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loglady

loglady

Member
Oct 1, 2025
12
Well, according to some people I'm a "pretty girl" but lately it seems like I like more and more like my dad and I hate having his features as he's one of the biggest reason why my mental health is pure hell. Plus, I don't care about my apparence lately as I eat sh*t or nothing and have pimples and don't work out anymore.
 
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persepexa

Member
Feb 7, 2025
89
I've always struggled to accept my appearance. Sometimes I want to die because I hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I know looks are superficial and not important in the grand scheme of things. Still, appearance is highly valued in society, and can affect our experiences in life. Just curious how you all feel about your appearance, and if it contributes to your desire to ctb. Also, if you had to pick one thing about your appearance that you like/hate the least, what would it be? I think I would pick my eyes.
Ironically yes lol. After hating my face and body for years I've put a lot of time into the gym since I've got nothing else to do and I think I look great haha. I've gotten a lot of male attention and feel confident wearing revealing clothes for the first time ever. It just feels like too little too late ya know? Why couldn't I have felt this confident in myself before I ruined my life? It's legit the only thing I have going for me atm but it's not enough. It's what's inside me that's ugly tbh.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Enlightened
May 7, 2025
1,724
I'm actually okay with how I look. I could stand to lose some weight, sure... but I'm fine with my looks. I wasn't when I was younger... but I am now. It just doesn't matter.
 
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ManOfTheYear

ManOfTheYear

Fade, fade, fade, fade. Fade into the grave.
Sep 22, 2025
35
I'm pretty sure I've had a lot of people lie about my attractiveness to fuck. Always been told I'm good looking, had a few here and there tell me I'm butter face. I do know I have been avoided by all but unsure if attraction has a play or if they just smell reject and stay away.
 
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SuicidalTendencies

SuicidalTendencies

Member
Oct 13, 2025
6
I hate my face and my nose. Seeing myself in the mirror is torture and a reason to stay in bed the rest of the day. I avoid looking in the mirror.
 
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peabrains20

Totes Fleisch x_x
Oct 7, 2025
16
I feel like the root of all of my problems are my looks lol, if i were attractive, i kid you not i wouldn't be here on this site and suicidal as fuck
 
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elenaboo25

Member
Oct 19, 2025
68
I'm fat and ugly.
 
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loakms8

loakms8

my forking dad should have used condom!!!!!!!!
Oct 19, 2025
49
i hope my mouth is bigger and wider. no safe reliable surgery for that haha 🤣
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
531
Me I like my hairstyle with the emo looking swoopy thing cause it covers my right eye and I can't stand looking at both of my eyes in the mirror for long periods of time. Feels like I'm looking into my soul or some shit but I'm so detached from myself that I feel like I'm playing a dress up game with a flesh mannequin.

Hate my eyebrows though: the shape bugs me every time I look in a mirror. Doesn't feel full enough.

Something I've noticed with how I draw myself is that I first made this account when my hair was at my shoulders. Now it's gone past that by quite a bit yet I subconsiously draw me with shorter hair. Also the fringe isn't as long as that, I usually cut it to be about upper lip level as it's easy for hair as frizzy as mine to look overgrown if it went past my chin. Also I'm supposed to be wearing black crocs but they broke a couple months ago so the shoes aren't accurate to real life. I have naturally dark eyelashes though, and dark circles that keep manifesting in new ways every time I want to put eyeliner on.
 
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myfleetingmania

myfleetingmania

have i already sucked all the marrow out of life?
Oct 21, 2025
22
I used to not mind the way I look, sometimes I even really liked the way I look and felt confident. However, in the past 6 months I've experience some extreme trauma and I think I finally understand what people mean when they say stress can have physiological effects. I feel like my face and body have changed so much that I don't recognize myself anymore. I can't stand looking in a mirror and never felt so detached and hideous. It's been really challenging to come to terms with.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,784
due to the sepsis and the amputation I look like I have escaped from a ghost train
 
vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
524
I've never been told i'm ugly, but unfortunately my awful social skills seem to make it impossible to form any sort of relationship.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
302
I sure used to, and girls did too. But the mind inside was all messed up. Now I'm bald. Still kinda handsome but no charisma
 
Spite

Spite

Nil desperandum
Aug 20, 2025
70
I don't like the way I look. I think I'm ugly, like sub-5 ugly, and generally unattractive.
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Member
May 4, 2025
92
Sometimes I'll get a glimpse in the mirror of the girl I want to be, the one I probably could be with a bit of self-care and makeup. Unfortunately, it's hard to take care of yourself or keep up appearances when you're depressed. So, at best, I'm ambivalent about how I look.
 
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tempest_

tempest_

Student
May 30, 2023
139
my ugly face and body are the main reason why i wanna ctb. life is miserable for ugly folks esp us women since our whole worth is measured by our appearance.
 
SpencerSees

SpencerSees

I want to swim until my arms give out 🍀
Feb 22, 2023
115
I'm pretty ugly in the conventional sense, but honestly as long as you have a body someone will like you. If I had to choose, I think my eyes are the best part about me, not anything special but they are quite dark and I find that cool
 
MicahBell

MicahBell

we are not horses.
Feb 11, 2025
52
I've always struggled to accept my appearance. Sometimes I want to die because I hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I know looks are superficial and not important in the grand scheme of things. Still, appearance is highly valued in society, and can affect our experiences in life. Just curious how you all feel about your appearance, and if it contributes to your desire to ctb. Also, if you had to pick one thing about your appearance that you like/hate the least, what would it be? I think I would pick my eyes.
im not attractive, im chubby, and im very short. i know people will think its part of the reason i ctb but it really isnt. ive been able to live with it even with a lot of social anxiety. but honestly i dread the fact that people will probably think thats why i did it. my unattractiveness it more obvious to others than my (unrelated) mental illness
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
826
No not really, I want to fix my teeth but is a long process, but no i dont like myself at all.
 

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