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That is my brain.
- Mar 1, 2024
- 35
I do. In late 2022, I planned to catch the bus for the last time. But a new friendship stopped me. Only to then realize, it was not even worth it. I was not supposed to live through 2023, yet I did, on a mutual promise to not end it. now again, my birthday passed relatively recently, and i realize that now its been 15 goddamn years. Why was I on the fence for so goddamn long? Why am I beleiving the lies of pro lifers "it will get better" IT FUCKING DOES NOT. 15 GODDAMN YEARS. I am 28. 15 years is more than half of my entire life. More than half of my entire damn living life, i have been depressed and uninterested in living, yet I did it anyways. Half of my goddamn life. Why the fuck did I not get on with it sooner. Why the fuck am I even delaying it now? FUCK