Do you know anyone who’s died of suicide?

[ScarletTanager]

Had a childhood friend who used pills to die the week she turned 40 y.o. Sad, she was obese and didn't think she'd find anyone.

 

[ignorableaurochs]

Nope nobody

Very surprised my mum hasn't, she used to call me sobbing at least once a week threatening to do it

We no longer talk

 

[NonEssential]

Both of my mother's brothers have ended their lives. One when I was 11 and the other when I was way younger so I don't remember a lot about them. Maybe the time I was watching flash animations with one of them when I was visiting him and my grandma.
A couple years ago we visited one of their graves, my dad called his actions foolish, but I looked at his grave and said, "I'm sure you had your reasons."

 

[Crow_88]

Yes. My father committed suicide. They found him dead in his apartment.

 

[aiyuxhan]

One of my uncles who took care of me growing up. He got a work injury that made him disabled with chronic pain on a wheelchair. I understood why he did it. All I have is empathy and compassion for him.

And my yoga teacher :( Hers was sudden and a surprise. Although she did speak about her mental health sometimes with her students as a way to relate to us.

 

[softtodie]

Not someone I knew super well but a parent of someone I went to school with committed suicide a few years ago

 

[pixi]

i never got to meet my aunt, but she took her life in her childhood bedroom a few years before i was born. i've been cleaning out my grandpas house now the he's passed away, and after seeing her longggg history of psych ward stays and diagnoses and empty prescription bags, i know she was trying her best to stay. she just couldn't go anymore

 

[rabidbunny]

it was more a friend of a friend but we were mutuals online. i think we were seniors in high school and she had been recently raped with her friend on a night out. they both attempted and were sent to the psych ward. when she got out she attempted again and succeeded. i remember seeing the story of their rapes on our local news site and so many people in the comments were blaming them, two teenage girls for doing what so many teenagers do instead of the woman that tricked them and the rapist themselves. people are so horrible:/. anyways at the time i had already attempted myself and been in the psych ward twice. i feel guilty for saying this but i was secretly jealous of her suicide. i wanted to ask how she did it but ofc id never ask a grieving friend that. i remember looking at her priv ig account for weeks because it didnt feel real. i hope shes resting easy, she didnt deserve any of that.

 

[whiskers]

The closest I know was some guys that I talked to in an incel forum.

 

[LostLily]

I didn't know anyone personally in real-life who committed. My friend's sister, who I never met, hung herself when she was 15. Just a few weeks ago she wished her sister a heavenly 30 year birthday. Makes me wonder if I will still be remembered 15 years after my death.

I been going to websites like this for a while now and I wonder if any of them actually went through with it. The part of me hopes they didn't.

 

[Apokryphiel]

Outside of my brother, no. I've had a few friends in the past who struggled with suicidal ideation, but I'm not sure how or where they are these days.

 

[sadmarmoset]

my boyfriend killed himself a while ago, i had to call the police and report him missing. they found him shortly after. im heartbroken i didnt get to see him a final time or have a memorable goodbye, but im grateful he didnt ctb in our home for me to find him. its all so complicated and hard to live with

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I have. Didn't really change my opinion on it too much

 

[scndgyo]

I know two people, and they were friends of my friends. I barely knew any of them but sometimes I find myself wondering how they must have felt during their last few moments and if I'm any different from them. My friends seemed to have moved on easily but the thought of their existence pops back into my head every once in a while.

 

[bananaolympus]

Yes when i was 6 one aunt od over a breakup she was 17

 

[DoomCry]

Only indirect knowledge, when there are new obituaries in town someone mentions to you that it was a suicide. People don't want to talk about it, it's seen as a taboo.

 

[aiyuxhan]

one of my uncles who took care of me growing up, killed himself after getting an injury that disabled him in a wheelchair causing chronic pain :(

 

[Dot]

Sme1 wh/ slf grw up wth ctb on Xmas dy & hs fathr fnd hm @ hme

Siblngs of 3 othr ppl wh/ slf knw

Thre r sme othr ppl wh/ slf usd 2 knw mre in passng

Wll clarfy thy wre alll b4 SaSu xistd

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Nobody in my personal life, but a few people I met on this forum have passed on.

 

[suicidal_tendencies]

I lost my father from suicide when I was 6 or 7 years old. He hanged himself in the room of me and my brother on a thursday I think. I know this because my mother told me from it. It is now (more) than 10 years ago and I don't really remember him anymore. He had depression and suffered. Sorry for my bad sentence structure.

 

[Scythe]

Just people from SS, I wasn't personally close with them but they were a constant visitor in the SS server I'm in and it feels like something's missing now that they're gone. I also know someone not from SS who attempted and failed.

