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Do you care how your body looks after you die?
Thread starterburninghill
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Lmao I genuinely can't believe many people's first thought at the prospect of a train suicide is delays. You get one bad day where you might be late to work, that persons family will grieve forever.
No, that wouldn't even make sense to me as in non-existence all will be gone and forgotten, the peace of non-existence erases everything and all I want is to be permanently unconscious of the terrible mistake of existence, I'll only be glad to never suffer ever again, non-existence is just all that's positive for me, for me ceasing to exist would be a positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, this existence should just never be imposed at all.
This is how I feel. I mean, if I'm THAT concerned about such a thing like looking beautiful after I'm dead, I should probably slow down and re-evaluate my decision. I might not be serious and just need someone to talk to. Death is beautiful in that it is escape from life. However, life does go out of its way to make it look as ugly as possible.
I just don't want to leave behind a corpse that's more upsetting than necessary to see. I've thought about dressing up and doing my makeup before I die. I never have the energy to do that normally, and it would be kind of like the last special occasion I get to do my best to look pretty for.
But getting out of here takes priority over how I look when I'm gone.
I plan to kill myself by train (decap) and, among other things, people's concerns seem to lie heavily in that you sort of end up.. a mangled mess.
It's not for everyone I guess. For me, it's one of the more intriguing parts of the method.
Do you care how your body looks? Would you be upset if it was blue, torn apart, sickly looking? Do you want to look like you're sleeping, or like you've been mauled?
not really. if anything i would most likely want my body in some way to be unable to has a open casket since ik that my mom wouldn't listen to my desire of being cremated instead. i dont want to forced to wear something that isnt me. but it's whatever, i dont expect a lot of respect if u did ctb tbh.
i don't really care for how my body would look after death, but i do know i would prefer to have it as mangled and messed up as possible, since i hate how i look and would almost like my body to be a physical representation of the mental suffering i've had to endure. which, unfortunately, probably won't be a possibility for me since i'm not planning on a particularly violent method and am thinking of either hanging or chemicals
i guess in theory, mainly because if my room mate ends up seeing my body i dont want it to be gross or more upsetting then it needs to be, but i also do know i wont be there and it wont matter. if the body looks gross and no one sees it, it's fine for me.
my feelings are a bit mixed on this subject, honestly… the idea of my brutalized corpse forever traumatizing whoever finds it is rather unfortunate. i'm not sure i'm particularly fond of the idea of leaving a mess that's difficult to tidy up either. regardless of how messy it gets, i would like to be wearing nice clothes when i die.
simultaneously, it won't be my problem anymore, and i won't even be there to see the consequences. so maybe it really doesn't matter.
Yes cuz im conceited Like even for a while, I've put off doing it cuz I didn't want peoples memories of me to be an ugly and gross bitch. So I've started taking more care of myself so the image they hold of me is better. I'm planning to go with psh so I've ve kind of accepted the fact that the aftermath of the actual method will be displeasung, but I dunno I'll try to starve at least in the 24 hours beforehand and only comsume liquids
i always worry about things, and with planning my death i've been so worried about the people i'll be leaving behind. so having a method that wont leave me looking horrific for my family when they find me was super important. i think with sn my body should only turn slightly blue? thats not bad at all. i'll be tucked into bed snug as a bug sleeping forever!!!
It bothers me a lot , i put aside my CTB Plan until i lose some weight and look less gross enough , i don't want peoples last impression of me looking gross
I plan to kill myself by train (decap) and, among other things, people's concerns seem to lie heavily in that you sort of end up.. a mangled mess.
It's not for everyone I guess. For me, it's one of the more intriguing parts of the method.
Do you care how your body looks? Would you be upset if it was blue, torn apart, sickly looking? Do you want to look like you're sleeping, or like you've been mauled?
I wish I was as brave as you, I've attempted train decap ish, police were called and it ended with 6 squad cars and 20 officers looking for me plus all trains being slowed. I really love the idea of a train suicide, just leaving behind a bloody mangled mess is so romantic to me. Im trans so I hate my body and the idea of ruining it as one last piece of revenge seems so cool to me. Once again, I envy you >w<
i don't care
like, i would prefer my body just to disapear from human eyes, but i'll unlikely die in an isolated forest or something like that
i don't think i care sufficiently about how will be the world after i die, so how will my body be doesn't actually concern me
I wish I was as brave as you, I've attempted train decap ish, police were called and it ended with 6 squad cars and 20 officers looking for me plus all trains being slowed. I really love the idea of a train suicide, just leaving behind a bloody mangled mess is so romantic to me. Im trans so I hate my body and the idea of ruining it as one last piece of revenge seems so cool to me. Once again, I envy you >w<
I'm trans too. I'm quite lucky, there's a spot near me that's publically accessible, but there's no cameras and it's not frequented. I've attempted twice there, though only one time did I manage to put my neck on the rails for real (besides just sort of… practicing)(I ended up standing up with around 30 seconds to spare), it's pretty impossible to get caught. I'm also really drawn to the idea of my body being destroyed after death, it's quite dramatic.
I don't really consider how I look only because I'm already desperate enough to escape suffering (have been for many years, only kept postponing due to copes and waiting for the right time and right circumstance), and ultimately it's all about minimizing suffering (brutal yet quick, peaceful whether prolonged or quick, etc.) and also succeeding above all else because that is the most important factor of an attempt (for me).
I already am ugly as fuck, couldn't care less about my rotting corpse tbh. Would prefer more peaceful methods so that my organs dont spatter everywhere tho. For my family's sake.
I'm vain: I want to look presentable when the police come to wheel my body off to the mortuary. I hope they don't change my clothes before they bury me though, I don't want them fiddling with my style (also the thought of someone undressing my corpse disturbs me).
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