Discussion do you plan to spite someone when you ctb?

[batmanreal]

people are horrible. they'll do awful things to you, ruin your life, and feel nothing when they see you struggling—even if they are the cause of your struggles. i've noticed that a lot of people just refuse to believe that others are struggling. your struggles will only be considered once it's too late, but even then, you probably won't be that lucky.
i want people to feel guilty when i kill myself, but they probably won't. no one cares. they'll blame anything and everything except themselves, even if you tell them that they were the issue.

spite isn't my sole motivation to ctb, it's just a recent thing that came to me. i used to feel a bit anxious about the possibility of others feeling guilty about my death, but i don't care now. i've become so bitter, i just hope guilt follows everyone forever. they could've done more to ease my suffering, they could've done the bare minimum, but they actively chose to hurt me. for that, i hope they suffer just as much. i doubt anyone will really feel anything, which sucks. i don't really exist in anyone's mind. i'll just disappear quietly, no matter how much noise i make on the way out.

 

[Morte]

yes, but hatred is too mentally draining and im too exhausted . i cant even write that much here because im tired, much less a suicide essay against someone .

 

[Forveleth]

I am not motivated by spite to die but hurting those left behind when I die is a nice bonus.

 

[Metro]

I probably will, though I've often wondered how many words of my note I should really dedicate to it

 

[Unhumanly.]

Thinking about this too but they probably find replacement of me quick enough for the guilt to actually linger