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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
My severe depression has cut me off from society as I am largely bedbound and am presently incapable of positive emotions or enjoyment. Even before, I felt like an alien visitor in society, in part because I think and feel deeply and most people don't relate to that. There is a lot of superficiality in society I've tried to model in order to fit in, but realized I wasn't really being myself so it wasn't something I was interested in or particularly good at.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,110
Hmmmmmmmmmm, nah bruh
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
I think that's like a core foundational belief for hundreds of millions of Buddhists buddy.
I was listening to a Buddhist teaching a few years ago and one quote that stood out for me was, "Anything can happen at any time." I've since discovered that "anything" can be worse than I would have imagined could happened to me again, but here I am.
 
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littlecutecorpse

littlecutecorpse

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ absolute girlfailure ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Nov 13, 2025
171
nah, never felt like i had fitted in w anyone or any group, not even when i was an itty bitty kid. maybe it's because i'm this much of a shithole as a person. and now i can't even meet the standards i have for myself anymore.
 
Bitch With An Apple

Bitch With An Apple

"Student"
Jul 10, 2019
209
I literally don't even think society is real so whenever I engage with "it" I'm just mimicking whatever I think other people think I'm supposed to be doing. Apparently very poorly lol.

I don't think I'm all that out there, in fact I try to keep my composure, but I'm clocked as being "crazy" all the time nonetheless.
 
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android

android

Member
Nov 9, 2025
88
somehow id rather be an outsider than be an insider.
nah, never felt like i had fitted in w anyone or any group, not even when i was an itty bitty kid. maybe it's because i'm this much of a shithole as a person. and now i can't even meet the standards i have for myself anymore.
I think some wiring is chosen by nature to self-select out of the gene pool. Unfortunately we have to suffer

Consciousness is the enemy
 
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Lucilius

Student
Feb 15, 2021
134
Absolutely. I am not part of society. Just some weird creature in a temporary commensalist arrangement with it.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
555
I don't feel like I'm not part of society, I'm in fact not part of society, in every possible aspect.
 
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