Do you have an alternative to suicide?

[motel rooms]

I admire your sstrength. Not all of us are this brave.

I'm more angry with myself than strong. I'm sick of being afraid of pain. No pain, no gain...

 

[Deleted member 8579]

Mine is a mental institution for the rest of my life.
I know some of you find the idea of imprisonment horrible. To me it would feel like a relief if I willingly chose to do so.

I am not condoning any kind of violence, but you ought to take a look at the life of French mathematician André Bloch:
"Bloch killed three of his family members, for which he was institutionalized in a mental asylum for 31 years, during which all of his mathematical output was produced."

 

[motel rooms]

I am not condoning any kind of violence, but you ought to take a look at the life of French mathematician André Bloch:
"Bloch killed three of his family members, for which he was institutionalized in a mental asylum for 31 years, during which all of his mathematical output was produced."

Clever cunt

 

[torimandy]

My alternative is that someone steps in and gives me the things I need to be successful in life. My surgeries and companionship. That has about as much of a chance happening as a fart surviving in a wind tunnel though. I am now less than 90 days from my date. Nobody really cares.

 

[Lady black]

Mine is dying a slow death over months or years in agony

 

[Bullit]

It would be difficult for me to try and live because of my shame at

I find kind of comforting that life will eventually end. No matter what we do. It seems some of you believe it will last forever

I used to think that!

 

[bad_luck]

My dream is being diagnosed with a terminal disease that would leave me X number of months to live.

 

[Mentalmick]

None I can think of. It's either suicide or death from blood loss due to self harm. Either way, I'm dying by my own hand.

 

[Symbiote]

Put myself in riskier situations or do dangerous stunts that would have me killed.

 

[Mentalmick]

Put myself in riskier situations or do dangerous stunts that would have me killed.

If you have the finance, buy a motorbike. The kind of things I get up to on mine are only gonna end one way. DEATH!!!

This is my deathtrap

 

[onthelastday]

no, but I could continue to exist and prolong my suffering, but I don't want that, I don't think it's fair to myself, I just want everything to be over soon.

 

[Symbiote]

If you have the finance, buy a motorbike. The kind of things I get up to on mine are only gonna end one way. DEATH!!!

This is my deathtrap
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There's tons of motorcycle deaths in my general area every year. I think I passed one bad wreck where the dude got churned up in some 18-wheeler back wheels. I wonder if he felt anything....

 

[Celerity]

Theoretically, I could become One With the Universe (TM) during a mushroom trip in India.

Realistically though, more of what I'm doing now - alcoholism + video games.

 

[NormaJeane]

My parents should not have children - that is the problem - and do not let if fall on me.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

My alternative is that someone steps in and gives me the things I need to be successful in life. My surgeries and companionship. That has about as much of a chance happening as a fart surviving in a wind tunnel though. I am now less than 90 days from my date. Nobody really cares.

My desires for life are similar. I want money for surgeries.

Theoretically, I could become One With the Universe (TM) during a mushroom trip in India.

Realistically though, more of what I'm doing now - alcoholism + video games.

It's actually harder to live after you habe that realization.

 

[ErzsebetBATHORY]

id probably try to turn the entire world into a gutterpunk wasteland. somehow make anarchy the law of the land and have shit be on some apocalyptic shit. constant warfare, cuz im a военная сука. for those that dont speak the language of mother russia, that means war bitch. i live for warfare of some sort. conflict makes me smile. destruction is my fuel

 

[lofticries]

No matter what I refuse to die of old age and disease. That's all I'm gonna say. All I ask is for a quick peaceful end to this pathetic life I'm living. I don't want fame, love,fortune or any of that fleeting bullshit. Just give me the Death in the most painless way possible.

