Venting Do you often feel jealous or envious of others?

[lastappleonearth]

Cuz I do, well I didn't always, but recently I've noticed that I envy quite a lot of ppl. Like I watch the insta stories of my former classmates and they're all in relationships, all constantly travelling somewhere far away. Idk, in general they've just got their lives together u know, they just live normal lives, have friends and relationships etc.
That's all supposed to be normal, but for me it's foreign and so far away, I envy them for what they have and prob take for granted. I've truly fucked up

 

[SilentVelvet]

Yeah, almost every day. I didn't exactly grow up in easy circumstances, but by now I have a life that a lot of people would probably envy. I have many friends, I'm studying, I'm good at my job, I have a very loving partner, and I travel a lot. And yet none of it makes me feel like I want to stay here.

I envy people who can genuinely be happy with those things, because I don't understand why I can't.

 

[LakeMungoGirl]

So much envy I've detached from all of my friends because I cannot keep up with their exciting lives.

 

[Le temps perdu]

I envy those who have the choice and the freedom to choose to live abroad, travel around the world, and have an open and loving family with good financial support, i often envy other ppl

 

[throwawaygirl]

I definitely envy people that i think are more put together than me

 

[tomame]

only those who's lives, morals, strength, and personalities align with what God favors.

also those that die young, fast, and with little pain

it's one of my greatest fears to live unto old age.

and i often feel everything about me is opposite of what God wants of me. and at best it's humbled me and at worst has destroyed my self-confidence

 

[lastappleonearth]

Yeah, almost every day. I didn't exactly grow up in easy circumstances, but by now I have a life that a lot of people would probably envy. I have many friends, I'm studying, I'm good at my job, I have a very loving partner, and I travel a lot. And yet none of it makes me feel like I want to stay here.

I envy people who can genuinely be happy with those things, because I don't understand why I can't.

I hope that you can someday find a way to be happy

So much envy I've detached from all of my friends because I cannot keep up with their exciting lives.

Yeah kinda same, even though I wouldn't even say that their lives (in my case) are rlly that exciting, they're just what's considered normal here and I envy them for that. They've grown up and are doing adult things, which I am still not

 

[rublev66]

I'm quite okay with where I am and feel happy to see people who are actively traveling, being in love, or keeping on pursuing their dreams. The world would be boring if all people were sad, without goals and so on. In that case, who the hell would make movies I like?

Well, the only thing that made me jealous not so long ago was colleagues in my professional field who were more successful, speaking at conferences, recognized. After several years I figured out that it mostly was related to a fear of remaining unwanted, meaning, without money in my pocket. So now I'm trying to just chill with the fear being homeless, poor, and tortured by evil teenagers, hahaha.

Feeling jealous or envious is okay, especially when we are being aware of it, but I think it's worth reminding that this feeling could be called destructive. I would prefer to be inspired. Maybe I just don't have enough ambition, with a bit more drive, I could have ended up like Antonio Salieri from Amadeus.

btw insta is a disgusting thing, I removed it a long time ago.

 

[caotic_realm]

Yes, I only envy the dead...

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Honestly.... All the time.
I envy attractive people with brains... I didn't fucking get any.
When I see attractive women,I do think I hope they have a good life. Not being married or dating a sleezebag.

 

[frail]

every day i want to ctb whenever i talk to someone attractive or beautiful because ill never look like her and it makes me hate myself so deeply i can't stand ever seeing myself

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Yes, but then I remember on social media, it's their "highlight reel" so of course their highlight reel will seem better than day-to-day mundane happenings. I still experience this with people in person, however.

 

[Forveleth]

Comparison is the theif of joy. I used to get jealous of people's lives or looks, then I realized how much of my time and energy I spent being angry about complete strangers. I started focusing on my own life instead and improved my overall mental health.

 

[2Sensible]

All the time.
I envy their looks, And their ability to have a "normal life", or to be happy.

 

[LRkin]

Constantly. I just don't understand why they're seemingly happy and can enjoy life and stuff. And it looks like all the good things are meant for someone else, but not for me

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I feel envious of those who have had a better childhood/better life than me in general. Sometimes I may even feel envious of those who managed to escape from their abusive household.
I also feel envious of those who are dead.

 

[explosiveKai99]

Not at all.
Especially with social media, I'm usually just disgusted with how fake it is. I know people usually say this, and still for others it's impossible to grasp because they get this social gut feeling that someone somewhere is living good while they rot alone.
Or maybe it's reminiscence imprinted deep in my brain, of me, living in those supposedly good moments and still being deeply unhappy and suicidal. I lived through them and I don't envy myself in those moments.
I could be fantasizing about how it is to not have my broken brain, but it would be akin to fantasizing about being a bird (which I actually sometimes do, but cannot comprehend).
Ultimately, I experienced most of "normal" things and I'm grateful for that, because I don't have to wonder if normal life would be enough for me. I know it wouldn't.

