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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,022
I'll be honest, I don't like false platitudes either, that's why when I say "I'm sorry this happened to you" or anything similar, I mean it. I know what it's like to have people be phony towards me when I'm suffering, I don't want to do that to others.

Maybe it's a character flaw, I dunno, but I get attached to people and feel affectionate towards everyone, even strangers. Especially when they suffer in a way that is either particularly horrible to me, or in a way that is relatable to me. I mean, for example, I cried when reading about what happened to Junko Furuta, I couldn't have possibly met her, she died before I was even born, but reading her story killed me inside.

I'm a softie. I admit it. I'm extremely sensitive and a bleeding-heart softie. That's why I get attached to strangers and miss them like this. I don't know if that's good or bad, that's up to you.
 
_Broken_alice

_Broken_alice

She/Her
Nov 19, 2023
220
LonelyKitten (We never got to interact with her. Her goodbye post was up shortly after we found our way here we think.)
edu0z ....Crying now just thinking about them.
Abyssal

Just a few names we've cried over being crossed out. We hope they are all at peace and wish the world had not pushed them to to the point of choosing to go... They all deserved so much better..
 
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LaVieEnRose

Illuminated
Jul 23, 2022
3,325
I miss @Rounded Apathy. I suspect he is doing okay.

A lot of regular users dip without warning and I admit I hate that. I know they're not obligated to leave us anything but I wish they still would write something about their intentions.
 
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Proteus

Proteus

Oceanic Member
Feb 6, 2024
300
Not here for long enough, but I am extremely resilient. I lost my best friend to suicide in the past, also in a pretty trash moment. If I got over that, I don't see why it should be different this time.
 
Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
423
My relationship with this person is confusing and kinda dramatic but I sure do miss them. They were a person on this forum whom I thought was similar age to me. We shared the same enjoyment of music, chatted daily on here and shared stories about our lives. We were in contact for about a year and I shared with them my CTB plan not knowing they would follow this.. I know kinda stupid of me :nomouth:. Anyways I got a farewell message and he had a successful attempt.. fast forward 24 hours and his family contacted me as they found our messages on another platform.. next thing I am contacted by police and had to give a statement about what happened. It also nearly led to me being expelled from my support place. Luckily I was found not guilty because he had lied to me about his age and I had given the information with no intention of him following it. Kinda dramatic :pfff::pfff:. I sure miss the relationship and having him around though. Just remember to be careful on this forum and not go through what I went through in 2020 :smiling:
 
kawaiiphantom

kawaiiphantom

I gently open the door
Feb 1, 2024
303
She never talked to me, probably was too late for her to see my message but puffyclouds... I relate a lot to what she went through, some parts of her story were so relatable it was scary...

I feel so awful about what she went through. Her post is one of the rare forum posts that actually made me cry. I think about her a lot. I'm heartbroken about what happened to her.
Me too 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 I miss puffyclouds so damn much. I think about her everyday. I had a full on mental breakdown after she passed. I tear up often thinking about her and all that she had to go through. She's the first person I've interacted with since I've had an account here that CTB'd. I'm sure if she saw your message it brought her comfort and was very appreciated ❤️
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
7,543
I miss GirlShapedWound, Un, veryhappyhuman. I'm sure there are more too... I miss people who may have quit the forum or post less too.

There are also people I dread the time when they do CTB- for purely selfish reasons that I'll really miss them too but, I know that's hypocritical and a part of me will have to be relieved that they ended their own suffering.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
8,326
I've never lost so many people in such short amount of time. There're quite a few members who left and I think of them very often. Especially the ones I was in closer contact via chat.
 
thinvy

thinvy

Woefully Yours, Luka
Aug 7, 2023
189
while I barely know anyone here, seeing some names everywhere, super frequently, then never again leaves some sort of a void in my heart. I'm glad they've gotten what they were after, but at the same time, I'm sad they suffered so much that it got to this.

I don't think I saw anyone mention Persephone/last love letter, but she's been on my mind since her last post, so I suppose I'll be the one to bring her up.

there's been several others since I've gotten here too, that were kind and caring but were gone before I learned any more about them. I hold a spot for them in my heart too, bc I can't help but to be a poor sap. I worry sometimes that no one will remember them, so I try to remember what I can until it's my time to go. hopefully someone else will remember me, but I'm also okay if no one does.
 
trashprincess

trashprincess

She/Slur
Aug 8, 2023
185
Idon'tknow828

You deserved better. I wish I could have helped. You deserved better...
 
druggedonsurvival

druggedonsurvival

Student
Feb 8, 2024
189
@kawaiiphantom ! I think she was a positive presence on this forum who it seems suddenly disappeared one day. Hope she's doing alright (or otherwise at peace).
 
Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

disappear, unseen and unknown
Feb 24, 2023
220
No, I respect anyone's circumstances that make them choose their exit they long for and understand I must let them go without make them feel bad about leaving
 
logi3535

logi3535

even in death, may you be triumphant
Jan 8, 2024
99
moonicide and abyssal
 

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