fkyou
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- Oct 1, 2022
- 501
Nothing good comes with age if your life is already fked up.. the best thing I could've done was end things quickly..with no going up it only goes down.. there's a reason people who kill themselves in teenage years because of chronic illnesses they have..they know it's gonna be a hard life to them they know they can't fix it..some dude I studied with in HS hang himself he had epilepsy..
I can't believe despite what I've been through they still blamed me for not trying more..I truly believed no one can say anything..dispite the humiliation I went through they gaslighted me into thinking I wasn't good enough.. they still had the audacity to talk to me..I can't believe it..I always forget my trauma days..when I remember I can't believe what mindset I have now..now I've turned on myself blaming myself..but when I remember what actually happened I'm in shock..how can they talk to me..how?!!!!!!!how!!! Why? Do they think I'm heartless??? Anything can happen to me and I still can go on ???????do they not realize the only reason they could talk to me at all is because I didn't kill myself..but that's the puzzle for me..how with that mental struggle I didn't think about suicide from the first year?.. I really don't wanna think about this it turns my stomach..how you can gaslight someone who went through the impossible into thinking they are wrong??!!!!!
Omg the best scenario I could do now is not think about it so much and just kill myself cause this is humiliation stage
Eh.. this doesn't help...I'll ctb tomorrow...Im too emotional that's why I talk too much when I could ctb in 5 minutes
I can't believe despite what I've been through they still blamed me for not trying more..I truly believed no one can say anything..dispite the humiliation I went through they gaslighted me into thinking I wasn't good enough.. they still had the audacity to talk to me..I can't believe it..I always forget my trauma days..when I remember I can't believe what mindset I have now..now I've turned on myself blaming myself..but when I remember what actually happened I'm in shock..how can they talk to me..how?!!!!!!!how!!! Why? Do they think I'm heartless??? Anything can happen to me and I still can go on ???????do they not realize the only reason they could talk to me at all is because I didn't kill myself..but that's the puzzle for me..how with that mental struggle I didn't think about suicide from the first year?.. I really don't wanna think about this it turns my stomach..how you can gaslight someone who went through the impossible into thinking they are wrong??!!!!!
Omg the best scenario I could do now is not think about it so much and just kill myself cause this is humiliation stage
Eh.. this doesn't help...I'll ctb tomorrow...Im too emotional that's why I talk too much when I could ctb in 5 minutes
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