got some time to chat hit me up.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Today the nurse asked if i was discharged could i not start a new life somewhere. Well ive moved cities 3 times im done trying to start again. This last time i had it down, GF, good job, house, looking to adopt, far, mo ey in the bank and my partner died. Im 31, she was 33. Im done trying to pick my life up and start again, im just done. My whole life is gone and i dont see past it, tbh i dont want to see past it not this time. I dont see it as suicide, i just want to be back with my girl and i believe this is how to do it, if i dont find her in the afterlife it will still be better than trying to live without her.

 

[Ashpac]

Im here for everyone who wants to live or die. Its all good.

 

[windingdown]

Do you really want to die, or just want the suffering to end, and death seems like the only way out? I often feel this way. Had my circumstances been different, maybe I'd actually want to live.. but that's just wishful thinking. I'm planning to ctb very early Sunday morning. I have everything setup, just can't help but feel sad.

My preference is definitely to be well. It's not possible, though, so I am going for the only way out. I feel very sad, too - that my life has to end up this way, and that life ends in death generally.

I am gearing myself up, too. I guess nearly everyone has to make peace with death at some point, whether it comes by suicide, illness, or age. It's not easy.

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I don't want to die but I really really don't want to be alive anymore. Two facts that are completely incompatible with each other and treat me apart on a daily basis.

 

[windingdown]

I was a person who lived a great life until 4 mo ago. I never even thought I would commit suicide ever. Now I do because I need to escape my pain and end suffering but I wish I had my old life back

I can really relate to your story, as I had a good life, too, and wish for my old life back. Part of all of this is accepting and making peace with the fact that it's not coming back. It is hard. Life was (overall) lovely.

 

[Ben]

Im here for everyone who wants to live or die. Its all good.

That should be a bumper sticker

 

[Ashpac]

That should be a bumper sticker

I wouldnt say no to that.

 

[Nlnp2]

I honestly don't know. On one hand I don't want to be here, on the other hand I don't want to cease to exist either (assuming death is the end. And even if we had scientific proof that the soul exists, we wouldn't know what the soul actually is, or how the afterlife works, and where we will end up. Maybe some parts of the psyche like memories or habits would still be dependent on the brain and you'd still lose them after death, just to speculate. You'd still fear death because it would be outside of your comfort zone, even if you were immortal)

 

[okyeah]

No I don't want to die because I managed to have a good life for a few years. But it's unrealistic to have that good life again.

 

[NOISYMIND]

I would want to live if I could. But the suffering has become so much more than I can cope with and death seems like the only way to end it.

 

[wanttodie]

yes I really want to die

 

[zadig777]

I was a person who lived a great life until 4 mo ago. I never even thought I would commit suicide ever. Now I do because I need to escape my pain and end suffering but I wish I had my old life back

what happened to u?
i have the same problem which also happened 4 months ago

 

[Shay]

what happened to u?
i have the same problem which also happened 4 months ago

Doctor Bullied me into meds that fried my hair and half fell out. The other half slowly falling out

 

[Mugara]

I have to die. Through actual misery and desperation I somewhat started to enjoy my life and took it as it is, however it easily goes off when I remember how much time I wasted pitying myself and setting things aside. I might turn around my situation but my future seems pointless if I again fall into a state I am trying to escape, I have no strength to keep up.

 

[IfHeDiesHeDies]

I don't want to die but i need to die asap before the cancer totally fxcks up my body where I couldn't even kill myself.

 

[lostinthedream]

the crush of loneliness is almost unbearable, it also dovetails into a feeling of completion of my life's journey.. I don't feel I belong here on this planet.. space, time.. I feel whatever I was here to accomplish that I have and yet, I continue to awaken here.. go figure..