Do you feel sad about CTB being your only option?

[venin]

No, I wouldn't say I feel sad. It isn't my only choice for a start- I could make other choices but they look even less appealing. I'm more angry and afraid that I'm going to have to risk doing this to myself if I really want out.

Good point

 

[hdahsa]

In a way - yes I do feel sad that ctb is the only way out. If things were different or there as a glimmer of hope then I would go a different way. On the other hand, I am also relieved that I have a way out when the time comes.

 

[venin]

Yes. My life could have gone very differently, and it wouldn't have taken much, either. I wish I wasn't in this situation, but I am, so I must reach a point of acceptance. I've made progress in doing so, but there are still days when I lament the past.

I hope you reach eudaimonia

No I am just sad I keep pussying out.