Do you have a mental health condition which, if it were cured, would end your suicidal ideation (eg, depression, anxiety, OCD, bipolar, PTSD, etc)?

[G50]

How many people here have a mental health condition which is the main cause of your suicidal thoughts? If you were able to cure or greatly improve your psychiatric disorder (with pharmaceutical drugs or supplements, for example), do you think your suicidal ideation would then mostly end?

 

[LastNite]

I have MDD (depression). I think if it's gone then yes I wont be suicidal. But nothing can really fix it. I need to change a lot of things in my life for it to go away. I need to move out. I need a job and a lot of other things to live without having to feel suicidal or depressed everyday.

 

[rs929]

MDD here too. I''d have to build friendships as a 40 years old, and its hard

 

[TheUncommon]

Living in a world full of willfully ignorant, self-delusional entities is what causes my mental health condition. Who would have thought people don't like to confront evidenced-based reality and would rather live in their own comfort.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

No. I did not become who I should have age 15-35. There's no cure for that. I'm just a badly turned out person. It needs to end.

 

[Liebestod]

I have a lot of mental health conditions. I have a psychotic disorder (schizoaffective disorder) mood disorders (bipolar disorder but was also diagnosed with depression before) a personality disorder (avoidant personality disorder and possibly antisocial personality disorder) anxiety disorders (generalized anxiety disorder and social anxiety disorder) neurodevelopmental disorders (autism and adhd), an eating disorder, and possibly ocd. There's a good chance they contribute to my suicidal ideation however I think even if I didn't have those disorders I would still be suicidal because of my philosophy and the cycle of life and how it works. Bottom line is life is suffering, it's literally a biological mechanism for humans to evolve. Life can only be propagated be selfish or insane animals. There are many other reasons why I'm suicidal I made a list of over a hundred reasons why.

 

[MrsT-800]

Anorexia, PMDD, CPTSD for sure. Maybe depression and anxiety. I don't think removing them would make me less suicidal. I've always been like this, calmly accepting that I'd prefer to die

 

[Chemi]

My bipolar disorder. Every time I think I've got a chance at a normal life again, like a new job, either a depressive episode hits and I am too exhausted to keep fighting, or I get a manic episode and throw my life away to follow my new shiny, very important hobby.

I'm just destined to keep falling back into my hole. Meds help, but make me so incredibly numb that life in itself is just no fun, and I become indifferent to it.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

No. I'm here because my life turned on a dime & there's no way to undo it, & I have no desire to adjust to these new circumstances.

 

[frightful-venison]

I think it all goes back to my ADHD. I think if it would go away then it would make the anxiety and depression manageable. But there's no cure for that. Even with medication I have to live with it, its part of me

 

[PI3.14]

I'm diagnosed with MDD, anxiety, ADHD, and BDD.

Except for ADHD, the rest are all reactions to circumstances, and some of these circumstances have been going since I was a kid.

I don't think my mental health could just be cured without large changes in my life itself, which is not going to happen.

 

[happy2die]

How many people here have a mental health condition which is the main cause of your suicidal thoughts? If you were able to cure or greatly improve your psychiatric disorder (with pharmaceutical drugs or supplements, for example), do you think your suicidal ideation would then mostly end?

definitely. CPTSD, ADHD, Bulimia attack me every single fucking day. having good parents would have helped though

 

[wordsoutb4sumnelsin]

Wow, trip to see this after writing a long ass thing... I have to diagnose these - I say diagnoses aren't that simple. They need not be labels or limiters. If validators, cool. But fwiw, for a small moment it's able to surge in me, just some HUMAN LOVE for y'all

 

[littlecutecorpse]

maybe MDD, since that's all i've been officially diagnosed with. but i think the better solution would to have been able avoid the shit that made this whole life collapse on me. or better yet, not be born at all

 

[G50]

I have MDD (depression). I think if it's gone then yes I wont be suicidal. But nothing can really fix it. I need to change a lot of things in my life for it to go away. I need to move out. I need a job and a lot of other things to live without having to feel suicidal or depressed everyday.

Might your depression be caused not just by life circumstances, but also by a biological condition in the brain?

Increasingly, mental health conditions like depression are being linked to inflammation within the brain. So there is a physical cause for these depression symptoms. Of course, adverse life events or life circumstances can make such physically-caused depression worse. But the original cause might be physical.

So then antidepressant drugs and supplements may help.

In my case, for my own depression, I did badly with SSRI drugs (they made the depression much worse), but I respond quite well to the TCA drug amitriptyline. Also my secret weapon is saffron 100 mg, shown in studies to be as effective as antidepressant drugs.

 

[merlinscries]

I wish it was just mental. I have mental and physical health diagnoses, of which not all of them are actually diagnosed. I know I have them, its just that nobody really cares. lol.

