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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
104
Lmao I genuinely can't believe many people's first thought at the prospect of a train suicide is delays. You get one bad day where you might be late to work, that persons family will grieve forever.

They made a decision. That's not our fault 🤷

I'm sorry for being cruel.
 
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majnun

New Member
Mar 15, 2026
4
I mean... I want to feel loved, after death... I think people would at least want to look at me and hold my body and cry if it looked "normal"...
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,712
No, that wouldn't even make sense to me as in non-existence all will be gone and forgotten, the peace of non-existence erases everything and all I want is to be permanently unconscious of the terrible mistake of existence, I'll only be glad to never suffer ever again, non-existence is just all that's positive for me, for me ceasing to exist would be a positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, this existence should just never be imposed at all.
 
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dearlydeparted44

Experienced
May 21, 2025
285
To be honest I don't really care. I'm dead. Why would I ever care about what happens to my body, or if it looks weird?
This is how I feel. I mean, if I'm THAT concerned about such a thing like looking beautiful after I'm dead, I should probably slow down and re-evaluate my decision. I might not be serious and just need someone to talk to. Death is beautiful in that it is escape from life. However, life does go out of its way to make it look as ugly as possible.
 
PainThreshold

PainThreshold

Member
Feb 3, 2026
11
I don't even care how i look before i die. Still, i would prefer if all of my limbs are intact.
 
ohsosleepy

ohsosleepy

Member
Feb 9, 2026
17
I just don't want to leave behind a corpse that's more upsetting than necessary to see. I've thought about dressing up and doing my makeup before I die. I never have the energy to do that normally, and it would be kind of like the last special occasion I get to do my best to look pretty for.

But getting out of here takes priority over how I look when I'm gone.
 
myriapoda

myriapoda

happy birthday!
Jun 24, 2025
46
I plan to kill myself by train (decap) and, among other things, people's concerns seem to lie heavily in that you sort of end up.. a mangled mess.

It's not for everyone I guess. For me, it's one of the more intriguing parts of the method.

Do you care how your body looks? Would you be upset if it was blue, torn apart, sickly looking? Do you want to look like you're sleeping, or like you've been mauled?
not really. if anything i would most likely want my body in some way to be unable to has a open casket since ik that my mom wouldn't listen to my desire of being cremated instead. i dont want to forced to wear something that isnt me. but it's whatever, i dont expect a lot of respect if u did ctb tbh.
 
refractiongirl

refractiongirl

my metamorphosis will be
Mar 7, 2026
11
i don't really care for how my body would look after death, but i do know i would prefer to have it as mangled and messed up as possible, since i hate how i look and would almost like my body to be a physical representation of the mental suffering i've had to endure. which, unfortunately, probably won't be a possibility for me since i'm not planning on a particularly violent method and am thinking of either hanging or chemicals 💔
 

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