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Outsidelessness

Outsidelessness

Zero is immense
Feb 13, 2023
57
Well, my life will soon come to an end. So I will finally spit my shit here.

Imagine having had a happy relationship that gets constantly defined as abusive, where people get rewarded and praised for convincing you that you were raped.

If you're critical and still don't want to die, or have a reputation to uphold, don't respond to this thread. Don't interact with it, don't speak to me, I only want people who have nothing left to lose to speak here. I only want people to spill their true conceptions of how the world works in full honesty; we need the advice of those who have nothing left. I don't even give a fuck about this being too cohesive because I know for a fact that anyone worth their salt to anyone else will not fucking respond, some spineless people will even come here and tell me that I was abused just to garner moral points. I only want to say one thing: this isn't a difficult idea to understand. Only people who have nothing are allowed to disagree. I don't care.

We've completely lost meaning on what abuse truly is anymore, and we've continually worshipped the impotent traditional means of managing problematic relationships when these limiting AoC laws simply don't fucking work; abusive psychopaths will always curb the law in the most creative ways you can think, and there are so many false positives for what it's worth. There are many people who have stretched my experiences (including CSA victims), shoved things into my mouth, told me that I "don't understand", as if these people are convinced I developed a stockholm syndrome. There are so many people out there with this incessant grooming panic that intensifies itself by social fearmongering. What gives me so much emotional distress about it is that it proposes itself as being primarily concerned for the well-being of children when that only comes secondary. It's a masked, superficial and simulative concern that runs its course as a cultural virus. The more you think about it, the more you realized how it's made things worse, the more you realize how utterly fucking mad and lost everyone is about this, the deeper you realize that you can only say nothing. We will all notice the elephant in the room and let it stay. Not a concern for children first, but a defensive mask first.

I have no valuable reputation to uphold, I will assassinate every FUCKING lie said about these ethical relationships until I die. Everyone has seen it happen: If anyone expresses any opinion that deviates from the primary conceptions of "[age threshold] = abuse no matter what happens", they are completely unsafe in society. It's an actual fucking worm that infects anyone who even has a few friends, anyone who even has a public presence to uphold. We are no longer defining what abuse is holistically, we are no longer attempting to mitigate a whats considered to be a problematic dynamic, we are going to keep this impotent law and use it as a moral reference for absolutely every situation that falls under it! The relationship I had was nearly identical to the relationships I've had as an adult, with the only difference being age. He didn't fucking beat me, he didn't extort my nudes, he didn't force me to do anything, he was literally nothing but nice to me. You expect me to believe you when you say I was abused? Fuck you. It's so INSANE to me that everyone just has a moral reward system to uphold this stupid fucking delusion that I am a CSA victim. Everyone has to make assumptions that my dysfunctional behavior was from my relationship when there's worse experiences and other conditions I have.

These will be my last words:
When will the lies stop?

This intense cultural procession of forcing people to believe they were raped, while allowing for more to suffer at the same time, all in the name of keeping the social position; it just unravels the sheer morbidity of how far the madness of humanity can come. It's the deepest horror that's probably the biggest reason why I want to leave.

Once you see it, you can't undo the sight. And once you articulate it, you are gone.
 
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Neutral

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People are retarded. Why would you let them get to you?
 
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hankly

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Jun 15, 2025
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I think if you're a non-judgemental person it can come as a shock that others are very judgemental and aggressive.

When you're down people kick out and project their shit onto you.

Doesn't matter how hard you try and how far you get against the odds one moderate we'll intentioned mistake can ruin absolutely everything.

It's like landing on a snake at tile 98 and being pulled all the way back to the start. It's just not conducive to wanting to build anything again.

Also, when you're in crisis you just want help and for the pain to stop, from this some well meaning people might jump in but nobody can know the complexity of your life. It's why good habits and environments are better than hope and luck.

It's also super difficult to try and find the fire to rebuild when things are taken from you that you didn't consent to giving up.
 
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Outsidelessness

Outsidelessness

Zero is immense
Feb 13, 2023
57
I think if you're a non-judgemental person it can come as a shock that others are very judgemental and aggressive.

When you're down people kick out and project their shit onto you.

Doesn't matter how hard you try and how far you get against the odds one moderate we'll intentioned mistake can ruin absolutely everything.

It's like landing on a snake at tile 98 and being pulled all the way back to the start. It's just not conducive to wanting to build anything again.

