Do you like watching suicide videos?

[drownll]

In a certain website (i don't know if we can name such websites here?), there are a lot of suicide videos posted. Usually i hate watching gore, but suicide videos are an exception. Seeing these people having the courage to do it gives me courage too. Their facial expression before dying is very interesting, they seem confident, relieved, in peace. I wish there was drowning suicide videos but i've never found one yet.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

In a certain website (i don't know if we can name such websites here?), there are a lot of suicide videos posted. Usually i hate watching gore, but suicide videos are an exception. Seeing these people having the courage to do it gives me courage too. Their facial expression before dying is very interesting, they seem confident, relieved, in peace. I wish there was drowning suicide videos but i've never found one yet.

Yes I do but not exactly the type you are expecting. I watch videos of suicidal people's stories, suicide short films (where they inspire you to seek help) on youtube.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've never done that, I don't have any desire to watch other people die but I certainly admire those who succeeded for their bravery to free themselves from all the suffering. At least all those gone cannot suffer anymore.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've only seen a couple of videos in assisted suicide clinics and the ones I saw were very impressive. Very quick and very peaceful. If only we had access to N. I'm not really into gore but I suppose it would reassure me if I saw an SN video and it wasn't bad. I've only read descriptions from people who witnessed a death and they seem to vary- worryingly. Still- even a friend of mine said she saw a video of an assisted suicide in a clinic and she said that didn't look all together pleasant. I suppose realistically- it isn't though. It seems like a fair bit is down to luck- like life really. Makes sense death would be just as shit as life!

 

[illAF]

In a certain website (i don't know if we can name such websites here?), there are a lot of suicide videos posted. Usually i hate watching gore, but suicide videos are an exception. Seeing these people having the courage to do it gives me courage too. Their facial expression before dying is very interesting, they seem confident, relieved, in peace. I wish there was drowning suicide videos but i've never found one yet.

I don't know if I should ask you the name of the website. I don't know if it would traumatize me or help me...

 

[figure8]

I wouldn't say I like watching them, but it's something unavoidable as soon as you create a Twitter account, lmfao. At least in my experience.

 

[mob]

You just reminded me of the times where I used to watch videos of people killing themselves so I could get more used to the thought of ctb and to take my fear of it away, because I was about to attempt to ctb at that time. Personally, I don't watch it anymore.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes i watch them, and i feel bad for them and cry sometimes even the ones in gore sites

yesterday i found one video on youtube where this guy is saying is last words and say he gonna ctb because of unrequited love

 

[jonward55]

I don't know if I should ask you the name of the website. I don't know if it would traumatize me or help me...

I wouldn't if I were you, it is not something that you can "unsee".
I personally do not want to watch other people die but everyone to their own I guess.

 

[feels_like_rain]

I haven't seen videos but i want to. Could you PM me the website?

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I don't know if I should ask you the name of the website. I don't know if it would traumatize me or help me...

Don't touch it. It will traumatize you 100%. I've seen some things I can't forget on the wrong side of the internet. I think I know the site OP Is talking about but I wouldn't ask for it, or venture searching for it. Some things you can't forget. I'll give you an example to drive my point home. In 9th grade, maybe even 8th, I saw a video of a woman jumping off of a building and I can't forget her shout and the sound of her hitting the ground, or the way her body bounced 5-6 years later.

I just wouldn't attempt it if you don't want to be traumatized. You might find more than you bargained for (like cartel videos, which are honestly worse).

 

[busybee]

I do look at videos of people using methods. How fast it is over, how much they struggle, at what point they pass out etc.
However those sites push content that is far more violent on people and it really terrifies me what humans are capable off.
Also ctb aftermath videos where they didn't succeed are haunting. Especially for the more physically damaging methods.

 

[gag_order]

I don't think I could stomach it, not that the act itself would disturb me but my anger would intensify tenfold if I watched people doing all sorts of dangerous things to themselves just because society gatekeeps a peaceful death from them. And I'm already on the edge.

 

[DynamicDepression]

No, not at all. The only reason I've seen any is for research purposes for my own suicide. Seeing those poor people being in so much pain that they had to resort to killing themselves only made me so sad. The only good thing about the videos I have seen is that they seemed to pass away somewhat peacefully at the very least.

Those websites are truly horrifying though. I made the mistake of looking at the comment section once and it was full of people who were fueling their sexual fetishes by watching miserable people kill themselves. One comment struck me particularly hard. It was on a video of a girl hanging herself. The guy was saying how the video was "sexy" but that he wished she would have been naked for it. It was nauseating and it made me even more suicidal than I already was, something I didn't think was possible at the time.

