Do you physically mime out suicide sometimes?

[Sulyya]

Sometimes (when on my own, for now but I don't really think about it when it happens) I put a finger-gun to my head, or a sort of slit throat motion, or twist my head like being hung - those three often most days at some point or another. And maybe in the same vein, as my most fantasized method is drowning, I will sometimes in stressed moments close my eyes, which in itself is normal, but that's what I'm often thinking about when I do it.


Sort of a sequel to this thread, in case you find this relatable.

Do you *involuntarily* say it out loud?

Maybe for a year or more I occasionally mutter "I'm going to kill myself" quietly. It's now up to more than once per day, almost every day. So far only when I'm on my own but had some close calls. I don't think about it first then decide to say it, I just realize it as it's happening while I'm...

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[Citruscine]

I do this all the time including mouthing the words, but only when I'm by myself (Lol this is an easy way to come off as crazy to others). I know I'm only subconsciously reinforcing / feeding into my negativity by doing this but sometimes it's the only way I can express / release the feeling of dread

 

[deprived hollow]

Yes
Also, there was a toy revolver that made a popping sound when you pulled the trigger at a friend's house and I couldn't stop shooting myself in the head with it

 

[Sulyya]

Yes
Also, there was a toy revolver that made a popping sound when you pulled the trigger at a friend's house and I couldn't stop shooting myself in the head with it

Welcome!
Not that this habit is any good but that toy seems like it would be satisfying for this involuntary urge/tic.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't really mime suicide, but what I do regularly is visualize my suicide method and how it will unfold once I am ready to go. I hope that by visualizing it repeatedly now, that when the time comes to actually CTB, that my anxiety will be reduced and going through with it will be as closer to second nature as I can get, since I will have virtually already gone through with it at least hundreds of times in my head already, if that makes any sense.

 

[Sparr0w]

similar to locknloaded i tend to daydream how it'll all unfold, i've done the miming thing a few times but not super often. i'll sometimes put my hands around my neck like i'm choking myself, but i've never considered that as a suicide option lol

 

[RW__Asher23]

Yep I do it too. I own a 3D printer and printed a gun with it and sometimes put it to my head. Well when I am alone. You are not alone in that. As you can see from replies. I wish, Peace come to you..

 

[Hellokitty3333]

I do this a whole lot by putting things tightly around my neck and making it tighter. Stop breathing for as long as possible and then release, I always wanted to die by suffocation.

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

i do this sometimes. actually today i started doing the finger-gun-to-my-head thing a lot, even in public, just been very stressed lately. funny seeing this post now, what a coincidence

 

[Archness]

Yeah. Sometimes I think about blowing my brains out with a shotgun, and it'd be all over. Tho that's difficult to mine out, so I just point a finger gun to my head and imagine shooting it.

 

[SexyIncél]

I did that a few times, miming slitting my wrist. But mostly put the shotgun in my mouth and fired 4 times, not sure if that counts as miming. At first I checked carefully it was unloaded. Then I didn't care... though it gave me a little thrill

 

[shinohara]

I daydream about dying a fair bit, but specifically.. sometimes I Imagine the feeling or motion of being hung (which would be kind of difficult to mime)

 

[Lonelyhotcake]

I do this all the time.

I don't care if people see me. After I tried to k*ll myself, I promised to be honest all the time about how I feel.

 

[Disappointered]

I've been doing the finger gun thing a lot, going back to my early twenties.

But I think I'll start acting out different forms of ctb, especially the kinds I'm more likely to actually end up using, so that i will have sort of rehearsed for the real thing. Perhaps it will make it easier to go through with.

 

[ExistHarm]

i have been dreaming about blowing my brains out with a gun since 14 years old.

 

[dimstar]

I've always had this weird craving to in some form stab or rip apart my chest. Just stab in hard and pull my rib cage apart. Even just saying that I want to tear my chest open. Never understood it, self harm and now wanting to ctb explain it I guess but I've never nor plan to touch my chest in any attempt. So sometimes I hit my chest or claw at myself like I'm acting that out. Only when alone. I also regularly shout kill me when alone particularly driving when I have bad flash backs.

 

[webawl]

Yeah, usually a finger gun to my head

 

[arcadia]

I pretend to stab myself in the chest sometimes

 

[angelysium]

Yes, same! Usually by impulse, so it looks really strange.

 

[ArchmagePrincess]

Sometimes I pretend to put an exit bag over my head and breathe in all the imaginary gas. Usually helps calm me down because I'm deep breathing and focusing on something that brings me peace.

 

[Solek]

I haven't gotten to the point of showing those feelings, but such thoughts tend to rent my head most of the day. Playing something or spending time with people I like tends to keep bad memories away, for a moment atleast.