 

[Pluto]

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm jealous of the person I would've been if my life hadn't gone straight to hell two years ago.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I'm quite okay with where I am and feel happy to see people who are actively traveling, being in love, or keeping on pursuing their dreams. The world would be boring if all people were sad, without goals and so on. In that case, who the hell would make movies I like?

Well, the only thing that made me jealous not so long ago was colleagues in my professional field who were more successful, speaking at conferences, recognized. After several years I figured out that it mostly was related to a fear of remaining unwanted, meaning, without money in my pocket. So now I'm trying to just chill with the fear being homeless, poor, and tortured by evil teenagers, hahaha.

Feeling jealous or envious is okay, especially when we are being aware of it, but I think it's worth reminding that this feeling could be called destructive. I would prefer to be inspired. Maybe I just don't have enough ambition, with a bit more drive, I could have ended up like Antonio Salieri from Amadeus.

btw insta is a disgusting thing, I removed it a long time ago.

I mean yeah, feeling overly envious and jealous is destructive for sure and social media tries to amplify those feelings in order to keep users engaged. But it's hard to ignore, when everyone around you is doing better

 

[NickyKymJelly]

I'm envious of those who have the discipline to improve their life. Executive dysfunction has made my life worse as I've gotten older.

 

[lastappleonearth]

I'm envious of those who have the discipline to improve their life. Executive dysfunction has made my life worse as I've gotten older.

Same, I relate. Idk I just envy ppl who are happy and not alone

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Not much, but I do have envy who are from 1st world. Life has no opportunities, basically be a slave, feed yourself, die. I just wish I die and go to a peaceful beautiful dimension.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Only people I envy are the dead.

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

I also only envy the people who have died instead of me.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

Cuz I do, well I didn't always, but recently I've noticed that I envy quite a lot of ppl. Like I watch the insta stories of my former classmates and they're all in relationships, all constantly travelling somewhere far away. Idk, in general they've just got their lives together u know, they just live normal lives, have friends and relationships etc.
That's all supposed to be normal, but for me it's foreign and so far away, I envy them for what they have and prob take for granted. I've truly fucked up

Yes. This is why I don't use social media anymore, or at least use a ghost account. Social media is so fucking fake their job is literally to engineering envious and jealousy. I wouldn't sweat too much, especially when you don't really know what happens behind the scenes. Back when I was socializing, I'd post a nice cool pic on Instagram but deep down I was so miserable. I now only give out phone number to very few people. If they want to talk to me they will have to make an effort.

 

[limenlux]

It bothers me in a broad, general sense that nearly all of the worst people I know have much better lives than myself in at least a material sense, but it's tempered by the understanding that all of them are also miserable, embittered, petty, conniving bipedal cockroaches who will never know tranquility as a result of their unrelenting malice.

Recently, I re-established contact with an old friend who heard about my health problems and homelessness. He invited me over to the house he recently purchased to help me work on some solutions, including possibly staying with him temporarily. He gave me a tour of the house, showed me his many thousands of dollars worth of cool things, and my God did it hurt my feelings despite that being in no way his intent. He's had a rough life in his own way, worked very hard, got a tiny bit lucky, and just wanted to share his success; but nonetheless, seeing that shiny new Switch 2 and all the games he has for it felt like being trampled by a horse mounted by Mr. Monopoly.

 

[DoomedDarkCircles]

Pretty much.
I also hate how I end mentally competing with other woman. I want to make female friends and I know this insecurity of mine is irrational, but it seems to be something in the back of my mind that I can't fully let go

 

[Kokonoe]

yes. everyone's lives are so much better than mine. it makes me feel subhuman. i don't think i can even say i'm alive or actually living. this isn't a life, i just exist. my existence isn't even remotely comparable to theirs.
everyone has lives and has moved on, and i'm still stuck in the past thinking and talking about them because i still have nothing else all this time later.

 

[lastappleonearth]

yes. everyone's lives are so much better than mine. it makes me feel subhuman. i don't think i can even say i'm alive or actually living. this isn't a life, i just exist. my existence isn't even remotely comparable to theirs.
everyone has lives and has moved on, and i'm still stuck in the past thinking and talking about them because i still have nothing else all this time later.

I feel the same, like I'm just existing for the sake of it, not actually living