Yes, living in a way that could suit me and making me truly happy on a daily basis seems totally improbable and inaccessible to me, specially whith my health conditions, my past, my feeling of social disconnection and alienation, my past dreams that no longer motivates me.
I'm just unable to project myself in a desirable futur and the present is constant suffering. I do not feel a desire to die but i conclude that what should be done in my case is to unplug the tortue machine i've become cause i will not wait for a miracle as a dysfunctional living dead. It doesn't makes sense.
I'm just unable to project myself in a desirable futur and the present is constant suffering. I do not feel a desire to die but i conclude that what should be done in my case is to unplug the tortue machine i've become cause i will not wait for a miracle as a dysfunctional living dead. It doesn't makes sense.
