Venting Do you ever think you’re Invisible

[attheend13]

My whole life lve wondered if I'm actually invisible once I tried to test it and im still not sure. I don't seem matter in any level. I'm actually nothing. How can that be? I mean I truly wonder sometimes if I can be seen and heard. I'm still not sure. I feel such deep pain I can't be invisible right? Someone must see me or hear me? I do t know anymore. How can someone have such little value and still be real?

 

[J&L383]

Not literally. (In dreams I am sometimes though). But sometimes I feel at the very least overlooked and ignored.

 

[broken_doll]

i wonder the same thing too, about myself. i never found a concrete answer to disprove it either, or anything. only felt more invisible as time went on. doesn't help im agoraphobic with no friends xD functionally and literally invisible, even online.
anyway, bunch of words for me to basically say thatt i really relate

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

My whole life lve wondered if I'm actually invisible once I tried to test it and im still not sure. I don't seem matter in any level. I'm actually nothing. How can that be? I mean I truly wonder sometimes if I can be seen and heard. I'm still not sure. I feel such deep pain I can't be invisible right? Someone must see me or hear me? I do t know anymore. How can someone have such little value and still be real?

Honestly sometimes I wish I was invisible.. But people still see me.

 

[attheend13]

i wonder the same thing too, about myself. i never found a concrete answer to disprove it either, or anything. only felt more invisible as time went on. doesn't help im agoraphobic with no friends xD functionally and literally invisible, even online.
anyway, bunch of words for me to basically say thatt i really relate

It's a very difficult answer if it's imperial evidence I don't exsist . If it's experience it's the same. I wish I was not here . But that doesn't matter does it?

 

[render]

yeah definitely, i especially have a problem where people don't hear what i say because i'm kind of quiet or my mic keeps fuckin w me, and they don't realize they're ignoring me but they are and i don't realize it until i've already slipped into the spiral haha.

i don't know i think it's a really bad experience. i don't know if this applies to you but it's really isolating, i don't feel like anyone has ever genuinely cared about me beyond what i can do for them or who i remind them of. i honestly don't even feel human sometimes, if i'm not invisible then i feel like some kind of scared spiney creature with hooks and claws.

dunno it's a weird feeling. maybe all of us invisible people will be seen someday. maybe not, but hopefully we will. im sorry i hope everyone is doing well tonight, we'll push through one way or another

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not to make light of it but, sometimes those automatic doors in shops wouldn't open when I walked right up to them. I'd have to start waving my arms around like an idiot. Then I'd be like- maybe I died! What was the last time I spoke to someone?!!

Quite often, I can see people becoming glassy eyed when I talk to them. I think I probably do go on though. If it's because I think it's that they don't actually give a shit at all though, I just stop midway through a sentence sometimes to see if they'll notice.

 

[isolatedl111]

My whole life lve wondered if I'm actually invisible once I tried to test it and im still not sure. I don't seem matter in any level. I'm actually nothing. How can that be? I mean I truly wonder sometimes if I can be seen and heard. I'm still not sure. I feel such deep pain I can't be invisible right? Someone must see me or hear me? I do t know anymore. How can someone have such little value and still be real?

Yeah,
I have no human contact

 

[attheend13]

Not to make light of it but, sometimes those automatic doors in shops wouldn't open when I walked right up to them. I'd have to start waving my arms around like an idiot. Then I'd be like- maybe I died! What was the last time I spoke to someone?!!

Quite often, I can see people becoming glassy eyed when I talk to them. I think I probably do go on though. If it's because I think it's that they don't actually give a shit at all though, I just stop midway through a sentence sometimes to see if they'll notice.

I get that. People are inherently selfish but mostly I think I'm just a black hole.

 

[savory]

Figuratively, yes. Can be when I've gone too far isolating myself, when I've felt invalidated and dissociate, have an emotional flashback. The sense of literally being invisible and worthless can be resounding. its not easy believing I have value when I'm not allowed to express my feelings or have needs

 

[attheend13]

Figuratively, yes. Can be when I've gone too far isolating myself, when I've felt invalidated and dissociate, have an emotional flashback. The sense of literally being invisible and worthless can be resounding. its not easy believing I have value when I'm not allowed to express my feelings or have needs

I've been feigning needlessness for years. It hurts less than stating a need and being rejected for it.

 

[savory]

I've been feigning needlessness for years. It hurts less than stating a need and being rejected for it.

It's really painful feeling the need to deny your own needs. I'm not sure it hurts me any less than being rejected, just in a different way. Deprivation is a sneaky fucker

 

[sorrymyfault]

My whole life lve wondered if I'm actually invisible once I tried to test it and im still not sure. I don't seem matter in any level. I'm actually nothing. How can that be? I mean I truly wonder sometimes if I can be seen and heard. I'm still not sure. I feel such deep pain I can't be invisible right? Someone must see me or hear me? I do t know anymore. How can someone have such little value and still be real?

Almost daily these last few months, maybe it's the anhedonia but the feeling can't go away. I'm disconnected from reality, nobody cares if I'm there or not, unless they can make fun of me for the loser I am

 

[dontwakemeup]

I feel invisible because I can't be myself! I have to constantly act "normal" and say the right list of things that society feels are correct. Nobody sees the real me and will never understand the amount of pain I carry everyday. I just want to die is all I want to tell them.

 

[PA𝖨𝑁]

i do relate, as a kid i've felt invisible around my family,still do around people like a ghost

 

[attheend13]

i do relate, as a kid i've felt invisible around my family,still do around people like a ghost

I guess it's all part of a dissociation.