I have a handful, which I'm very grateful for. My girlfriend (we were friends for 3 years before romance began), an irl friend whom I've known since 2007, two online friends (though one of them lives barely an hour from me now) since 2020, and another online friend that I met earlier this year. They are all wonderful people whom I love dearly, but it's not enough. I've never felt loved by another human being a day in my life. The only one who ever made me feel loved is my cat, who's now been dead for over a month.