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

Yes,my youngest brother died just before Christmas from alcohol,anti depressants ketamine and fentanyl overdose,he was in a coma for 1 week then they turned it off due to severe brain dead,proper tortured my head it has and then 2 weeks ago my 2nd oldest brother sneaked into my home while I was sleeping and stole my dead brothers items I was given to remember him with,it's made me angry on the next level but my family try to justify his actions witch is driving me insane even more,it's made me hell bent on destroying him physically,emotionally and mentally because they all keep saying to me "we just want you back to normal" then that happens,how is any of what he did gonna help me get back to normal? It's impossible,I want my lil bros stuff back and i won't stop at nothing till I do get it whether I have to break the law or not,then I'll find a nice quite area and od myself on heroine so no one can recover me as I've had it with this world,all my friends gone,all family I gave a damn about gone and just vile ones left,so am done,not a single thing for me to live for other than getting my lil bros stuff back to accompany me on my final journey from this place

 

[SleepyTransit]

Not from me but a couple of my friends knew of people who have commited suicide.

 

[dieingasap]

My boyfriend. I wish i could have listened to all the stuffs he said seriously and followed him.

 

[Dark Moon]

No, I've known one or two people who died but I don't know the reason for their death.

 

[no-hope-no-future]

Apparently my dad hung him self, not sure how true that is as my mum was always full off shit.
I could see it being possible. After my parents split, I stayed with my dad for a while as the court's were doing what ever it is they were doing.
I remember when I used to get in from school I would walk through the front door and could smell the alcohol in the air. I would see him at his computer surrounded by beer cans with his head in his arms crying most nights. I hated school so was always looking to go home but getting in seeing that was tearing me apart so ended up hating being at home. Ended up in a massive cycle of not wanting to be in school or at home.

One night I got in from school so tired I went to bed , took my uniform off and went straight to sleep. I woke a few hours latter thinking it was the next day so proceeded to get dressed again, only to realise that my room was full of coppers and it was only a few hours later( I was really confused at this point)I was escorted down stairs and saw my dad on the couch, again head in his arms crying but just before I left, he raised his head and we bothed looked at each other full on eye contact, holy chap I can never get that picture out of my mind. I could see the pain in his eyes.

That hole experience must of just ripped him apart from the inside out.

 

[sleepy_redcar]

No, no one close to me, not even someone online, I did have an ex threaten me with it before, but I know he wasn't being honest because if you truly believe in it, either you don't threaten with it, or try to come to terms with it, but I don't believe in blaming someone for you doing it, there could be deep regret within you from the relationship not working that could drive you to it, yes, but threatening is not the way to go.

 

[Dyingoportunity]

My aunt took in this exchange student from Brazil who was like a cousin to me. He jumped from a high building while that side of my family took a trip to Chicago a week before New Year's. Everyone was torn up over losing him because he hid everything until he caught the bus, but he came from such a shitty abusive background that I can't blame him. Hell, I'm even a little jealous that he succeeded. i think my family caught on to that because they bombarded me with all this " you're so important to us, we care about you" stuff and still do to this day. They honestly and truly mean what they say and I know they will give me help should I ask for it, but I think that is why I have such mixed feelings about my life and potential ending of it.

 

[kotonearisato]

I've known many, unfortunately. My best friend took her life when we were 15. She and I had a lot of in depth conversations about it, but she had always said she wouldn't do it. Her family was very kind but unfortunately very strict, and in her culture arranged marriage was what was expected. She did it in part to escape from that. I still miss her every day.

A mutual friend ended her life afterwards because of her passing. She also had always struggled, and while we weren't close, we did grow closer after our best friend. Her twin brother and I unfortunately lost contact, but I think of him often.

My husband's cousin who we were both very close with took his own life after a bout of psychosis. Schizophrenia runs in his family, and unfortunately by the time we all realized what was happening, it was too late. We had never spoke of it, but we talked about mental health fairly often... I know if we had gotten him help sooner, it wouldn't have happened.

And finally, the person I thought of more like a little sister than just a friend passed a few years ago after an extremely traumatic experience. Her life and mine were very similar, in terms of the things we'd been through and our physical health issues. I wasn't surprised when it happened, only wished she'd given me the chance to fly out and see her one last time. Or at least not have to go alone. I miss her more than words can describe.

As for how it has effected me... that's hard to say. I've never blamed them for what happened - blamed external things, like the failure of the healthcare system, or the people who hurt my friends beyond repair, but never them. They knew that, I think. What it has done is give me a better idea of everything I would like to have set before I CTB myself. I constantly wish I had more of my friends to remember them by, things to hold, pictures... that kind of thing. For example I used to be really averse to pictures of myself, but since my last friend passed I've made sure I've taken more with the people I love so they'll have those. It makes it a bit more daunting if a task, because I feel like there's so many steps before I'm satisfied, but I at least feel I'm doing the best I can to make it easier for my loved ones.

 

[waitingfor]

At least three. An elder alcoholic left by the wife. A middle Ager severely injuried and crippled in and accident. A 19yo nobody knows why. There Will be more