I always knew that my existence was a mistake, and no matter how hard I try to prove that I can be useful, every time I am more and more convinced that it would be better if I was not born. Are there people here with the same problem as mine ?
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Yes I've always disappointed others
My condolences to you, I understand how awful it is, I hope there are people who will appreciate you
Loneliest
Slow dancing to my death
- Jun 23, 2021
- 40
Yeah I feel like a piece of shit really. All I do is let people down.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,319
My whole existence is just one big disappointment in every way. I feel like I was never meant to exist. I wish I was never born really.
Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,619
Yes and Yes. I feel like a Fckn piece of Shit disappointment 24/ 7, daily basis. Absolutely Fckn hate it. I've tried to do better but I keep falling.... Deeper and deeper. Fml
CaliCatCharlie
Nature's Mockery
- May 28, 2021
- 70
Yeah, I always feel the same too. It's like you can never really do anything right to not be disappointing. Glad I can CTB soon though.
I never used to but I've come to the realization that I am a disappointment to so many people, especially those closest to me. There are so many examples of how I let people down, I think it will be easier for all if I wasn't around. In fact I'm certain of it.
meetapple
Mage
- Jun 3, 2021
- 585
My parents worked hard for me to get an education and I still have no job at 48 and spend my time doing nothing. So yes I am a disappointmen.
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,031
people tell me they love me. they tell me they care. they tell me its ok.
but i cant help feeling like a major screw up.
my death would just magically fix everything, like it wasnt ever a problem.
but i cant help feeling like a major screw up.
my death would just magically fix everything, like it wasnt ever a problem.
I feel the same. I am disabled, a constant burden, I can't even ctb with my fucked body and I have lost the few people that helped me to see the best in life. Why? I don't know. Maybe I am a worst person than I thought
stygal
meow
- Oct 29, 2020
- 1,731
I feel like that sometimes too...but I also feel like the world (my parents) failed me by dragging me into this mess. What did two emotional unstable Idiots expect (I forgave my mom by now though) ?
Bagger
Stressful
- Jun 18, 2019
- 331
Yeah, my whole life. I mess up everything I touch. My every attempt at doing things or help someone proove that. My clumsiness with "skills" I have are worse than no help at all. I'm just useless.
I've often felt that I'm the oddball of the family, and in a sense I am. Simply because my opinions are different and I personally feel that I am the underachiever of my family. With that stress involved in trying to succeed I feel completely worthless at the slightest failure I commit. So yeah, I do feel like my family is disappointed in me at times. Even though they tell me they love me, it doesn't feel completely right.
motel rooms
Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
- 7,081
Everything that exists is constantly disappointing ME
Oh yeahhh being called the p for anxiety people hate they believe I'm choosing to be weak
littlelungs
Wizard
- Oct 21, 2018
- 646
Constantly.
No matter what I do, I always feel like I'm fucking it up somehow, and that someone is going to be disappointed or otherwise let down because of me. I am completely unable to work or study because there's so much that's wrong with me. I can't even go out into the world – not even if I'm just being pushed around the block in a wheelchair – because of all of these issues that ravage my body and my brain. What would be considered by most to be a simple task or a nice outing carries so many risks for me and always leaves me bedridden afterwards.
My parents have nothing to be proud of – I can't even bear to write my dad more than once a month or so, because I feel like I'm bothering him just by checking in with him and not giving him any news about anything I've achieved, and I feel guilty for not being able to tell my mom anything even remotely interesting about my daily life. I feel like a broken record.
My mother-in-law, who goes grocery shopping for my husband and I because we're too ill to be able to do it ourselves and have no one else to turn to (my family is on the other side of the Atlantic), has made it very clear that our basic needs are burdensome and that it's so hard for HER that we're so sick. Every time I see her she looks so disappointed, so now I just stay in my room while she brings the groceries by because I can't stand to see that look on her face.
Even when it comes to my husband, who says I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him and that he loves me unconditionally, I still feel like a huge disappointment because he's so sick, too, and I wish I could do so much more to help him. I just want to make everything all better, and it kills me that I can't.
One of the times I was taken to the psych ward by a police officer, the officer asked me why I didn't want to live anymore, and I simply answered, "Because I'm bad at life, and I just don't want to be bad at anything anymore."
By merely existing, I feel like I've completely failed as a wife, a friend, a daughter, a human being... and I truly wouldn't blame anyone for thinking I'm a disappointment, because I think the exact same thing about myself. No matter how disappointed someone is in me, I will always – ALWAYS – be far more disappointed in myself.
No matter what I do, I always feel like I'm fucking it up somehow, and that someone is going to be disappointed or otherwise let down because of me. I am completely unable to work or study because there's so much that's wrong with me. I can't even go out into the world – not even if I'm just being pushed around the block in a wheelchair – because of all of these issues that ravage my body and my brain. What would be considered by most to be a simple task or a nice outing carries so many risks for me and always leaves me bedridden afterwards.
My parents have nothing to be proud of – I can't even bear to write my dad more than once a month or so, because I feel like I'm bothering him just by checking in with him and not giving him any news about anything I've achieved, and I feel guilty for not being able to tell my mom anything even remotely interesting about my daily life. I feel like a broken record.
My mother-in-law, who goes grocery shopping for my husband and I because we're too ill to be able to do it ourselves and have no one else to turn to (my family is on the other side of the Atlantic), has made it very clear that our basic needs are burdensome and that it's so hard for HER that we're so sick. Every time I see her she looks so disappointed, so now I just stay in my room while she brings the groceries by because I can't stand to see that look on her face.
Even when it comes to my husband, who says I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him and that he loves me unconditionally, I still feel like a huge disappointment because he's so sick, too, and I wish I could do so much more to help him. I just want to make everything all better, and it kills me that I can't.
One of the times I was taken to the psych ward by a police officer, the officer asked me why I didn't want to live anymore, and I simply answered, "Because I'm bad at life, and I just don't want to be bad at anything anymore."
By merely existing, I feel like I've completely failed as a wife, a friend, a daughter, a human being... and I truly wouldn't blame anyone for thinking I'm a disappointment, because I think the exact same thing about myself. No matter how disappointed someone is in me, I will always – ALWAYS – be far more disappointed in myself.
crush
damaged
- Jul 19, 2021
- 19
i feel like such a burden to everyone. my family and friends pretend to like me but its so obvious im annoying and an embarrassment to them. ive done nothing but disappoint my mother and she reminds me of that daily. i just want to escape from this feeling. i feel like everyone would be relieved and finally happy if i just finally died you know? im just tired of ruining everything and making everyones lives miserable just by existing.
Dear Agony
The Void
- Jan 24, 2020
- 296
Yes, I'm legitimately a burden to my parents and brother because of my several mental illnesses, I am paralyzed at home because of them, unable to work or study and no perspective of a life, and leech off of them. My brother has told me several times he is ashamed of me.
DunnoWhyButYeah
~*-*~
- Apr 3, 2020
- 400
Neowise
We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
- Oct 7, 2020
- 508
I am disappointment in person.
I usually try to lower other people's expectations about me, but they still set them too high and I manage to disappoint nonetheless.
I usually try to lower other people's expectations about me, but they still set them too high and I manage to disappoint nonetheless.
valentine
Student
- Apr 2, 2019
- 101
Yeah. I'm unemployed and live with my mom. She gets mad at me a lot for laying in bed all day. I don't blame her. I think my friends are also becoming sick of me having constant crises. I've had several people leave my life because they couldn't handle it anymore.
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