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Nlis2244

Nlis2244

Forever alone
May 13, 2022
132
I never did actually. I always embraced it. The prospect of not being alive eases the pain.
 
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NocturnILL

NocturnILL

She will become the wind…
Sep 11, 2023
434
I definitely have for years. Before attempts and after attempts. If I'm being raw and honest, I just don't want to fight anymore. I don't have it in me. Sometimes the fight comes up and I think that life can get better and things can turn around yadada life doesn't have to be like this yadada. Then I think about how much more false hope do I need to give myself. Just start taking meds again, get hospitalized, stay in therapy, go to the gym, journal, do yoga, meditate etc and everything will be ok??. Already existing on reserves as it is. i just can't do it anymore. I am past exhausted. I don't have the strength as many others do. I find extreme comfort knowing I can be at peace. I think I deserve peace. Idk I could go in…but over I fought a good fight and now I proudly wave the white flag.
 
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hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
I hold back these thoughts mostly by denying they exist in the first place and drinking too much
 
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LeperGnome

LeperGnome

Member
Nov 14, 2023
57
No, I'm past that. I'm now just waiting for a certain event to come to pass to put my plans into action.
 
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