 

[nolongerhuman]

I could quit my current career path, withdraw from society entirely, and live out of a tent by the nearby river like I've noticed a few people are doing I guess. It's the only realistic alternative to suck it up and live my current life or ctb because my main problem is extreme social and performance triggered stress and whatever other job that I get, no matter how simple, is eventually going to give me just as much anxiety as the one I currently have. If it was financially possible to be an American hikikomori I'd consider it (I'll try anything at this point) but my relatives don't really have the finances to fully support my terrified and paranoid ass and it would be rude to even ask.

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

Theoretically, I could become One With the Universe (TM) during a mushroom trip in India.

Realistically though, more of what I'm doing now - alcoholism + video games.

You already are one with it, a mushroom trip won't evaporate you

 

[LetMeGoPlease]

No matter what I refuse to die of old age and disease. That's all I'm gonna say. All I ask is for a quick peaceful end to this pathetic life I'm living. I don't want fame, love,fortune or any of that fleeting bullshit. Just give me the Death in the most painless way possible.

I feel you, it sucks to want to have something or to have something that isn't going to be stable. It all feels fake. It's all unsafe. A bit of a fix so that you can fall back into the abyss from a higher level. If life is abyss then it's not worth to live in it. I just wish it wasn't so hard to kill yourself. Even life itself is fleeting.

I could quit my current career path, withdraw from society entirely, and live out of a tent by the nearby river like I've noticed a few people are doing I guess. It's the only realistic alternative to suck it up and live my current life or ctb because my main problem is extreme social and performance triggered stress and whatever other job that I get, no matter how simple, is eventually going to give me just as much anxiety as the one I currently have. If it was financially possible to be an American hikikomori I'd consider it (I'll try anything at this point) but my relatives don't really have the finances to fully support my terrified and paranoid ass and it would be rude to even ask.

I'm also paranoid. And I have debilitating social anxiety. I think people have a hard time understanding the emotional and mental turmoil that brings to one's life, unless they've experienced it themselves. I'm sorry it's so hard for you.

 

[return2dreamland]

being a NEET, or following my passions in the creative writing field and working until i have no passion left. life sure is looking bright! /sarcasm

 

[MrBigSad]

We exist , then we don't . On the positive side there are many creative outlets. Drawing, writing , painting, programming, excercise. And if you really want to feel again psychedelics are an incredible aid.

The solace I find is in potential, even if it's wasted . There's no rush :)

Thank you past me for encouraging me

 

[Hurt]

Nope. Only keep on living this miserable life. But I prefer to be dead at this point. Nothing brings me joy.

 

[Hope:-)]

Not anymore, no.

 

[Burner1234]

Yes, I currently have three options.
1. I can continue being a neet with my head in the sand like I've been for the past two years. This one is becoming harder to do.
2. I face my issues head-on. This one is difficult because I feel so drained all the time, and I start to overthink what could go wrong. I've got a mountain to climb and just thinking about it makes me tired. Like why even bother? Not to mention everything just keeps getting worse anyway. It sucks having to start over again.
3. I can do the nuclear option and disappear into the forest or some urban concrete jungle, which is something I'm currently contemplating. Just cut off ties to everything, no cell phone nothing nada.

 

[FogFilledLife]

A good alternative would be happiness and meaning that I derive from my self worth and desires. Not gonna happen though.

Fuck alternatives to suicide. Fuck them with an iron poker. If children are successfully ctb, I know I can do it too! I'm sure as hell not gonna spend the rest of my days suffering in vain & whining about being afraid that killing myself will be incredibly painful - let it be painful, let it hurt like a son of a bitch!!! What's a couple of hours of even the most horrific stress & physical pain compared to an eternity of FREEDOM from this pathetic, meaningless bullshit?? I refuse to be life's cowardly bitch.

This is why I want to seppuku. Don't know if I'll gather the will though.

 

[obafgkm]

To keep basement-dwelling and making failed attempts at leaving the NEET life until something dystopian or unexpected happens that forces my hand to suicide or kills me outright.

It's not a bad idea to die "naturally" in a distopia alongside other people. That would be a solution to my procrastination.