Do you feel embarrassment about being suicidal

[Jade10666]

I don't at any embarrassment - it's my choice and I have a right to end it as I see fit.

But I am aware that my family will probably feel embarrassed. I will be the last person they expected it from. More so, if I end up livestreaming it as planned (assuming I can figure out how to do that)

 

[DivineSpark]

In some countries and cultures (some religions as well) it is considered as shameful, but in my country, they offer help if you struggle with such condition.

 

[getoutgirl]

I do feel ashamed that my brain caves to self destruction so easily while others endure the pain for some reason. Sometimes I think I'm weak or defective for it. Comparison is a bitch, even when you are literally comparing your willingness to not-die.
If I ever do it I would be faaaaar from the top of the list of people they least expected though. I'm pretty sure some people I've lost contact with think I'm probably dead and I wouldn't blame them for taking those odds.
I don''t know If you have said this already but why are you planning on livestraming it? What brings you to that?

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

Not really. The world is a shitty place so there's nothing to be ashamed about really

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

no i don't feel embarrasment or ashamed about being suicidal. i would never want to be a slave in this prison hell world and evil life

 

[bankai]

Yes I'm embarrassed about it, ashamed. I've been conditioned to feel that way though. I have realized one thing. If you're miserable and that doesn't change for a long time you're better off dead. what's the point in living when you're just suffering? think about it.

 

[Jade10666]

I do feel ashamed that my brain caves to self destruction so easily while others endure the pain for some reason. Sometimes I think I'm weak or defective for it. Comparison is a bitch, even when you are literally comparing your willingness to not-die.
If I ever do it I would be faaaaar from the top of the list of people they least expected though. I'm pretty sure some people I've lost contact with think I'm probably dead and I wouldn't blame them for taking those odds.
I don''t know If you have said this already but why are you planning on livestraming it? What brings you to that?

Regarding livestreaming - I don't know - in the same way, I don't understand why I am suicidal. It just feels right. I suppose I could give you all these arguments that favour it, like education, but they are not true - it's just something about being watched in my final moments that feels right, but I don't know how to do it, so I may just bypass it thought and get on with it. I say that, because it may be my excuse to delay it.

 

[wiggy]

Not at all, I think it's highly dignified.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't feel embarassed or ashamed. I think it's a reasonable reaction to this life. I think maybe another interesting question is: Will our families feel embarassed? And, is there cause for them to be?

 

[Busridin'26]

I used to bc of abuse / conditioned to feel so. I don't really anymore though. Ig I do when expressing it to those that do don't really get it or like if I'm more on the agitated sode of feelings vs numb. / people seeing me & hearing me dsyregulated

 

[nooseknot]

Embarassed of what?Quite contrary to that I rather feel I'm being part of a very special kind of "elite"

 

[Moniker]

Sort of. I had a lot going for me when I was younger. I'm barely functioning in spite of how privileged I am.

My constant failure to actually ctb makes me feel more ashamed. I always back out when I attempt. It's really pathetic.