Discussion Do you hate having your picture taken, or looking in a mirror?

[_milo]

Having my picture taken, absolutely hate it. Looking in a mirror is different, I don't necessarily dislike it, it's just like looking at a different person. I don't feel attached to my body.

 

[Buffy5120]

Yes, I can see what I've been through just by looking at my face.

Yes omg this comment

 

[ladolcemorte]

Definitely. I avoid mirrors and photos at all costs. I am in a group that meets on zoom now, and I cannot stand seeing my face on the screen. I am so ugly. I dont even look human.

 

[TheEndof]

I don't have much of a problem looking in the mirror but hate photos. I refuse to have my photo taken and never take any myself. I look ok in the mirror usually but absolutely disgusting in photos.

 

[UglyMutt]

Yes, I'm probably the most hideous person on this forum.

 

[Pupu]

I don't like taking photos, and actually I don't even know what do I look like. Yes, I've taken photos and I've seen myself from mirror, but in different photos I look so different. In different mirrors I look so different. In same mirror it feels like I look so different at times. But none of them is attractive. I hate to buy clothes, I actually went to expensive shop to get one cloth hoping that shop assistant will find easily the fitting one so I don't need to stare mirror too many times. Oh, and I had eaten a sedative too to keep myself as one peace mentally and it was a bit embarrasing since the shop assistant had actually help me to wear the cloth probably because of the sedative. I don't like to go outside too, not because it would be a problem how stranger people might notice me or usually not, but I hate to see those good looking people. I don't want anything bad for them but I still envy them and feel so bad about myself.

 

[Skylight]

Yes, so much so I don't even recognize myself. I can no longer see the person who I once was...

 

[Puppy]

Yes I honestly tear up almost every time I look in the mirror or even think about my face and feel insanely uncomfortable talking to people/showing my face to others in anyway because I'm guessing they're disgusted with how I look. i can't stand the face I'm stuck with

 

[The Dark Chaos]

Looking in the mirror!! Godd..that's a nightmare..I wonder how stupid it is of me to expect people to love me when everytime I cringe while looking at my reflection in mirror.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Yes, yes! Like everyone in this thread, I really do hate how I look and can sympathize with everyone in this thread. Everyday I'm daydreaming of some kind of fantasy-like reincarnation (my supposedly next life) where my appearance is customized to how I want it. It's depressing.

The more I think about it, the more things I want to change and the most jarring are the things considered taboo like my skin color. Social media always loudly proclaims how everyone should be proud and love their skin color no matter what, especially those with dark skin tones. But I don't love my skin. I'm ashamed to say it but even I wish I had a pale, white complexion and pretty blue eyes. I hate the fact I wasn't lucky enough to be born beautiful but it's not so bad that I'm constantly depressed about it.

For most people, I believe it's just something you're forced to accept as time goes on. Or else living is just more hellish. Like something you know at the back of your head and wholeheartedly at the same time. It's easier living knowing you're uglier than anyone's comments or beliefs, regardless of what they believe when you're at rock bottom.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Yes!

I will not look in full length mirrors. I only look in a small mirror to put my make up on.
The worst ones are the full length ones on the back of toilet doors, make you feel awful.

I have a few selfies, I take maybe 1 every 2 / 3 months and definitely nothing full length.

Love & peace ❤

 

[sadbunny]

yes and no but it's just because i don't understand what im seeing in the mirror

 

[Rockman]

Had a long story hateing myself. Really deep hate, feeling unconfortable with myself. Thats my parents job. Being not so ugly that i thought but in the end damage is too deep.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Absolutely. I don't even feel human. I feel like a disgusting, deformed blob.

 

[just_nobody]

I've always hated having my picture taken, even as a kid. I'm an attractive person but I don't take many selfies compared to other people, mainly because it feels silly to me. I'm always looking in the mirror though, because I'm always afraid I may have something on me or something is messed up that I'm not aware of but for some reason, I hate looking at myself in the mirror when other people are around. I have no idea why. I don't even like fixing my makeup or hair in public restrooms when other women are around. For some strange reason, it's slightly embarrassing to me and I have no idea why lol. My anxiety has never made sense though.

