Discussion Do you have a traumatic experience that has pushed you over the edge to ctb?

[todiefor]

Mine is my partner of 11 years turning into a cruel angry person hell bent on destroying me, emotionally abusing me for a whole year then divorce, while telling everyone that I am a monster and that's why he is divorcing me. I have lost any ability to trust myself or anyone else at this point, and I can't deal with failing my loved ones and becoming a emotional burden to them. I really rather die than to feel this abused and out of control and fearful and controlled by someone ever again, and I rather die than to be a burden to my family and have them look after me while I continue to fail them and be dependent on them.

 

[suicidalloser]

yes—many of them, the biggest one being from 2020-2021; alexander marussenko

 

[Actovania]

No, not a single one. I don't know why I'm here.

 

[sayire]

Mine is my partner of 11 years turning into a cruel angry person hell bent on destroying me, emotionally abusing me for a whole year then divorce, while telling everyone that I am a monster and that's why he is divorcing me. I have lost any ability to trust myself or anyone else at this point, and I can't deal with failing my loved ones and becoming a emotional burden to them. I really rather die than to feel this abused and out of control and fearful and controlled by someone ever again, and I rather die than to be a burden to my family and have them look after me while I continue to fail them and be dependent on them.

my biggest reason is in essence the same, emotional abuse from so.
trust myself or anyone else quote from you makes me feel you were likely abused by a narcissistic partner
I wish you the best in finding your path to peace - truly wish for recovery if not a peaceful enough exit path

 

[bleep276]

Was framed for a crime causing me to lose my friends, job, education, possessions, and the girl I loved. I have nothing but sorrow now

 

[suicidalloser]

Was framed for a crime causing me to lose my friends, job, education, possessions, and the girl I loved. I have nothing but sorrow now

why'd it have to be a 'girl'
gays > straights

 

[Pluto]

I didn't have a single big traumatic event, but constant emotional abuse over my lifetime has added up to make me feel like a total wreck. The danger here is that some people think that there has to be a big event (such as a violent attack) for trauma to be valid, but it's not so.

 

[90starve]

when i was 16, i was groomed by a 23 year old man - the relationship was sweet for about a month, until it turned into constant mental torment - and finally, physical and financial abuse.

he is a narcissistic alcoholic with BPD - which makes for quite a cocktail of manipulative tactics and such, especially due to my fragile circumstances at the time. when i moved into my first rented property after turning 18, he insisted he moved with me - i threw him out, which resulted in him breaking back in through a window using a fork he found outside. that's just one example of the wack things he would do!

this all lasted for several years - it wasn't until a year ago that he finally left me alone. although, he popped back up with a disgusting email yesterday, explaining that he "should've been more supportive", blaming it on the stress of his daughter (who he wasn't and isn't allowed to see) starting school. he did not acknowledge any of the hideous things he did to me at all, and offloaded the blame onto anybody but himself.

i thought i was suicidal before - but the damage that this man has done to my life isn't even comparable to anything i have ever dealt with.