 

[thegreatminderaser]

it's hard to suss out what i feel because i'm mentally ill and tangible reasons i'd like to die. i guess the real difference is if i weren't mentally ill, ideally i'd have ways to cope and not be AS suicidal at minimum

 

[kuroshimi]

Officially diagnosed with MDD and anxiety. Probably have some form of OCD and ADHD.

Took meds, which helped a bit, but i think the better cure to this is just not existing at all.

 

[Lost Dreamer]

Sure, if I didn't have to hate myself every day and didn't have to cope with the resulting emotional turmoil, I would probably enjoy living very much. I mean I've never gotten diagnosed or anything, didnt have the means so I can only speculate to why I feel so bad or why just existing hurts so much. Anxiety? Depressed for too long? Some flavor of autism? Does it really matter?Putting a label on my problems won't fix them and while I could endure whatever I'm feeling there is not a point really. I know, have always known I'll keep getting hurt over and over and over again no matter what change i bring to my life. Even when I'm happy a part of me can't help but think "This feeling is temporary. When will the bad feelings come back?". My life has started revolving around that, the time of the week when I will feel absolutely terrible and have to devote all of my willpower to simply power through. I cannot wait for the day when I can stop this vicious cycle of pain.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

My C-PTSD, OCD, and NPD are probably the ones that lead to the most ideation in the the long run.

I MIGHT be able to live with the BPD and Persistent Depression, but they also might have to be cured.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I have a few mental illnesses that cause my suicidal ideation. I think if they were cured, it would stop the suicidal thoughts for a little bit, but my current living situation and the current state of the world will definitely retraumatize me, making my suicidal thoughts inevitably return.

 

[HansaNull]

I believe depression can be compared to having cancer. Some can be cured, some can get along with treatment and some are terminal.
In my case its terminal. I've tried medications, ECT, books, therapy and the list goes on. Nothing works, and i think nothing ever will work.

 

[madeincruddy]

Honestly, I'm not even 100% sure what I have other than autism, ADHD, and depression. I've suspected NPD, but I haven't pursued diagnosis yet. My therapist has also speculated I might have bipolar II.

Out of everything, I'm the most 'fine with' being autistic. Like, it can suck shit, don't get me wrong, but it's not the reason I'm suicidal, so I can live with it. Plus, my special interest actually makes me want to live.

NPD is like, eh??? If I had the choice, yes, I'd want to be cured, but I don't think it makes me suicidal (other than the very low self-esteem). I think the best way to describe it is FOMO, I'm jealous that other people just have the inherent ability to be 'human.' Like, experiencing stuff like love, connection, empathy, emotions normally. Some people are genuinely kind, and I wonder what that's like, to act with literally no ulterior motives. To me, it's a kind of blissful ignorance I'll never get to experience.

ADHD, depression, and possibly bipolar yes. Having untreated ADHD fucked me over completely, depression/bipolar I don't think I even have to explain. ADHD makes me literally unable to do anything unless I'm medicated and my depression is so all-consuming that even if it is episodic/technically temporary I don't want to live with it.

 

[badatparties]

My depression is a normal reaction to the human condition, unless you can fix that, then no.

 

[gunmetalblue11]

Maybe without my C-PTSD and OCD I could have a mildly more pleasurable life experience. But I could never forget the abuse I was put through which is a major reason for my wish to catch the bus.

 

[Decayed]

no because the world will always be the same world that caused my diagnoses (DID, HPD traits, MDD, Anxiety) i'm not suicidal because of internal shit tho that definitely doesn't help but you would have to change the world for me to want to live in it

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not even sure I am mentally ill. Maybe mildly to moderately depressed. That was the diagnosis last time. It's hard to tell really. Would life feel better with more hope, with a more positive outlook? Maybe. Would it give me the motivation to do more? Maybe. Would that make me happy? Maybe.

I've spent so long- maybe my whole life, like this though. It's hard to imagine myself as someone else. It feels more like whatever I might have is intrinsic to me so- it's hard to even imagine a me without it.

I suppose the honest answer is- I don't know. How can we really know though? It's a bit like saying- how would your brain feel totally rewired? We probably can't even fully predict what it's like to be another person.

I chatted once to a lady I really admired. She seems so confident and go getting. Turns out, she was full of the same anxieties I was! So- how can we even know how peaceful that brain actually is?

Maybe there were things I would have been better off without- a tendency for eating disorders and (most probably) limerence but- I've managed to get them in check.

Maybe what I'd personally need more are better life prospects. More and better conditions in creative jobs. But- that's on the decline so- what is there to even pursue? Even if I was in tip top mental and physical condition to do it? So I suppose I think overall- no. Even if I was a perfectly rounded human being, I don't fit comfortably in this world.