This is totally my life. My anxiety makes just as little sense!

I needed a recent photo of myself for a work thing the other day and was looking through my phone, Fb etc for ages before realising there were just no photos of me. It made me really sad as then I was thinking is it because I don't like having my photo taken or is it because nobody else wants to take a photo of me

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

I've never really liked people taking photos of me, although I kind of wish I liked it more. There's barely any evidence of me existing.
To some extent, this is good.
I've become creeped out by mirrors as of relatively recently because I noticed my eyes are kind of... wrong...
I can't pinpoint the issue exactly. Something with the irises.

 

[JamesF]

Cant bare it

 

[Womble]

Before I have a shower I have to pass by a mirror and every time I do it I end up staring at my own face and wanting to scream at it for looking so fucking ugly and unlovable. How could anyone care for that person in the mirror, they're not worth anything. It usually takes a little bit before it properly clicks with me that I'm not just talking to someone else who looks like me, it is literally me.
I know it sounds like such a simple thing to realize but it takes a while to properly click and I don't know why.

 

[maru.]

If i could, i'd change literally everything about myself. My weight, my height, my skin color, my eye color, my hair color, my hair consistency, my hands, my legs, my nose, my ears, my mouth, my feet, my shoulders... All of me.

 

[Isittimetogonola]

When friends want to take pictures, I immediately head to the bathroom. I dont want to be in pictures especially when I plan to CTB. Being forgotten is my only request.

 

[Bct]

I'm still okay with taking photos as long as my face is angled. I hate to see photos of my face looking straight at the camera because it mostly looks weird, no matter how many takes I've tried.

 

[one.way.out]

I don't like it. I hate seeing my ugly face.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I hate seeing what I look like. I look so ill and tired, I try to avoid mirrors. I am just tired of being me in general. Of course the true ugliness for me lies on the inside rather than the outside.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Depends on the lighting.

 

[m9q2As2$IG]

I also thoroughly dislike looking at myself. Pictures are okay, but I hate mirrors. For a long time I never looked in mirrors at all, except when absolutely necessary. Now, sometimes, I stare at myself in the mirror for 10 minutes or more (especially in the bathroom while naked), just to remind myself how much I hate myself, and my body, just to increase and further develop my self hatred. I feel like I deserve to look in the mirror and see the despair in my eyes.

 

[doesntevenmatter]

I absolutely hate it. I avoid it like the plague when possible. Kind of hard when shaving, though.

 

[auror.]

I don't like having my picture taken, especially on days where I think I look nice. My idea of what I look like is inaccurate. It's flattering, but inaccurate. Mirrors reinforce that image; photos expose the lie.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

What's a Smile?

 

[Makko]

I don't hate it but when I see myself in the mirror or on pictures I don't immediately recognize that it's me. There's a pretty long lag until my brain makes the connection between what I'm seeing and myself. I guess it's a derealization thing.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I detest how i look. Havent taken a picture in so many years and i always say no (if i can) to any request to take a picture. Even when i shave or pluck eye browse i only do it to with very dim light because i cant bare looking at myself for long time in the mirror. I have physical condition that affect my skin and hair and causes balding and acne all over plus my hair started greying at 16 and now at 36 almost most of my hair and beard is grey. I wear a hat all the time when i am out and i also always stay in my room because i cant bare the thought of my family looking at me and judging how bad i look even without saying anything but i cant stand pity looks

I also thoroughly dislike looking at myself. Pictures are okay, but I hate mirrors. For a long time I never looked in mirrors at all, except when absolutely necessary. Now, sometimes, I stare at myself in the mirror for 10 minutes or more (especially in the bathroom while naked), just to remind myself how much I hate myself, and my body, just to increase and further develop my self hatred. I feel like I deserve to look in the mirror and see the despair in my eyes.

Self hatred isnt enough to bring me to want to ctb. I wish it was but here i am with absolutely loathsome self esteem alive and kicking