NEVER tell anyone you are suicidal. You will be locked away and watched CONSTANTLY.

[MyTimeIsUp]

I don't know how you are keeping your sanity in there and I am so sorry you are going through this hell. I would lose my mind if I had people watching me 24/7 and have no privacy in a shower or at the toilet. And I absolutely would totally lose my mind with the noise and loud music. How do they expect anyone to heal in that environment? Actually, I will answer my own question: they likely don't give a damn if anyone heals. What a horrific place.

I imagine some staff takes that job just to abuse other people. There are some people who really get off on being abusive. (I'm sure there are good staff members, too - not saying they are all bad.) As you said, who are they going to believe, you or the staff member? I am in a support group for survivors of sexual abuse and have heard stories from other survivors who were raped in a ward, and of course no one believed them... until one of them turned up pregnant. Anyhow, I'm truly sorry you have been stuck in this place.

No, never.... never will I tell anyone. Ever. I'd rather die than be locked in a ward here. And there is a stigma, you know. Once the system has a person labeled as suicidal, then they are "crazy", and that reputation will follow a person through every single bit of medical "care" for the rest of their lives. I have never been to jail or prison and don't want to go, but I suspect being released from a psych unit would be a lot like being on parole... someone always trying to sniff up your butt to make sure you are "complying" with whatever the system says you have to.

I'm glad you've learned to pretend enough to get the hell out of there soon. And no matter what road you choose once you are out, I really hope you can find peace.

I have some privacy but I have to make a noise every 2 mins or so, if I don't, they will come in. There isn't a door, it's made of fabric and magnetic. Now I'm on further away suicide watch, so that's good, because they all believe me I'm fine now LOL.

It has followed me through my life, because of a label. I've had it with GPs and all medical professionals. I'm on section 2, which is for assessment, not treatment as you can't treat trauma with pills and docs know that so they aren't giving me meds. I'm pretending to be calm but inside I'm screaming, because I hate it here

Pretending has got me through life, so I'm good at it, it's just I told someone I thought I could trust, and she betrayed me (a professional- not mental health) so she can fuck off now. A friend of mine has accepted my suicide, and we've said goodbye and she will play songs for me when I'm gone

I'll be gone the first opportunity I get.

Can't believe they expect you to not want to die when watched 24/7

 

[sevennn]

what an idiotic treatment. if you explained it to someone who's never heard it they would say it's the most idiotic thing they ever heard. feel suicidal? sit in sensory deprivation, alone, get plucked out from support system. be watched. no coping mechanisms. detention. punishment for feelings. feelings = normal. goes against human nature. human nature = bond, socialise. what an idiotic treatment. somethign born out of disgusting western culture. individualistic and non human. sterile. sorry for your suffering. it's beyond stupid system. psychiatry the most idiotic discipline in the world. lobotomy, electric shock, conversion therapy, disabling meds, they can never get it right. and never will

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

They will talk you into electroshock therapy which will make you temporarily feel better but can wipe out a lot of your memories of your life

Omg they still do this shit in 2024??
This society is disgusting. Sorry you are having to deal with this bs now OP.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I want to reiterate to EVERYONE that not everyone gets a small amount of privacy. Some patients have two people DIRECTLY next to them while shitting, pissing, sleeping, anything.

Don't try anything on the wards, PLEASE wait until you're released, because staff will come running in and you're fucked. They could put you on a section 3 and you'll be in hospital up to 6 months, and could be longer. Please, please don't, because you don't know when they will check on you, even 4 hourly checks could be one every 2 mins, 10, 30 secs etc, they won't tell you, because they will know you're timing.

I've asked questions to check, but not obviously. You also don't want to be forcibly medicated and restrained, trust me. I haven't because no one knows. I tried once and they didn't know, staff asked to see me and I quickly took the thing off, but I'm not allowed to hide with strings. Be CAREFUL

 

[Trakehner]

I unfortunately had to learn this the hard way. It's like being in prison. No therapy was even offered and we just sat in a room all day with not much to do. On top of that, it can be very expensive in the US so I had to pay to be treated like a criminal. I still occasionally have nightmares about my experiences in hospitals. Going forward, I'll pretend that all is well until it's my time to go which will hopefully be sometime in spring next year.

 

[sevennn]

I unfortunately had to learn this the hard way. It's like being in prison. No therapy was even offered and we just sat in a room all day with not much to do. On top of that, it can be very expensive in the US so I had to pay to be treated like a criminal. I still occasionally have nightmares about my experiences in hospitals. Going forward, I'll pretend that all is well until it's my time to go which will hopefully be sometime in spring next year.

horrendous. most idiotic treatment anyone could think of