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hxppythxught

hxppythxught

。゚•┈୨♡୧┈• 。゚
Feb 14, 2023
93
Do you have a word, any word that just makes you feel really uncomfortable and triggers something horrible inside of you? A word that makes you want to cry or hurt yourself?
If you do, what word is it? You don't need to explain why if you don't want to, but feel free to.
 
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BroodingBleu

BroodingBleu

MtF
Feb 16, 2023
92
Less of a word and more of a phrase;
"I'll always be here"
Always has been a lie at the end.
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
"Messing around"
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
2,789
Think many but worse have any person skeptic injury damage, awful species all say awful
 
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LocalAngel

LocalAngel

Lost, wanting out.
Feb 7, 2023
214
Vtuber. Don't ask unless we're close.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,559
A certain person's name makes me feel sick- obviously I'm not going to name them here.

Other than that:

Pretty
Attractive
Successful

... everything I'm not basically...
 
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leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,304
My legal name.
 
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Dyscalculia

Dyscalculia

I calculated long enough, but man am I bad at math
Feb 12, 2023
6
Promise.

Because it always reminds me that whenever I trusted anybody, they backstabbed me, and used me for their gains.
 
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SickSadSlave

Member
Dec 18, 2021
26
There are some names that make me legitimately want to ctb when I hear them. Traumatic events tied to them. I even stopped playing one of my fav video games because one of the names comes up in the game a lot.
 
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5417807

5417807

Dumb Dog
Jan 11, 2023
76
A specific pet name. It's really common and I don't even like thinking or typing it because it gives me heart palpitations. It was what my abusers called me for years and I have got blacklisted on almost every site that lets you black list words. I have a ton of dumb little triggers like that that I became desensitised to but I can't shake this one for some reason
 
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donttellmybf2004

donttellmybf2004

Member
Feb 7, 2023
20
OH MAN I DO.
I worked at goodwill for a few years, and their radio station plays announcements. This is the phrase that triggers me.
"Every. Day."
The voice actor slows down a lot while saying it, and for whatever reason it's the most terrifying sound to me lmao. Sometimes stuff like this catches on me, somebody slows down their voice or adjusts to just the right cadence and I'm just terrified. Illogically, but terrified.
 
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vultureilse

vultureilse

ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
Dec 31, 2022
144
there are names that are just really painful for me to see or hear. wouldnt say theyre straight up triggering but they do fill me with a lot of negative emotions so i try to avoid even thinking about them
 
another40seconds

another40seconds

Member
Feb 17, 2023
11
a person's name
 
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tchaik18401893

tchaik18401893

tchaikovsky
Dec 31, 2022
121
i have a few but they are phrases
"bit your tongue, metaphorically or physically if you have to"
"i love you"
"stop"
A specific pet name. It's really common and I don't even like thinking or typing it because it gives me heart palpitations. It was what my abusers called me for years and I have got blacklisted on almost every site that lets you black list words. I have a ton of dumb little triggers like that that I became desensitised to but I can't shake this one for some reason
whenever i get anxious thoughts i get heart palpitations. once i had that strange pain in my chest for an entire day. I understand how you feel completely.
 
Unsure and Useless

Unsure and Useless

Drifting Aimlessly without Roots
Feb 7, 2023
275
There's a couple of phrases that sets me off, but I'll just name the first one that came to mind. (I can't think of a specific word at the moment either.)

"I'm proud of you."

Because that has only been told to me after I did something someone liked or after I was yelled at, insulted, manipulated, etc.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
Many works cause anxiety to come on..
 
XIII

XIII

Member
Oct 24, 2018
10
The phrase "what are you doing?"
It's a simple string of words that makes me freeze now, and I'll never forgive my old boss for yelling it at me.
 
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finishLana

finishLana

Student
Dec 12, 2021
152
"You're so green" like not getting some life experience if my fault makes me more suicidal
"Go work!!" like it's not depressing enough already…
"You're so negative and complaining too much" yeah that's what being depressed and miserable feels like intense unpleasant emotions
"Others have it way worse" as we all know comparing to others is sooo helpful to feel even worse and additional guilt as a bonus!
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,233
Cuddling, hugs or water, I freak out around those things with most people.
 
Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
514
"Mommy", that specific variant of "mom". Not always, but common to feel a bit sad hearing it, like I missed out.
 
CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
532
For me, it's someone's name. They're from my past. I'd prefer not to elaborate any further, sorry.
 
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goodbye_._

Member
Mar 19, 2023
60
kinda like a word but there is a couple names the trigger me. I try to forget them and luckily for me they don't come up often :)
 
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jamie_

Specialist
May 21, 2022
336
breakup, divorce, loss, cheating, left for, university, york, cycling, workout, running... the list goes on. anything that scares me or is reminiscent of the life i had.
 

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