Also, when you're in crisis you just want help and for the pain to stop, from this some well meaning people might jump in but nobody can know the complexity of your life. It's why good habits and environments are better than hope and luck.

It's also super difficult to try and find the fire to rebuild when things are taken from you that you didn't consent to giving up.
For reasons beyond the thread topic, I really needed to hear that.

Thank you.
 
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TheLastGreySky

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Nov 24, 2023
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Well, my life will soon come to an end. So I will finally spit my shit here.

Imagine having had a happy relationship that gets constantly defined as abusive, where people get rewarded and praised for convincing you that you were raped.

If you're critical and still don't want to die, or have a reputation to uphold, don't respond to this thread. Don't interact with it, don't speak to me, I only want people who have nothing left to lose to speak here. I only want people to spill their true conceptions of how the world works in full honesty; we need the advice of those who have nothing left. I don't even give a fuck about this being too cohesive because I know for a fact that anyone worth their salt to anyone else will not fucking respond, some spineless people will even come here and tell me that I was abused just to garner moral points. I only want to say one thing: this isn't a difficult idea to understand. Only people who have nothing are allowed to disagree. I don't care.

We've completely lost meaning on what abuse truly is anymore, and we've continually worshipped the impotent traditional means of managing problematic relationships when these limiting AoC laws simply don't fucking work; abusive psychopaths will always curb the law in the most creative ways you can think, and there are so many false positives for what it's worth. There are many people who have stretched my experiences (including CSA victims), shoved things into my mouth, told me that I "don't understand", as if these people are convinced I developed a stockholm syndrome. There are so many people out there with this incessant grooming panic that intensifies itself by social fearmongering. What gives me so much emotional distress about it is that it proposes itself as being primarily concerned for the well-being of children when that only comes secondary. It's a masked, superficial and simulative concern that runs its course as a cultural virus. The more you think about it, the more you realized how it's made things worse, the more you realize how utterly fucking mad and lost everyone is about this, the deeper you realize that you can only say nothing. We will all notice the elephant in the room and let it stay. Not a concern for children first, but a defensive mask first.

I have no valuable reputation to uphold, I will assassinate every FUCKING lie said about these ethical relationships until I die. Everyone has seen it happen: If anyone expresses any opinion that deviates from the primary conceptions of "[age threshold] = abuse no matter what happens", they are completely unsafe in society. It's an actual fucking worm that infects anyone who even has a few friends, anyone who even has a public presence to uphold. We are no longer defining what abuse is holistically, we are no longer attempting to mitigate a whats considered to be a problematic dynamic, we are going to keep this impotent law and use it as a moral reference for absolutely every situation that falls under it! The relationship I had was nearly identical to the relationships I've had as an adult, with the only difference being age. He didn't fucking beat me, he didn't extort my nudes, he didn't force me to do anything, he was literally nothing but nice to me. You expect me to believe you when you say I was abused? Fuck you. It's so INSANE to me that everyone just has a moral reward system to uphold this stupid fucking delusion that I am a CSA victim. Everyone has to make assumptions that my dysfunctional behavior was from my relationship when there's worse experiences and other conditions I have.

These will be my last words:
When will the lies stop?

This intense cultural procession of forcing people to believe they were raped, while allowing for more to suffer at the same time, all in the name of keeping the social position; it just unravels the sheer morbidity of how far the madness of humanity can come. It's the deepest horror that's probably the biggest reason why I want to leave.

Once you see it, you can't undo the sight. And once you articulate it, you are gone.
I will say having just seen this, the truth is it's not a battle of people's opinions so much as it's a battle of people's narratives. We are storytellers by Nature, and people will tell you what to think and what to feel and what is normal. What is normal to us might be crazy to someone else. Like respectfully, I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that we both think two cousins falling in Love Is bizarre and possibly even disgusting... Mind you this is just an example. How does whatever the hell two consenting adults do affect us? If they get married and have kids how does that affect us? And respectfully there are entire organizations committed to spreading lies to demonize said hypothetical relationship and instill the fear that The offspring will be mutated and have extra toes and all kinds of nonsense when in reality it takes generations of inbreeding to cause mutation.

It doesn't matter what is right or wrong on a personal level. Because society wants to control the lives of every individual and they say what is right what is wrong. So at the end of the day the only thing you can do is keep whatever relationships you have private. As a polyamorous person it is no one's business but my partners what we do. But will people say it's oppressive or sexist or wrong? Yeah. But it's always the unhappy people obsessed with crushing others happiness.
So I always see people complaining as I must be doing something right. 😏
 

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