Do you have friends?

[justabrokenguys]

No. They've all gone. And even when I had "friends" I felt I didn't, I always knew they would leave me at some point.

 

[saturn1402]

Surprise this question wasn't answered yet but do you have friends? I have a I guess kinda a mixed feeling, if I have friends or not. Sometimes it feels like I do but then sometimes it dosen't.

I used to have a lot of friends cause I used to be social and I always been a good friend always ready to help and be there for anyone.
Things changed after I broke up and ended up depressed. At first everyone was nice but almost immediately they got tired of me cause I was not fun to be around anymore …

I have no one. I live by myself and it's just work and home I don't drink or go to parties

And I'm in my mid 20s

Same here. I don't drink don't party and it's extremely hard cause most people idea of fun is going out drinking :(

 

[Anonymousa]

The only people now that are my friends now are from here. Otherwise mostly everyone else has left me.

 

[Aprilwithcake]

not any real ones i trust

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I answered "yes" but I only have 1 friend. Could be worth differentiating between "friends" and "friend". I think nowadays very few people have friends, may be more common to have 1 or none. Or maybe I'm biased who knows.

 

[SickNSad2024]

I don't have any friends who would give me a ride to or from the airport or to have profound conversations with. I once asked someone whom I thought was a friend if she had time to talk and she said if I needed to talk to someone, call the suicide hotline.

I wish I had someone genuine to talk to who won't just tell me to call a 1-800 #.

 

[areyousafe??]

I have a couple people who I can call "friends" but no one I can truly open up to.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

One or two not close, almost never see them, and then all of you guys.

 

[WaZedon]

My best friend who happened to be my one and only friend, took his own life last December. We'd talk every day for years. I've never known of such intense solitude and isolation. He was the sole reason I kept moving forward in life. Now that he's gone, I've got no one, but I'm sure that when I die, we'll reunify - let's hope it's shortly from now.

 

[Yonlux]

Friends? What's that? Is a new movie of Netflix?
My only friend is ever my mind, but sometimes I quest myself if that is an enemy that take my hapiness life and put it all in darkness...

 

[lostintheraincirce]

I have only two best Friends. The other are acquaitances, no more.

 

[divinemistress87]

Ya but not close ones. None of my friends except for one online deal with severe mental illness so its lonely

 

[kosmischerunfall]

no, my friends all left me for more extroverted, pretty ones.
always when i invest into friendships, they don't want to invest the same and only im left contributing to the conversation.
maybe im not made for friends.

i think im better on my own, because i won't be liked anyways, no matter what i try.

 

[goodbyeapollo]

I used to have friends.

Last summer I had a mental breakdown that ruined my life. I have bipolar disorder, but it was misdiagnosed as regular depression until last year. When I was manic I thought I was a completely different person. Had hallucinations, paranoia, delusions of grandeur.

I'm medicated and in therapy now but the damage to my relationships is done. My old friends are afraid of me now. I wrecked the happiest romantic relationship I've ever had. Honestly, the biggest reason I decided to CTB is I can't bear missing my ex-boyfriend anymore.

 

[manythanks]

Wish I could've been friends with alot of you guys, we all deserve beautiful friendships but it might be that our current society is designed to isolate people from one another, or maybe that's me who wasn't putting enough effort to form new friendships. As for me, i don't have friends anymore for 3-4 years now (im 33), but all that time i've desperately wished i had friends i was just very shy all my life and all the friendships before were just naturally occurring but not anymore.

 

[slinkey10]

Surprise this question wasn't answered yet but do you have friends? I have a I guess kinda a mixed feeling, if I have friends or not. Sometimes it feels like I do but then sometimes it dosen't.

Similar answer to yourself. I have some, but wouldnt talk to all of them about suicide. With real friends there is only so many times you can repeat the same story/feelings of CTB. Are we alone @that last moment whether we have ppl or not... yes.
Can it 'help' having ppl around who care ...yes.
?

 

[NeverHis]

Not in real life, no.
I have some online, one of whom lives close enough to count as real life, perhaps, but we never see each other due to our combined health problems. If I'm having a good day, she's not, and vice versa.

EDIT: And just about 2 hours after I wrote this, it seems that friendship is over too. Because she's delusional about a guy who doesn't want her, and can't handle me telling her he'll never give her what she wants. Oh well, though. I'm tired of hearing about this guy, so good riddance.

 

[Mooseanonsky]

I've got my best friend/roommate but that's it. I'm too lazy to make friends irl or online because I never have anything to say. I'd rather waste time messing with ai anyways

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I used to have friends, but that was a long time ago. Actually, that was back in high school and the only commonality we shared was partying. When that all ended, the "friendships" ended.

For many years, decades even, my cousin was my best friend. I could ALWAYS count on him to help me out of any jam, and I reciprocated that back towards him. I wouldn't have been able to talk to him about suicidal ideation, but that's ok. Regardless, he died in 2019 and that was the end of that.

Other friends I had over the years turned out to be not really friends at all. Some took advantage of me in one way or another, and after so many times it gets kinda old, so I just dropped them. Can't really say they were ever friends.

After my sister died in 2020, her long time boyfriend (20 years) and I started to get somewhat close. He was starting a business and I would go out to it and help him work on it. Everything was good until I asked him to give me some help in getting my boat ready for the water. It's not like he wouldn't have benefitted from it too since he also liked to fish. Anyway, after blowing me off a couple times regarding helping me, I just started doing the same thing towards helping him, and the "friendship", or whatever it was, just sort of dissolved. I haven't heard from him since and have no inclination to contact him.

So no, I don't have any friends. And it makes little sense to even try and make friends now, even if it were possible. I don't even have family left since they all died. I'm the last one remaining, and that is only until I get my shit done and can leave "comfortably" with "peace in mind". Hopefully, I can muster up enough energy this summer to get some things done.

 

[patheticparasite]

They all leave

I left them all and actively betrayed one of them. I do not deserve friendship.

Friends are work which I haven't managed to do for some years now.

That too.