 

[illAF]

You just reminded me of the times where I used to watch videos of people killing themselves so I could get more used to the thought of ctb and to take my fear of it away, because I was about to attempt to ctb at that time. Personally, I don't watch it anymore.

Did it help you to take the fear away at that time ?

Don't touch it. It will traumatize you 100%. I've seen some things I can't forget on the wrong side of the internet. I think I know the site OP Is talking about but I wouldn't ask for it, or venture searching for it. Some things you can't forget. I'll give you an example to drive my point home. In 9th grade, maybe even 8th, I saw a video of a woman jumping off of a building and I can't forget her shout and the sound of her hitting the ground, or the way her body bounced 5-6 years later.

I just wouldn't attempt it if you don't want to be traumatized. You might find more than you bargained for (like cartel videos, which are honestly worse).

Yeah, that's what I thought. I know I can be easily traumatized, especially with images. But I was asking because I'm trying to find my method, I really want to catch the bus soon but I'm just too afraid, Si etc.. I was thinking maybe it could "desensibilisaze" me a bit and help me find my way out.
On the other hand, if it does not help me to ctb easier, it would be stupid to add more trauma on the too many traumas I already have.

 

[mob]

Did it help you to take the fear away at that time ?

Yeah, that's what I thought. I know I can be easily traumatized, especially with images. But I was asking because I'm trying to find my method, I really want to catch the bus soon but I'm just too afraid, Si etc.. I was thinking maybe it could "desensibilisaze" me a bit and help me find my way out.
On the other hand, if it does not help me to ctb easier, it would be stupid to add more trauma on the too many traumas I already have.

Personally, it did - but not enough. Seeing people dying is traumatizing, whether it be in real life or on a video. I would pretty much watch them every day and it did desensitize me. But not to the point where it took my fear away completely. If it would've, I wouldn't be here right now lolol

 

[befree]

No, but I have seen live videos showing VAD in Switzerland.

 

[pyroxenic]

No. I hate when people suffer and i especially hate people suffering in their last moments.

However, i only listened two audios of two livestreamers ending their lives on live. Even though it was only audio they were... still haunting. But some certain things theyve said before they have taken their lives made me sympathise with them (and at the same time horrified). I usually try my best to avoid any kind of IRL gore. But those two exeptions were because my suicidal thoughts were at its peak at that time.

 

[Death is my goal]

no

 

[Wkoncuodejde]

I don't like it, in the back of my mind it must have been hard for those people

 

[ThisIsLife]

I haven't seen videos but i want to. Could you PM me the website?

I'd like to know too. PM please.

 

[TAW122]

I don't enjoy it, however, I do find some educational value on their method used and can learn about the execution, reliability, and comfortability of said method. Of course, some methods are more gruesome, brutal, or even very painful to go through. For those that failed and/or suffered while dying, that is not an ideal way to go, but for those who ended up with a successful bus trip, they are no longer suffering.

 

[TheDog_]

I don't like it, but the videos make me feel less scared and alone. Like, I'm not the only one suffering and I can leave just like them.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

I've only seen a couple. One was the guy doing the night night method and it was enlightening. Not something I enjoy, but I would watch more for educational purposes. So rebreather, SN, and exit bag with gas would be something I'd probably watch.

 

[bedhead_baby]

"Like" it, no. But I have, and occasionally do, view it. It gives me the confidence that I could do it as well, though it's not enjoyable. They make me incredibly sad.

 

[JustWantOut500]

In a certain website (i don't know if we can name such websites here?), there are a lot of suicide videos posted. Usually i hate watching gore, but suicide videos are an exception. Seeing these people having the courage to do it gives me courage too. Their facial expression before dying is very interesting, they seem confident, relieved, in peace. I wish there was drowning suicide videos but i've never found one yet.

Would you mind DM'ing me the link? I've been trying partial for too long now because it's my only viable option, would love to see some videos of it being done successfully. Only one I've seen is that Swedish dude.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

i dont like watching them but i do it to desensitize myself & weaken SI for when my time has come

 

[NambaSutra]

Does the website initial to WPD? I think I know what it is but I won't spell it out.

 

[StarlightDreamer]

Y'know, it's funny. I can't watch any of the other categories on that site, as they're often very slow, painful ways to die. But Suicide? Somehow I'm able to decouple myself from the person's situation, suppress my empathy, and look at the action occurring in a clinical manner.

I suppose it's because I spent a month binging suicide lit, the last time I frequented this site. Something about reading probabilities between permanent injury and death in Stone's Suicide and Attempted Suicide is quite sobering.

In cases where it's ambiguous, I'm very hopeful they succeeded in their attempt.

 

[damianshawl]

i watch them every night in order to build up the courage to do it on my birthday, which is August 5th. so getting prepared and all.